After lectura cyd12s thank you, i burst into tears....of joy.
Everything she dicho seemed to touching and beautiful so i thought i might give it a go, ok, here goes...my thank you:
It was the last día of december, 2009....a whole día before i was to open the roleplay.
It was meant to be the día i went to my best friends new año party--but i bailed.
I wanted to go to the new año party but-- i knew everyone else would be there.
I always had trouble with speech. A speech impediment o dissorder, as the doctor called it.
It meant i couldnt pronounce most words properlly.
And this is quite an embarressing thing to admit to. back when i was just 5, years hace but i can still remember it- i was just starting school, i thought it'll be fine, but only a hora into the school day, i remember in the playground everyone laughed when i spoke and mimicked my voice. I thought it was a joke-- but it was every day. I tried to keep my mouth shut for the rest of the day, but when the teacher called the register, i had no choice. everyone burst into tears of laughter, not beacause of my volume o accent: my accent was normal, my volume was fine, its jut the "Here" came out as "mere".
people laughed, the teachers lips curled trying not to laughed as they tried to get the kids to stop laughing- even though they were about to laugh too.
When i got inicial i cried all night and pleaded my mum not to make me go there again. but she dicho i had too...All my siblings and family seemed to think so. they didnt want me to give into laughter.
But it got worst as years went on. people would point and shout "Retard" and "Spaztic" at me as i walked to school when i started middle school. The teachers just assumed i was stupid and never gave me a chance to do my school work without help.
And even they sometimes could be cruel, por mistake....
my teacher once was ill 4 years o so hace and we had a subistute teacer, i gulped. when she asked my name i tried "My names Phoebe." "What?" she asked. i tried again. "Im phoebe." "Huh?" after several attempts to tell her my name, she dicho "Is this a joke?" Once the teaching assistant explained, she looked liked she just punched a perrito, cachorro o something- afterwards she started talking very softly to me....
I didnt have many friends. They all thought i was "Special", nice word for dumb. And the friends i did have were too scared to stick up for me so they left me when the others were around.
Then one day, i discovered a way for people to understand me-- I brought myself a notepad and a new biro, and i wrote. i discovered i quite liked it. i loved to write stories, and one día wrote one i really liked about a girl called tina (real name- telemira) and her childhood adventures. I liked it so much i entered it into a competition the school was doing "best short stories.." and won. "Did it (yes they refer to me as "it") get it off the internet?" asked one boy. I scowled at him. Of course i didnt get it off the internet! But he didnt upset me really- i was so glad, i found something i was good at and didnt have to speak normally to do!
I wrote más about telemira and her adventures on a small island called telepax. i added other character, a girl named vibbie and a close family friend veevee. A tiger boy pyshimar and daimon....(Cozmos hadnt been invented.) On this island they'ld do all sorts of stuff. I kept escritura for them for ages, untill i decided to set up a foros on the winx club site, fanpop. called "roleplay: alfea." and well, tu know the rest.
I wanted to thank tu guys, because now "Telemira and her childhood adventures" is now "the tav" and i wouldnt have it anyway! I couldnt of done it without tu and the roleplay and fanpop-friends were awesome! later in this año i even got into a play called hairspray and when i was on stage, i thought no one would understand me- but they did! i just imagined all the tav sitting in the front row and i felt calmer-- i felt great!
Ok, so i still have trouble with the odd word, but im so glad of the roleplay and everyone in it. I was shocked when i found out about what was happening to cdy12, but at the same time- im glad shes happy now! thank tu all!
-pandawinx. :)
Everything she dicho seemed to touching and beautiful so i thought i might give it a go, ok, here goes...my thank you:
It was the last día of december, 2009....a whole día before i was to open the roleplay.
It was meant to be the día i went to my best friends new año party--but i bailed.
I wanted to go to the new año party but-- i knew everyone else would be there.
I always had trouble with speech. A speech impediment o dissorder, as the doctor called it.
It meant i couldnt pronounce most words properlly.
And this is quite an embarressing thing to admit to. back when i was just 5, years hace but i can still remember it- i was just starting school, i thought it'll be fine, but only a hora into the school day, i remember in the playground everyone laughed when i spoke and mimicked my voice. I thought it was a joke-- but it was every day. I tried to keep my mouth shut for the rest of the day, but when the teacher called the register, i had no choice. everyone burst into tears of laughter, not beacause of my volume o accent: my accent was normal, my volume was fine, its jut the "Here" came out as "mere".
people laughed, the teachers lips curled trying not to laughed as they tried to get the kids to stop laughing- even though they were about to laugh too.
When i got inicial i cried all night and pleaded my mum not to make me go there again. but she dicho i had too...All my siblings and family seemed to think so. they didnt want me to give into laughter.
But it got worst as years went on. people would point and shout "Retard" and "Spaztic" at me as i walked to school when i started middle school. The teachers just assumed i was stupid and never gave me a chance to do my school work without help.
And even they sometimes could be cruel, por mistake....
my teacher once was ill 4 years o so hace and we had a subistute teacer, i gulped. when she asked my name i tried "My names Phoebe." "What?" she asked. i tried again. "Im phoebe." "Huh?" after several attempts to tell her my name, she dicho "Is this a joke?" Once the teaching assistant explained, she looked liked she just punched a perrito, cachorro o something- afterwards she started talking very softly to me....
I didnt have many friends. They all thought i was "Special", nice word for dumb. And the friends i did have were too scared to stick up for me so they left me when the others were around.
Then one day, i discovered a way for people to understand me-- I brought myself a notepad and a new biro, and i wrote. i discovered i quite liked it. i loved to write stories, and one día wrote one i really liked about a girl called tina (real name- telemira) and her childhood adventures. I liked it so much i entered it into a competition the school was doing "best short stories.." and won. "Did it (yes they refer to me as "it") get it off the internet?" asked one boy. I scowled at him. Of course i didnt get it off the internet! But he didnt upset me really- i was so glad, i found something i was good at and didnt have to speak normally to do!
I wrote más about telemira and her adventures on a small island called telepax. i added other character, a girl named vibbie and a close family friend veevee. A tiger boy pyshimar and daimon....(Cozmos hadnt been invented.) On this island they'ld do all sorts of stuff. I kept escritura for them for ages, untill i decided to set up a foros on the winx club site, fanpop. called "roleplay: alfea." and well, tu know the rest.
I wanted to thank tu guys, because now "Telemira and her childhood adventures" is now "the tav" and i wouldnt have it anyway! I couldnt of done it without tu and the roleplay and fanpop-friends were awesome! later in this año i even got into a play called hairspray and when i was on stage, i thought no one would understand me- but they did! i just imagined all the tav sitting in the front row and i felt calmer-- i felt great!
Ok, so i still have trouble with the odd word, but im so glad of the roleplay and everyone in it. I was shocked when i found out about what was happening to cdy12, but at the same time- im glad shes happy now! thank tu all!
-pandawinx. :)