What should I do...?

Alright I know when a parent passes away it hurts like a bitch! The first thing tu gotta do is accept they will not be around anyway. tu will never get passed this if u keep holding onto that tiny feeling inside tu that thinks she is coming back. Unfortunatly its not going to happen. siguiente start thinking positivley. Try and look adelante, hacia adelante and stop thinking tu will never mover past this. Finaly find someone tu can talk to and go to when tu are having panic attacks like this, never bottle things up always try and get your feelings out somehow <3
hope this helped somewhat (:

Well I can not even start to understand what tu are feeling as both my parents are alive however my nan died when I was 3. For many years I never thought about it but then a few years hace I found myself feeling sad she had gone so now on the anniversary of her death the 15 February each año I go into a church and light a candle whisper to her tell her my problems tell her I am thinking about her as if she is there with me. For me this is enough that I can then go another 365 days without thinking about her too much. May be tu could do something similar. I do hope your feelings get better but it will take time and tu must remember it is only a año hace which really is not much time at all.

I can't pretend to understand your pain, since both my parents are alive and no one close to me has died since I was too young to remember it, but I'll try and help.

It sounds like you're struggling to mover on and accept what's happened. I think if tu accept that she's gone, and focus on what you're going to do in the future. I doubt your mum would have wanted tu to spend your time grieving- she'd have wanted tu to go and live your life to the full and enjoy your life without her. As in the respuestas before this, tu could do something to remember her- perhaps tu could make a scrapbook of pictures of tu together that tu could look through on her birthday, and think about her then- you're allowed to grieve and be sad. But then focus on what tu want to do with the future. Look at what tu still have in your life- friends, the rest of your family, your hobbies and talents- focus on these rather than your grief, but give yourself that time to be sad and think abotu her.

Hope this is at all helpful.
All the best <3