Those words pierced me like thorns on a rose.
"Aww, tu remembered." I saw the nervous grin turn to relief. He earned a kiss.
"Of, course I remembered." I still wanted to make him sweat though. I couldn't resist.
"What happened to the whole " I don't remember things easily."?" I tried to impersonate his some-what deep voice that made me melt every time I heard it. But, to my disappointment he didn't seem moved por what I said. It was as if he knew I was gonna say that and he prepared a line for it.
"I remember all the important things Jaz.You are important to me." He gave me a warm smile but I knew por his eyes that he had been just waiting to burn me with that line. It was a good line I gotta admit, I just wish i would have came up with it first.
He knew I had nothing to parte superior, arriba that so I just looked up at his breath taking face and smiled. Matthew knew he had won but he wasn't about to rub it in my face. At least I hoped he wouldn't.
He gave me a quick kiss on my forehead and then took my hand and walked me out the door. He opened the car door for me and waited til i got in and insisted that he close the door. I was being kind of a kiss-up today. I know it is our one-month anniversary and he wants to make it special and all but...I really don't care for all of this.
Matthew was taking me ice skating today with Alley, Henex(I know call name right), And Bradly. I couldn't think of a better day. My three best friends and my wonderful boyfriend all on ice. Haha.
When he got to the rink poor Henex looked like a Popsicle. He was shortest one out of all of us and I didn
t know whether to laugh my butt off at how ridiculous he looked o just ...well there was no other option now was there? Ha. Poor, poor Henex.
Bradly on the other hand was tall but maybe a few inches short than Matt and I. He was indeed pretty toned. Maybe a six pack. I tectonically didn't know because I had never seen Bradly without a shirt(and I want to keep it that way), I only heard his countless brags about them. Matt told me they weren't as great as he says they are but then again he just might be kinda jealous. So I don't know but judging from the rest muscles on his body I didn't doubt he had a few more.
Alley was your average really, really skinny girl but with a fat girl appetite. Unfortunately, she could pretty much eat whatever she wanted and it wouldn't really affect her. For Alley she was quite if she didn't know tu but the loudest in the group if tu did know her. The five of us together were known to get into some trouble. Nothing law biding but definitely some classic mall pranks that Avril Lavigne would be satisfied with.
"G-g-g-g-guyssss. Im freezing. Can we just patinar, skate and get this over with?" So maybe Henex was a little tense, aww, but he'll be alright. Nothing could ruin this day; nothing.
We skated a good two hours' taking as many pictures as we could. I fell a few times but Matt was always there to help me back up, but when Matthew fell, umm...it was a little harder to pick him up. He definitely isn't fat o anything. But he has muscle so that is obviously harder to pick up than my chunkie-ness. We settled at the comida court after, Henex finally warming up with some hot chocolate. I was pretty happy about hpw the día was going so far. I couldn't get any better. Unfortunately......it really couldn't get any better than the past three and half hours.
The five of us were still sitting at he comida court table. I was leaning in to kiss Matthew when an unexpected person comes in the picture. A person who aren't always delighted to see at a time like this....your ex.!
"Jazzy,Jazzy,Jazzy." Oh crap was all that was going through my head.
"Hey Joey." My voice kept out a little más cheerful than I had anticipated and Matthew did not like that!
"What? No hug?" Joey was doing it on purpose to piss Matt off. I slowly got up and gave Joey and little hug. I didn't want to be rude. But I couldn't look at the Matt after that. I didn't have the right to.
"You look good Jaz. Maybe I'll see tu around." Joey winked at me! He actually did that in front of Matt like that! Joey walked away like nothing had happened and nobody dicho anything after he left. I could not even look towards Matt's direction.
I had to break the silence though, I didn't know he was mad at me o Joey. I finally looked at him. He did not look at me. he just had his head down staring the clean table. I grabbed for his hand he quickly moved it.
"Leave me alone Jaz." Those words pierced me like thorns on a rose. I knew this día could not end well.
Hey, so this is a poem Ive been thinking of for a long time,please read and comment!
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A inicial for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
más eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A inicial for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
más eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right."
I can still remember the disappointment in those hazel eyes the moment I told him I was leaving. I couldn't stay - I had no choice. I still can't decide whether it hurt más to leave him, o to know I had been the one who caused the pain. What was I supposed to do? This child needed guidance and protection now más than ever, and I couldn't help him. For so long I had been the one to console him - make him feel seguro - and it was coming to an end. It was... the rule.
"I need to go away, Alex. It's what imaginary friends do....
Forever
Forever tu are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what tu promised
Your corazón is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected por your eagle like wings
Forever loved por your ocean wide heart
Forever seguro in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
Forever tu are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what tu promised
Your corazón is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected por your eagle like wings
Forever loved por your ocean wide heart
Forever seguro in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
preface
if the one person tu told the truth to all the time was now the one person tu have to keep it away from, would you?
would tu be able to lie through your teeth and pray that he believes you? what if he was the one person tu told everything to, he was the one who keeps tu from falling apart, but if tu told him anything he might be the one to bring tu tummbling down.
if tu had to chose between lieing to him, hurting him, and keeping him away from you, what would tu chose? because if tu dont chose right, he may very well die.
if the one person tu told the truth to all the time was now the one person tu have to keep it away from, would you?
would tu be able to lie through your teeth and pray that he believes you? what if he was the one person tu told everything to, he was the one who keeps tu from falling apart, but if tu told him anything he might be the one to bring tu tummbling down.
if tu had to chose between lieing to him, hurting him, and keeping him away from you, what would tu chose? because if tu dont chose right, he may very well die.
I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two por fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed our bodies to become another pair of hollow shadows that make amor to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the rosas are dying
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two por fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed our bodies to become another pair of hollow shadows that make amor to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the rosas are dying
love bites
