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*looks in mirror y am i lookin at myself when i see nothin

added by teashaC

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teashaC this pic is toldly me i dont look in the mirror because im afraid what i might see

princegirl13 i agree with teashaC

yaser111 i wish idont existe.......

teashaC i think everyone thinks that i do

isabella1345234 i totally agree with this pic its like what i totally feel.sometimes i wish i was never born i mean y was i born if theres not one day where i dont feel darkness and pain

teashaC i no isa and i just want to hit the girl in the mirror and scream

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SHADOW MY FAMILY

posted by teashaC

is feeling down, but trying to look up. but why look up when u see a family memeber lookin at u so i just look down so im not scared as i feel his breath por my head saying i lov eu an di miss u and nyte so much i cry so much as i grab nytes hand crying makin sure shes ok i look over and shes crying saying i amor my brother and he was so depressed because of her he killed himself *i stare at nyte babe im here i miss him so much and yes he loved her with his whole corazón would have done anything for her.Be a estrella in some ones sky.as i am foreced to look up at the sky i see a estrella and i take a...

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NEW PEOMS_HAUNTED

posted by teashaC

im trying new writings now so hope u all like it.

<3
BLEEDS
RUNS
HIDES
GRABS THE cuchillo RUNS IT INTO MY WRIST DOENST HURT THOUGH SO I LAUGH SINCE I FEEL NOTHIN AT ALL I SEE THE BLOOD DRIP FROM MY WRIST ITS A LOT OF BLOOD I SEE SOEMTHING IT LOOKS VERY SCARY BUT I FEEL NOTHING,LIKE I dicho IM NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING SO I GO CLOSER TO THE PERSON o THE MONSTER,AS I WALK UP TO IT I SEE THAT ITS MY GF I SEE HER BODY WITH BLOOD ALL OVER IT IM CRYING BUT WHY AM I CRYING IM NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING SO I GO CLOSER AND I TOUCH HER SHOULDER BUT ITS SO COLD IM FREEZING MY corazón IS STOPPING BUT WHEN I LOOK AT...

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some of my life

posted by cutiegirl01

In my life i grew up in pain a agony. I was only 2 o 3 when i was first hit. then i got hit again over and over. another time i was hit was when i didn't take a ducha, ducha de the morning after i took a shower. i was late 4 school and had cuts and bruses, one went from my shoulder to the middle of my upper arm. no one asked what happened beacause no one cares what happens to me. They wouldn't even care if i died. my dad even dicho "if tu died i would want to know right away because then i would go buy a boat" (that is what he dicho because if i died he would get all the money from insurence) even when i broke my leg my dad hit my leg on the mesa, tabla 3 times then took me to the e.r. it turned in to surgery. i was in a wheelchair and on cruches for 3 in 1\2 months. now i have a scar that goes from my left ankle to just below my knee. now i didn't cry because i dont care to cry.(i do cry but rarly) My life sucks worse every día and i have been planing to run away. I CAN'T STAND IT!!!!!!

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FADED

posted by teashaC

I can pretend that I dont see you,
I can pretend I dont wanna hold tu when you're around,
(When you're around)
I can say that nothing was right,
But we know if I looked in your eyes I'd break down,
(yeah, lets break down)

If I could, for just one night, to be with you, to make it right,
And what we were, and what we are,
Is hidden on the, in the scars,
If I could, take tu there,
I wont let go, this I swear,
You wont have to wonder what we are,
Cause tu wont have to look to far,
Its in the scars, Its hidden in the scars,

If I told tu that I amor you,
But Im doing alright without tu it'd be a lie, But...

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EMPTY INSIDE

posted by teashaC

*looks up seeing her fight this seeing that shes not happy she was happy with me
at least thats what she tells me,is she telling the truth i dont no,i feel nothin anymore.
so now when i look up at the sky,i see black and thats it,when i look at the césped, hierba i see my own blood from my wrist,no one to stop me o hold me,thinks to myself if i could wish what would that be,it would be havin her por me watching her sleep,watching her every move,seeing the light shine on her,watching her glow like a star,i grab her hand i take her and put her on me saying ur ok now baby im here and ur seguro no one is goin...

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DIVIDE

posted by teashaC

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cruzar, cruz the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the el espacio between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing...

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RAINING

posted by teashaC

SITS OUTSIDE ON SOME CHURCH STEPS PRAYS TO GOD SAYING I amor U SO MUCH PROTECT MY corazón PROTECT MY SOUL.ITS STARTS TO RAIN HARD AS I WALK inicial WALKING DOWN EVERY calle EVERY CORNER I FEEL SOEMTHIN COMING OUT OF ME I DONT NO WHAT IT IS THOUGH SO I KEEP WALKING.
BURNS
CRIES
STARTS TO DIE
I SIT ON THE GROUND AND SCREMA FOR HELP ITS RAINING SO HARD OUTSIDE THE WIND IS PICKING UP AND ITS COLD MY BODY TURINING PURLPE MY LIPS ARE TURING BLUE I ONLY HAVE A TANKTOP ON AND I HAVE SHOES ON AND SHORTS ON AS I SIT DOWN HAVING A HARD TIME BREATHING I CUT DEP INTO MY WRIST I SCREAM LOUD AND I HEAR MYSELF.
BURNS...

New me..5 years later

posted by teashaC

Wow its like been 5 years since ive been gone..i miss my.family on here..im srry I lefy but I.just needed time I guess I needed 5 years..im happy now..i have changed sa lot.i am now 17 years old im turning 18 this year..my past is behind me..welcome to my bright future with my family and friends..i hope that my old friends come back on because I miss them tones..hope ur all not mad at me cause I amor u.all very much

Ok so I dicho I would never leave u guys but life wad rough for me I have had.ups and my.downs..im growing from my mistakes everyday..im.healthy I have a.healthy life..and im so happy that some of u that r on my fb helped me through so much shit these 5 years gone..my life is on here and I will never ever let anyone go..im here for now.dont know for how long but im here.

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LITTLE SOMETHING FOR MY GF <3

posted by teashaC

is sad and happy the same time, in love...not alone... but at the same time.. so lonely... missing the one person who can put a smile on my face rite about now miss her saying i amor u shes not here i miss her im crying im shaking i need protection shes needs protection she cant get it becasue i cant help but i want to help so and im afraid to help her what if i get hurt what if its a trap to get me and kill me im jsut afraid i amor ally so much shes my life i want her por me.

When tu look into my eyes, what do tu honestly see. Do they sparkle like they used to? Cus it seems like they drifted...

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BROKEN PIECES

posted by teashaC

Wake up to a Sunny Day
Not a nube up in the sky
And then it starts to rain
My defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around
So open and exposed
But I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my troubles

When you're broken
In a Million little pieces
And your tryin'
But tu can't hold on any more
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't tu stop believin' in your self
When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat tu up
Hittin' walls and gettin' scars
Only makes tu who tu are
No matter how much your corazón is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah

When you're broken
In a Million little pieces
And your tryin'
But tu can't hold on any more
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't tu stop believin' in your self
When you're broken

Better days are gonna find tu once again
Every piece will find it's place
When you're broken

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LITTLE WRITINGS I DID

posted by teashaC

Everything in my life is falling to pieces and I'm too broken to pick them up how do u pick up something when its been on the ground for so long getting stepped on.

wants to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even tho her corazón is broken and the 1 who always brightens your día even tho she couldn't brighten her own i dont care about my days i care about my friends days and how there doing fuck my life and my days they dont matter anyway counting the days donw as i go.

I'm gonna sit alone in a quiet room and cry until I cant cry no more. I am tired of all the pain inside and I am tired of all the tears falling from my eyes.im tired of bleeding im tired of life im tired of living im tired of fakers im tired of crying lonely with no one

is having one of those nights where she just wants someone to hold her close and tell her it's gonna be alright want someone to tell me how much they amor me and how much they need me and how much they want me

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DAUGHTER WANTING HER MOM TO STAY

posted by teashaC

He drops her suitcase por the door
She knows her mommy won't be back anymore
She drags her feet across the floor
Tryin' to hold back time, to keep her holdin' on

And she says, "mommy, mommy, don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't tu see how much I need you??

?mommy, mommy, don't leave
daddys sayin' things he don't mean
he don't know what he's talkin' about
Somebody hear me out?

"Father, listen
Tell her that shes got a home
And she don't have to go
Father, save her I would do anything in return?

?I'll clean my room, try hard in school
I'll be good, I promise You
Father, Father, I pray...

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HATING LIFE

posted by teashaC

SHE SAYS GO GET RAPED AND GO DIE WHAT DO U DO? DO U LISTEN TO HER o DO U JUST IGNORE IT? WHEN SHE TELLS U TO GO DIE WHAT DO U DO? GO KILL URSLEF o IGNORE IT?ME AND HER STARTED TO FIGHT OVER DATING SOMEONE BECAUSE I amor SOMEONE AND SHE THINKS SHE KNOWS HER LIFE WHEN SHE REALLY DOESNT AND SHE LIKES THE SAME GIRL I amor WELL SHE KNOWS SHIT ABOUT THIS GIRL I NO A LOT OF SHIT ABOUT THIS GIRL I amor I NO WERE SHE LIVES I LIVE WERE SHE LIVES I NO THINGS SHE DOESNT EVEN NO ABOUT HERSELF.ASH DO U RLLY TRULLY amor NYTE o IS IT JSUT TO GET BACK AT ME DO U RLLY WANT TO SEE HER o JUST WANT TO HURT...

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DEATH OF A ángel

posted by teashaC

"AS I LOOK IN THE WATER AND SEE MY MOM IN HEAVEN WANTING HER BACK IN MY ARMS LOVING ME AND HOLDING ME TELLING ME IM seguro BUT THAT WONT EVER HAPPEN SO I SIT OUTSIDE GETTING AIR TELLING PPL NOT TO TOUCH ME o I WILL SNAP.AS I LOOK UP IN THE SKY I SEE MY MOM AND I SEE HER TEARS RUNNING DOWN HER FACE actuación LIKE SHES MAD AT ME.I SEE HER BEATIFUL FACE JUST LIKE MINE HER BEATIFUL BLACK HAIR COVERING HER EYES WITH HER GREEN EYES AS THE.I START TO CRY AS I CRY I GRAB THE cuchillo AND CUT MY WRIST SAYING ARE U HAPPY MOM I WILL KILL MYSELF SINCE I KILLIED U.SHE COVERS HER FACE AND AS I SCREAM I PUT MY KNIFE...

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LOOKING AT THE MIRROR

posted by teashaC

*STEPPED INTO THE BATHROOM TODAY LOOKED IN THE MIRROR SAW SOMETHIN I DIDNT WANT TO SEE
SCREAMED
CRIED
STARTED TO GIVE UP
AS I STARED INTO THE GLASS WITH THE LIGHT ON I NEW THAT I WAS IN TROUBLE NEW THAT MY LIFE WAS OVER FORVER NO TURNING BACK
SCREAMED
CRIED
STARTED TO GIVE UP
AS I LOOKED DOWN AT THE WATER DRIPPING FROM THE TUB AND AS I LOOKED BACK AT MY HAND I SAW A cuchillo ON THE COUNTER SO I PICKED IT UP AND IT WAS RLLY SHARP I WASNT AFRAID TO USE TO IT
SCREAMED
CRIED
STARTED TO GIVE UP
AS I GOT UNDRESSED I PUNCHED THE MIRROR SO I COULDNT SEE MYSELF THE DEMON IN ME THE DEVIL I BROKE THR GLASS HAND WAS...

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SET ME FREE

posted by teashaC

Where are tu now
When I need tu the most
Why don't tu take my hand
I want to be close

Help me when I am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong

So,take my hand and walk with me,
mostrar me what to be
I need tu to set me free

Where are tu now...

Where are tu now
Now that I'm half grown
Why are we far apart
I feel all alone

Where are tu now
When nothing is going right
Where are tu now
I can't see the light

So take my hand and walk with me
mostrar me what to be
I need tu to set me free, yeah yeah

I need you, to need me
Can't tu see me,
How could tu leave me
My corazón is half empty
Im not whole when your not with me
I want tu here with me
To guide me, hold me, and amor me now

Where are tu now
Where are tu nowSo take my hand and walk with me
mostrar me what to be
I need tu to set me free,

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ángeles CRYING

posted by teashaC

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if tu said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated amor like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural amor conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When tu and I dicho goodbye
I felt the ángeles cry
True love's a gift
We let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the ángeles cry

C'mon babe can't our amor be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm...

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WHAT IS LOVE, amor IS.......

posted by teashaC

amor IS LIKE SNOW o LIKE A BUTTERFLY.
WHEN IT SNOWS ITS BEATIFUL, AND COLD AND UR HAPPY AND ITS LIKE A BIG BLANKET ALL SOFT, WHEN U TOUCH IT BUT COLD SO WHEN U TOUCH IT UR corazón IS COLD INSIDE.LOVE IS ALSO LIKE A BUTTTERLFY IT FLIES AROUND U DURING THE SUMMER TIME THEN ITS GONE SO WHAT IS LOVE?WHEN U GET TO SEE IT ONCE A año o NEVER AGAIN.IT MAKES ME UPSET WHEN PPL SAY THERE IN amor WITH SOMEONE AND THERE RLLY NOT IN amor THERE JUST SAYING THEY amor U.I HAVE BEEN corazón BROKEN FOR YEARS,WEEKS,DAYS,MONTHS BUT NOT ANYMORE BECAUSE I FIGURED OUT HOW TO BE STRONG WHEN MY corazón GETS BROKEN INSIDE.I...

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FIGHTING/CRYING/SCREAMING/SHAKING

posted by teashaC

sitting por myself today waiting to be saved
waiting
breathing
fighting
crying
screaming
shaking
as i get up and look outside i see nothin its all black no one walking o talking i see nothin its like im alone in the world
waiting
breathing
fighting
crying
screaming
shaking
as i lean on the window i hear somethin in the distance outside so i go outside and walk slow because im a little nerves of what i might see o feel
waiting
breathing
fighting
crying
screaming
shaking
as i got closer to the sound i feel a breeze through my blond hair my blue eyes get big and they sparkle the light is so bright i fall on the...

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DREAMS/LOVE

posted by teashaC

WHAT IS amor IS IT A DREAM o REAL WHO KNOWS NO ONE REALLY TRULLY KNOWS WHAT IT IS AT ALL BUT LET ME TELL U MY STORY ABOUT MY DREAMS KNOWING THAT THERE REAL BUT SOME ARNT REAL.I WAKE UP AND SIT UP AND SEE MY LOVED ONE SITTING por ME I FEEL HER EVERY TOUCH IN MY HAIR I FEEL HER HAND RUN UP MY BACK I LAY BACK DOWN LAUGHING AND GIGGLING. AS I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE HER IN THE DISTANCE BUT I CANT OTUCH HER SHES LIKE NOT THERE BUT SHE IS AS I WAKE UP I SEE NOTHIN SHES NOT THERE SHES GONE SHE WAS NOT REAL BUT WHY DO PPL CALL IT amor WHEN amor IS NOTHIN ITS JUST ANOTHER WORD FOR DRAMA,FIGHTING,DYING THATS WHAT I THINK ANYWAY BUT AS I SIT HERE I FEEL THINGS RUN THROUGH ME AND IT FEELS GREAT BUT I FEEL STUFF LIKE HATE AND THAT HURTS SO MUCH WHEN UR corazón STOPS AND U THINKING UR DYING