After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent friends turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so I decided to check them out. I never listened to metal before. I picked up a CD titled, "Steal This Album!" I listened to it, and I fell in amor with it. I felt a connection with some of the lyrics in the song, "Ego Brain".
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went inicial crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are tu okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I dicho anything." He said, "No, it's okay. tu can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, tu are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did tu get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and tu know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all amor tu very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think tu are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
"You see my pain is real
Watch my world dissolve
And pretend that none of us see the fall."
What I took from that lyric is this. The songwriter is experiencing a lot of emotional pain, and he's pretending that he's all right. It made me feel better knowing that somebody out there knew how I was feeling. I still wished I had some friends, but I was getting nothing but bullied. In life science, I learned that I was ugly, a loser, and a freak. In English, I learned that I don't belong. In mathematics, I learned that I was lame. Should I go on? No, I think I covered it well. One thing I didn't learn was why no one helped me. I went inicial crying one day. Daniel said, "Hey, little sis. Are tu okay?" I said, "No." He asked, "What's wrong?" I said, "It's nothing. Forget I dicho anything." He said, "No, it's okay. tu can tell me." I said, "I'm a freak." He said, "Erin, tu are not a freak." I then said, "And I'm a loser." He said, "No, Erin!" I said, "And I don't belong." He said, "Oh, my God! Where on Earth did tu get ideas like that?" I said, "That's all I ever get told in school. No one ever helps me. Nobody cares." He said, "Erin, I had no idea all this was going on." I said, "Nobody loves me." He said, "That's bullshit, and tu know it!" He told my aunt and uncle. My aunt said, "Erin, we all amor tu very much." My uncle said, "That's right. Don't ever think tu are not loved. If someone's picking on you, please tell us. We'll try to fix it." My aunt paid a visit to the school. The bullying slowed down, but I still wished I had friends. Everybody needs a least one friend.
Hi, everyone! Antonia here, and I'm going to discuss my plans for the rest of the year. I have some things I want to cover, so I'm going to get right to it.
As 2019 draws to a close, we will eventually be in a new year. In fact, navidad is less than a mes away. I am planning a Christmas-themed fan fiction. I'm hoping to post it sometime siguiente week. It will be my last fan fiction this year.
Even though my siguiente fan fiction will be last for this year, I have más planned for siguiente year. I have lots in store for tu siguiente year, so stay tuned.
I might do a couple of blogs to envolver, abrigo up this año after I finish my last fan fiction. I'll also do my annual fan fiction trivia article.
I hope tu have a seguro and fun holiday season wherever tu may be.
Peace and love,
-Antonia
As 2019 draws to a close, we will eventually be in a new year. In fact, navidad is less than a mes away. I am planning a Christmas-themed fan fiction. I'm hoping to post it sometime siguiente week. It will be my last fan fiction this year.
Even though my siguiente fan fiction will be last for this year, I have más planned for siguiente year. I have lots in store for tu siguiente year, so stay tuned.
I might do a couple of blogs to envolver, abrigo up this año after I finish my last fan fiction. I'll also do my annual fan fiction trivia article.
I hope tu have a seguro and fun holiday season wherever tu may be.
Peace and love,
-Antonia
This is a special request from Antonia, so here I go.
I'm sorry that you've been feeling down recently. Losing a friend is hard, and I know what it's like to go through this. However, I want to let tu know that I'm here for you. I'll be a shoulder to cry on, and tu can talk with me anytime tu like.
tu are never alone, Antonia. All of your current friends care for tu deeply. Don't ever change, buddy. It would be heartbreaking if tu did. I know I would be. Also, your old friend would want tu to be happy. She's in a better place now, and you'll eventually see her again someday. I just know it.
In closing this, remember the lyrics to one of my all-time favorito! Beatles songs: "Any time at all, all tu gotta do is call, and we'll be there."
Peace and love,
~Kelly 🌟🌟🌟
I'm sorry that you've been feeling down recently. Losing a friend is hard, and I know what it's like to go through this. However, I want to let tu know that I'm here for you. I'll be a shoulder to cry on, and tu can talk with me anytime tu like.
tu are never alone, Antonia. All of your current friends care for tu deeply. Don't ever change, buddy. It would be heartbreaking if tu did. I know I would be. Also, your old friend would want tu to be happy. She's in a better place now, and you'll eventually see her again someday. I just know it.
In closing this, remember the lyrics to one of my all-time favorito! Beatles songs: "Any time at all, all tu gotta do is call, and we'll be there."
Peace and love,
~Kelly 🌟🌟🌟