I wanna die. I can't handle feeling this worried and angry and frustrated all the time. I wanna be alone.
I want no one to amor me, I want no one to contact me.I want to run away from this life because I can't handle it anymore. I've felt this way for 5 years and each año it gets a little bit worse. I need to die. I'm supposed to be the strong one,
the girl that never cries and will stick it out through anything and is level headed and cool and can hold herself together. I'm supposed to be the girl that is alone and doesn't need anyone to help her with her problems. It was like that before!
I didn't need anyone else. I could handle and supress feelings on my own. But now I can't. Honestly, I just feel really pent up inside. Like I need a release. But I don't have one. Everything I do makes me frustrated and its killing me.
Literally. I guess that's why I want to die. I feel like all of my abilities and my potential is fading away and I have no way to express myself. And the worst part? No one'll listen. They're all too obsessed with themselves to listen to
what I have to say. It's embarrassing really, that I can't handle this on my own. That I need Thomas to calm me down when I get angry. It sucks, I wanna do this alone. I don't wanna be a burden on anyone other than myself. But I feel like I'm a
burden to my boyfriend. He probably thinks of me as dumb baggage, only weighing him down. He could do so much if I weren't around, wrecking everything up wherever I go. He could be happy if I weren't here. He could do anything really, with me not weighing him down. I need to learn how to handle this myself. It's either that o I die. I would much rather die than be a burden on his shoulders. I amor him so much, I hate that I'm doing this to him. He probably doesn't amor me and is
lieing. Hell, everyone does that. They lie to someone because they feel sorry for them. That's what he's doing to me, I know it. He feels sorry for me because I can't seem to pull myself together. That is the only explaination in my mind.
He couldn't amor me, how could he when I can't even amor myself? How could he ever amor someone as spineless and courageless than me. He deserves so much better. He deserves a girl that can take care of herself, not one that he has
to pull together every second. I'm too damaged, too broken for him. He doesn't deserve me. He deserves someone much less sad and anxious than me. I amor him. I really do amor him. I would give the world to make him happy, promise. But I
honestly think that I'm not making him happy. And if I'm not making him happy than I don't want to be with him. I amor him so much that I would break up with him if it meant putting a smile on his face. I'd like to believe he'd do the same,
but honestly I'm not convinced. I wish I could make him as happy as he makes me but I doubt that will ever happen. I'm too much of a burden. I'm too stupid for him, not pretty enough for him. Like I dicho a billion times, he deserves so much better than me. Why is he even with me? I don't understand. He should've left por now. We weren't supposed to last this long. We weren't supposed to fall in amor with each other. This is wrong. If I would've known 8 months hace that I would amor him and trust him as much as I do now I wouldn't have asked him out in the first place. Without me he could actually be happy. I could see that beautiful smile of his forever, through the windows of heaven. o hell, ya know, whichever I end up in. I just want him to be happy and the only way I think he could truly be happy is without me.
tu know, I talk a lot about how much I amor him but sometimes I wonder if I really do. Maybe I'm just delusional and I don't amor him and I just want someone to take care of me cause I can't do it on my own. Maybe this is all in my head, and he doesn't amor me and he is just dating me because he feels sorry for me. tu know what? I'm sick and tired with being a burden on him. I wanna die so he doesn't have to deal with me anymore. My flaws are too prominent. He doesn't deserve someone with my number of flaws. I'm not perfect enough for him.
I want no one to amor me, I want no one to contact me.I want to run away from this life because I can't handle it anymore. I've felt this way for 5 years and each año it gets a little bit worse. I need to die. I'm supposed to be the strong one,
the girl that never cries and will stick it out through anything and is level headed and cool and can hold herself together. I'm supposed to be the girl that is alone and doesn't need anyone to help her with her problems. It was like that before!
I didn't need anyone else. I could handle and supress feelings on my own. But now I can't. Honestly, I just feel really pent up inside. Like I need a release. But I don't have one. Everything I do makes me frustrated and its killing me.
Literally. I guess that's why I want to die. I feel like all of my abilities and my potential is fading away and I have no way to express myself. And the worst part? No one'll listen. They're all too obsessed with themselves to listen to
what I have to say. It's embarrassing really, that I can't handle this on my own. That I need Thomas to calm me down when I get angry. It sucks, I wanna do this alone. I don't wanna be a burden on anyone other than myself. But I feel like I'm a
burden to my boyfriend. He probably thinks of me as dumb baggage, only weighing him down. He could do so much if I weren't around, wrecking everything up wherever I go. He could be happy if I weren't here. He could do anything really, with me not weighing him down. I need to learn how to handle this myself. It's either that o I die. I would much rather die than be a burden on his shoulders. I amor him so much, I hate that I'm doing this to him. He probably doesn't amor me and is
lieing. Hell, everyone does that. They lie to someone because they feel sorry for them. That's what he's doing to me, I know it. He feels sorry for me because I can't seem to pull myself together. That is the only explaination in my mind.
He couldn't amor me, how could he when I can't even amor myself? How could he ever amor someone as spineless and courageless than me. He deserves so much better. He deserves a girl that can take care of herself, not one that he has
to pull together every second. I'm too damaged, too broken for him. He doesn't deserve me. He deserves someone much less sad and anxious than me. I amor him. I really do amor him. I would give the world to make him happy, promise. But I
honestly think that I'm not making him happy. And if I'm not making him happy than I don't want to be with him. I amor him so much that I would break up with him if it meant putting a smile on his face. I'd like to believe he'd do the same,
but honestly I'm not convinced. I wish I could make him as happy as he makes me but I doubt that will ever happen. I'm too much of a burden. I'm too stupid for him, not pretty enough for him. Like I dicho a billion times, he deserves so much better than me. Why is he even with me? I don't understand. He should've left por now. We weren't supposed to last this long. We weren't supposed to fall in amor with each other. This is wrong. If I would've known 8 months hace that I would amor him and trust him as much as I do now I wouldn't have asked him out in the first place. Without me he could actually be happy. I could see that beautiful smile of his forever, through the windows of heaven. o hell, ya know, whichever I end up in. I just want him to be happy and the only way I think he could truly be happy is without me.
tu know, I talk a lot about how much I amor him but sometimes I wonder if I really do. Maybe I'm just delusional and I don't amor him and I just want someone to take care of me cause I can't do it on my own. Maybe this is all in my head, and he doesn't amor me and he is just dating me because he feels sorry for me. tu know what? I'm sick and tired with being a burden on him. I wanna die so he doesn't have to deal with me anymore. My flaws are too prominent. He doesn't deserve someone with my number of flaws. I'm not perfect enough for him.
misceláneo Song o Poem o Something
So um enjoy. Idk wot this is but whatev :)
I'll Break this Spell
I’ve lived my life in shadows
Walking at your pace
I couldn’t see that tu were so shallow
I was too mesmerized por your face
Now I can see
All that you’ve done to me
I’ll break this spell
That you’ve put on me
Ever so easily
I won’t treat tu well
After all it’s me
That you’ve messed up completely
I’ll make tu pay hell
If that’s what will set me free
If it’ll set me free
So um enjoy. Idk wot this is but whatev :)
I'll Break this Spell
I’ve lived my life in shadows
Walking at your pace
I couldn’t see that tu were so shallow
I was too mesmerized por your face
Now I can see
All that you’ve done to me
I’ll break this spell
That you’ve put on me
Ever so easily
I won’t treat tu well
After all it’s me
That you’ve messed up completely
I’ll make tu pay hell
If that’s what will set me free
If it’ll set me free
I believe I can fly
Take to the sky
Be all that I’m going to be
See all that I’m going to see
tu can’t hold me back
With me, there’s nothing to lack
So take a seat
Don’t miss a beat
And watch us fly
Right on by
In a jet o a plane
There’s no way that we’re sane
So sit on back
Try not to hack
Enjoy the view
Don’t miss your Que
To start on flying
Without dying
‘Cause we believe we can fly
As we take to the sky
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many times i think we feel the weight of the world is on our shoulders, but i know that there are times when tu can feel as light as a feather and as though tu can fly and take on the whole world. i wrote this in one of those moods and hope tu liked it.
Take to the sky
Be all that I’m going to be
See all that I’m going to see
tu can’t hold me back
With me, there’s nothing to lack
So take a seat
Don’t miss a beat
And watch us fly
Right on by
In a jet o a plane
There’s no way that we’re sane
So sit on back
Try not to hack
Enjoy the view
Don’t miss your Que
To start on flying
Without dying
‘Cause we believe we can fly
As we take to the sky
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
many times i think we feel the weight of the world is on our shoulders, but i know that there are times when tu can feel as light as a feather and as though tu can fly and take on the whole world. i wrote this in one of those moods and hope tu liked it.
My type of emotions conveys
onto how i'm really feeling inside,
my thoughts mainly consist on the
back-ground of my poetry.
As my addictive persona
starts to silhouette every-
word that i've written out
the nature of my emotions
starts to unravel at every-
line,
My poesía has a piece
of imagination within it-
self, the artwork of
each line has it's own
significant meaning.
Where the beauty is
that's where the poetry
lives, it lives within my soul,
as i carry each and every-line
with care, i start to share a
piece of me inside every-
lyrical line that i compose.
onto how i'm really feeling inside,
my thoughts mainly consist on the
back-ground of my poetry.
As my addictive persona
starts to silhouette every-
word that i've written out
the nature of my emotions
starts to unravel at every-
line,
My poesía has a piece
of imagination within it-
self, the artwork of
each line has it's own
significant meaning.
Where the beauty is
that's where the poetry
lives, it lives within my soul,
as i carry each and every-line
with care, i start to share a
piece of me inside every-
lyrical line that i compose.
