Chapter 3,
March 16, 1996,
I turned two years old yesterday and dad is having a hard time with my temper tantrums. He loves me to death; I just don’t think he knows what to do with me half the time! Grace is getting más and más frustrated with every día that goes by. I have no doubt in my mind that he loves me but sometimes I wonder if I’m not what he bargained for!
There was a knock at the front door and a blonde haired woman that I did not recognize walked through the door. I had this strange feeling that I knew she was but, I couldn’t put a name to her face. Dad plopped me down on the sofá and sat in between her and I. He dicho “listen Debbie, I know things didn’t leave on the right foot last time but, I’m ready for another baby and I want to put all of those feelings behind us!” She dicho “I was just being way too sensitive and I apologize for what happened!” She looked at my hair and looked at hers while smiling. She smirked at dad and dicho sarcastically “I wonder where she gets that hair from?” He dicho “yeah I don’t know where she gets it either!”
I ran around the living room screaming and Debbie asked “are tu sure you’re ready to deal with Alanna and a newborn baby Michael?” He dicho “I think I know what to expect now at least the first año of the siguiente child’s life!” I ripped one of my new libros that I got for my birthday and dad asked “why would tu do that?” He picked me up and put me in the corner facing the wall. Debbie looked it dad and asked “does she normally act like this o is it only because I’m here?” He laughed and dicho “no, she started her terrible twos a few months ago!” I tried to get out of the corner and he dicho “don’t tu even try to mover from that spot till I tell tu that tu can!”
Debbie dicho “I have to say that I’m shocked to see this side of you!” He asked “what do tu mean?” She dicho “well, I expected tu to be a laid-back father but, what tu just dicho to Alanna proved me wrong!” He picked me up and asked “are tu sorry for ruining your new book?” I kissed him and dicho “I’m sorry daddy.” He put me down and dicho “it’s okay but, don’t do that again.” He came back over to the sofá and sat down. He dicho “it took me a while to be stern with her but, I’ve learned that I have to be because if I’m not she feels she can get away with anything.” He cleared his throat and dicho “believe me I felt terrible the first time I had to punish her!”
After a few hours of talking about having another baby, Debbie grabbed her chaqueta and gave dad and I each a hug before she left. I climbed onto his lap and he dicho “I don’t know about tu but, I think tu need a sibling!” I had no idea what he was talking about and I sat there with a blank look on my face. He dicho “I know tu don’t understand what I’m saying but, tu will soon enough!” As he held me he dicho quietly “I can’t believe tu are already two years old… tu are growing up way too fast for me!!!”
March 24, 1996,
It was almost 3 o’clock in the in the morning and I woke up to dad taking me out of my cuna and bringing me outside to the car. He dicho “hey sleepyhead, we’re going to go to disney World to see Mickey Mouse!” He buckled me into my car asiento and sitting siguiente to me was my uncle Macauley Culkin. He isn’t really my uncle but, dad and he are really close so I’ve always called him uncle Mac. He starred in the movie “home alone” which is one of my dad’s favorito! movies!
We arrived at the airport and boarded our flight. While dad flipped through one of his parenting books, I watched the in-flight movie of the lion King. Uncle Mac played his hand held video games and I ended up falling asleep. When we got to our destination I was wondering where we were going. A few minutos later I saw a huge castillo and immediately knew where we were…at disney World!
I started to get very excited and dicho “I want to go see Pinocchio!!!” After we had gotten our park passes we went to go see some of the new rides. I gravitated toward the rides that I was familiar with and uncle Mac started to get bored with all of the kiddie rides. Dad let him go off on his own while he took me on the Dumbo ride. The two of us rode it about seven times before I had had enough and we went off to go find Pinocchio. After about 20 min. of searching we finally found him and I was so happy. Besides the preschool nickelodeon shows, most of what I watch is disney cine because dad likes them too.
Then dad took me to get something to eat because I was hungry. He was hoping that we would bump into Uncle Mac on the way because he had not seen him in a few hours. While dad was ordering us some sweet potato fries and cheese burgers uncle Mac showed up. Dad asked “did tu have fun?” Uncle Mac took me out of my stroller and dicho “yeah, thank tu Michael for taking me on this trip with tu guys!” Dad put the trays of comida on the mesa, tabla and dicho “you know tu don’t have to thank me… Alanna and I amor to hang out with you!” Uncle Mac passed me a sweet potato fry and I dicho “thank you.”
After we had eaten, we spent four más hours shopping for souvenirs and watching a parade of characters. Then it was time for the three of us to get back on the plane and fly back inicial because dad has to continue rehearsing for the tour tomorrow morning. He’s trying to fit in as many memorable moments for me before we have to travel the world because it’ll be at least a año before we completely mover back home. Sure we’ll spend a couple weeks at the ranch every couple of weeks but, we will mostly be living out of hotels.
April 10, 1996,
I had money from a few family members for my birthday and dad decided to take me to Toys “R” Us to spend it. Very rarely do I get to go to a toy store because dad does not want me to become spoiled, so I am really excited! I had over $150 to spend at the store and was excited to get my hands on some new toys. Before the tour starts dad gave nanny Grace a couple of weeks off because once we are heading all over the world she won’t be able to go see her family. Today she was packing her bags and getting ready to head back inicial to her mother’s house.
After Grace had left, dad and I were all alone in our huge home. He took me out to the car and sat siguiente to me in the backseat. When the bodyguard who was driving us pulled up in front of Toys “R” Us I became más and más excited! Dad helped me into a shopping carro and we went into the store. The first thing I saw was a giant stuffed animal of Spiderman. Beside the Spiderman stuffed animal was one of cenicienta and dad asked “wouldn’t tu rather have the cenicienta one?” I dicho “no; I want Spiderman!” He wasn’t trying to change my mind but, I think he was shocked when I picked the one I did.
Dad took me out of the carro and let me mostrar him where I wanted to go. I walked down the Lego section and grabbed 1000 piece Lego racecar set. He looked at the amount of pieces and dicho “let’s get the big mega blocks set instead, because I think they are más for two-year-olds!” I picked out the red mega blocks instead of the option of rosado, rosa and light purple colored ones. He put them in the shopping carro and I saw a display of toy dump trucks out of the corner of my eye. I ran towards them and dicho “daddy I want one of these please!” He dicho “okay… If that’s what tu really want!” I carried it around the store and dicho “I want to go inicial now… I’ll save the rest of the money for siguiente time.” He put me back in the carro and dicho “that’s fine, I’ll put it in a seguro place for tu so it doesn’t get lost!”
I think dad is starting to learn now that I’m definitely not a girly girl. I already know that I am a tomboy all the way. I can sit through a Princess movie but, it’s not very entertaining to me. I think now dad gets that and is going to gravitate away from those types of things. He knows a lot of people with kids that are tomboys so, I know that me being a tomboy isn’t going to bother him one bit because he’s accepting to those sorts of things!
April 18, 1996,
When I woke up from my nap this afternoon my uncle Jermaine was here with my five-year-old cousin Jermaine Junior. They had just gotten there because they were still wearing their jackets. Dad put me down and helped Jermaine Junior unzip his jacket. I went into the living room and Junior followed me. I have not had as much contact with other kids because of my father’s busy schedule but, he definitely thinks that I need to!
Dad pulled out my toy box from the closet and opened it up. I saw that Jermaine Junior was grabbing one of my favorito! toys and took it from him. He picked out another toy and I took that one from him too. I dicho “no; these are all my toys… tu can’t play with them!” He looked at me and sat down on the floor feeling defeated. Dad noticed that it was extremely quiet in the living, which usually means I’m up to no good room!
He walked into the room and looked at me surrounded por a pile of toys. Jermaine Junior was watching Nickelodeon and dad asked “how come you’re not playing with Alanna Junior?” He replied por saying “she won’t let me play with any of her toys!” Dad dicho “Alanna; tu need to share your toys with Junior!” I dicho “but they’re mine… tu bought them for me!” He sighed and dicho “I know I bought them for tu but, it doesn’t mean tu can’t share them!” I passed Junior a plastic baseball and dicho “there; tu can play with that because it’s boring!” Dad dicho while desperately trying not to laugh “no tu have to share all your toys with him, not just the boring ones!”
Dad got up and dicho “you better share your toys with him o I’m not going to buy tu anymore!” He walked out of the room and sat at the cocina mesa, tabla with my uncle Jermaine. Dad looked at him and asked “please tell me these terrible twos to come to an end?” Jermaine dicho “she’s barely 2 so, tu better get used to it now because you’ve got a long way to go before they’re over!” Dad laughed and dicho “she’s just so stubborn; it drives me nuts!” Jermaine sarcastically replied “wow… I wonder where she gets that from?” Dad dicho laughing “well it’s not from me; I’m easy-going and passive!” Jermaine dicho “Michael if tu weren’t so stubborn tu wouldn’t have the best-selling album of all time… You’re the guy who stayed overnight in the studio to make sure everything on the album is perfect. tu wouldn’t take no for an answer even when mtv didn’t want to mostrar your thriller video because tu were an African-American artist, but they did end up mostrando it didn’t they?” Dad smiled and dicho “okay maybe I’m a little stubborn, but not near as much a she is!” Jermaine dicho “you watch; she’s going to be just like tu when she grows up…Stubborn as hell but, an amazing person because of that!”
Jermaine Junior shouted from the living room saying “Uncle Michael; Alanna isn’t sharing her toys with me!” Dad asked “do tu want to come here and sit on my lap while he plays with your toys?” I walked into the cocina and came up to dad. He dicho “if tu don’t want to come in here and listen to me and uncle Jermaine talk; tu better behave… I told tu that tu need to share!” I looked at him and stomped out of the room. Dad dicho “she needs más interaction with the kids because preschool is only a few years away! Jermaine didn’t say anything and took a sip of his soda. Then he asked “do tu know what tu are doing Michael?” Dad dicho “I don’t want this to come off wrong but, Alanna’s my trial and error child… I don’t really know what I’m doing and I’m just hoping something will work with her!” Jermaine dicho “I know exactly how tu feel; parenting takes real skill and time!” Junior grabbed his chaqueta and dicho “you have to drop me off at mom’s house in a few minutes, don’t forget dad!”
As uncle Jermaine was putting his chaqueta on, dad dicho “I just don’t want her to become a brat!” Jermaine walked towards the door with my cousin in his arms and dicho “she won’t Michael; tu need to have faith in yourself as a father!” The door slammed shut and I ran up to dad!” He dicho “I don’t like it when tu act like that… I’m not happy with you!”
Dad will always be grateful to have me for his daughter but, he knows how he wants me brought up. It bothers him that I constantly disobey him and he is embarrassed when I act out because he’s trying so hard to make sure I understand right from wrong! He is too tough on himself because of that though! He’s hoping that I’ll catch on soon so, it doesn’t get worse in the future when I’m a teenager!
April 21, 1996,
Dad came inicial around six o’clock and walked upstairs to my room where I was watching TV. He sat down on the floor siguiente to me and noticed that I was sweating. I started to shiver and he asked “do tu feel okay?” He felt my forehead and dicho “you feel a little warm!” I looked at him and started to cry. He picked me up and asked “what’s wrong?” I pointed to my ears and he dicho “you must have an ear infection!”
He carried me downstairs and dicho “I think I still have those drops from the last time I had an ear infection.” He rummaged through the medicine cabinet in one of the bathrooms downstairs and dicho “here they are!” Grace held me down while dad put the drops in my ears. That was quite the ordeal I was determined that those drops were not coming anywhere near me and definitely not near my ears! Every time he would try to put them in my ears I would pull away and one time I actually broke free of her grip!
I ran upstairs and into my room. Dad and Grace had to chase me into a corner so he could put the drops in my ears! Of course I acted like it was the end of the world because I was having a two-year-old meltdown and on parte superior, arriba of all that I didn’t feel very good! Dad managed to calm me down por lectura me a book while Grace tried to catch her breath after following me around the whole house for 45 min.
A few hours later, dad took me to his room and put a movie in the VCR for us to watch. I laid there siguiente to him with his arm around my shoulders and watched Peter Pan. We chuckled and rewound parts of the movie over and over again and this is definitely a moment that I’ll never forget!
June 6, 1996,
It was the middle of the día and I was playing with my Legos in the playroom when there was a knock at the door. Dad answered it surprised to see Debbie on the other side. He asked “what are tu doing here?” Out of the corner of his eye he could see that she was holding an unidentified white stick in her hands. She dicho “I have some news!” Looking puzzled he asked “what kind of news?” She passed him the white stick and he dicho “oh my gosh; a positive pregnancy test!!!” He jumped up and down with joy and hugged her.
Being two years old, I had no idea what he was so excited about so, I just continued to play. He eventually came over to me and dicho “you’re going to have a little brother o sister soon!” I dicho “a baby?” Dad smiled as he dicho “yes… Another baby!” Debbie smiled and dicho “I can’t believe I’m pregnant again!” Dad hugged her and dicho “I can’t thank tu enough for what you’re doing for me, you’ve made me the happiest person in the world!”
I don’t know what compelled me to do what I did next. I got up off the floor and asked Debbie to pick me up. She did and that was the first time I willingly let her hold me since I was born. Dad asked “can tu give Ms. Debbie a kiss on the cheek?” He was shocked when I kissed her and dicho “wow; she rarely kisses anyone but me!” Debbie seemed really happy to have me in her arms but, she also looked a little uncomfortable. I think she was feeling like she was missing out on being a parent but, she knew deep down that she didn’t really want to be a hands-on mother and that dad was doing a really good job as a single parent!
For reasons I don’t understand yet; dad became very emotional seeing the two of us together. He loves being a single father but, his corazón was hurting for me because I would never know what it was like to have a mother! He started to tear up and took me from her so he didn’t get más upset because he doesn’t like to cry in front of me! Debbie quickly dicho “well; I better get going, I just wanted to tell tu that you’re going to be a father of two in nine months!” As she left dad kissed my forehead and dicho “wow… Two kids!”
June 12, 1996,
Since dad found out he was going to be a father of two kids soon he decided to slowly start helping me reach certain milestones that a toddler should accomplish. He thought a good place to start was por getting rid of my crib. A delivery truck was going to be at the ranch in a few hours and dad went upstairs with me to get my room ready and mover things around so there was room for my new bed.
He put me down on my bedroom floor and dicho “I know I’m not very handy but, at least you’ll have something to laugh at while tu watch me try and take apart your crib!” He kneeled down and started to unscrew the bolts that hold it together. It took him forever to take it apart but, I don’t blame him because he would much rather be cooking something in the cocina then building o taking things apart! At one point Grace walked into my room and busted out laughing. She asked “oh my God there’s so many screws scattered everywhere and the cuna looks like a trapezoid!” Dad laughed and dicho “yeah, yeah, yeah (blushes) I know I’m no Mr. fix-it!”
Grace let the delivery crew in and bring my cama frame and mattress upstairs to my room. To dad’s relief; the cama frame was already assembled and all he had to do was put the mattress in. I helped dad put my brand-new Mickey ratón bedding on my cama and he put my Mickey ratón stuffed animal at the end of my bed. Grace walked into my room and dicho “I was wondering when tu would ever get rid of that crib!” Dad dicho “it’s just hard for me to let my baby grow up!” I hugged him and dicho “thank tu for my cama daddy!” He dicho “you’re welcome; I amor you!” Grace dicho “you know that you’re probably not going to get much sleep tonight because she is going to keep getting out of her bed!” Dad dicho “yeah, that’s part of the reason why I didn’t get rid of her cuna right after she turned two!”
At eight o’clock it was time for me to go to cama and dad brought me upstairs to my bedroom. He put me under the covers and kissed my forehead. He dicho “okay, I’m going to be downstairs if tu get out of this cama I will hear you!” He shut off the lights and left my bedroom door open so the hallway light when shine in my room. I got out of cama and walked to the parte superior, arriba of the stairs. Dad didn’t notice me at first but, when he got up to get a drink of water he saw me and asked “what are tu doing out of your bed?” I dicho “I want to come down there daddy!” He walked up the steps and picked me up. He put me back in my cama and dicho “I amor you, but it’s time to go to sleep!” He went into his bedroom and I could see him watching TV on the edge of his bed.
I waited about 5 min. to see if he saw me looking at him before I got out of cama again and went into his room. He looked at me and dicho “you better get back in that cama before I have to put tu in time out!” I started to cry as I slowly made my way back to my bedroom and into my bed. After a while of me sitting in my bedroom crying; dad came in and lay down siguiente to me. I think he realized that I was used to having the security of my cuna and tried to comfort me. The first few times I did get out of my cama was because I was testing dad to see if he was going to bring me back but, I only got out of cama two más times before I got the message that he wasn’t going to give in. When I woke up the siguiente morning I was in my cama alone and he was sprawled cruzar, cruz his cama on his stomach with the remote in his hand.
July 26, 1996,
It was the middle of the afternoon and I was upstairs in my room. Dad noticed that it was awfully quiet and normally I would be making some sort of noise. He went upstairs to investigate and saw me in the corner of the room holding something. When he came closer he noticed I had cut my hair with scissors.
He took the scissors out of my hands and asked “oh my gosh, what did tu do to your hair?” I dicho “I was just giving myself a haircut like Karen does!” At first dad was mad but, a few minutos later he couldn’t help but laugh because I looked so weird with a chunk of my hair shorter than the other parts. Luckily my hair is really short so it didn’t look that bad and it wouldn’t take a long time to grow back.
Dad took me downstairs and showed Grace my hair and she dicho “you have to admit that it’s kind of cute that she tried to cut her own hair!” Dad laughed as he looked down at my head and dicho “yeah I know… I tried to be serious with her but, I couldn’t because she looked so adorable!” Dad dicho “just don’t do it again and we’ll be all good!” Let’s just say I think I’ll be wearing a baseball gorra, cap for a very long time!
July 28, 1996,
When I woke up this morning dad was at work, like he usually is at this time. Grace is still getting used to the fact that my cuna is gone because now I walk downstairs and wait for her to get up in the morning. She was surprised the first time I was down there por myself because she wasn’t expecting me to be up and playing. She went into my room this morning and I had already gone downstairs.
She went downstairs and found me sitting in front of the TV, which I managed to somehow turn on Nickelodeon. She patted my cama headed hair and got me a bowl of cereal for breakfast. She dicho “I just talked to tu daddy on the phone and he dicho we could visit him on the set of his new música video ghosts.” I began to get very excited and started jumping around. She dicho “were going to go there for a couple of hours so, daddy can ride inicial with us when he’s done working!” I hurried to finish my cereal and Grace dicho “you don’t have to rush; we won’t be leaving for a while!”
A few hours later we drove to an undisclosed location where my dad was filming a música video. Grace helped me out of the car and we walked inside. I looked around for dad but, he was nowhere to be found. Then an overweight man wearing glasses, kneelt down in front of me and dicho “hi Alanna!” He sounded like dad but, definitely didn’t look like him. I started to cry and reached out for Grace to pick me up. She asked “Michael; is that you?” He dicho “yeah, this is just a costume that I wear when I play that mayor!!! I didn’t mean to make her cry!!!” Grace passed me to him and dicho “it’s okay; it’s just daddy in a costume.” I shook my head and dicho “that doesn’t look like daddy!” I screamed out of sheer terror and clung to her as tightly as I possibly could!
Grace followed the man with me in her arms and went into a dressing room. He sat in the chair and people began to remove a rubber mask from his face. When the mask was off I finally realized that it really was dad under all that makeup!” He looked at me and smiled. I climbed onto his lap and dicho “I amor tu daddy!” He dicho “I amor tu more!!!”
August 1, 1996
I was playing with my toys in the playroom while Grace was doing dishes in the kitchen. The phone rang and she picked it up. She had a shocked look on her face as she listened to the person on the other side of the call and raced upstairs to pack her suitcase. I was wondering what was going on because I saw her crying as she ran to her room. I decided to lay low for a while so I didn’t make her any sadder than she already was!
20 min. later dad came inicial oblivious to what was going on. He saw that I was downstairs por myself and then Grace came to greet him carrying her suitcase. Dad looked at her as tears streamed down her face and asked “what’s wrong?” She dicho “my sister called and told me she was just diagnosed with lung cancer and asked if I could keep her company until my other sister was able to quit her job and stay with her full-time!” He hugged her and dicho “you take as much time as tu need and tell her I’ll keep her in my thoughts!” She asked “who will watch Alanna while you’re at work because I will probably be gone for a month?” He dicho “I will stay inicial with her… It will give me some time to spend with her before the new baby comes!” She hugged me and sobbed as she walked out the door.
I asked “where is she going daddy?” He picked me up and dicho “she will be back in a few weeks!” He kissed me and dicho “that’s okay, me and you’re going to have fun together because I’m not going to work until she gets back!” I dicho “daddy I want to take a bath!” Even though dad tries his best to be inicial from work in time to give me a bath and put me to bed, he had not been able to in three months because of his busy schedule!” He dicho “okay, we can do that!”
October 31, 1996,
I am so excited because I’m going to get to go trick-or-treating today for my first time! Dad came up with a plan so, we don’t have a repeat of last year! He brought a costume for himself to where when we go house to house because people won’t know that it’s him. He brought himself a Spiderman costume and I picked out a batman costume. Grace thought that it was a really good idea to have the two of us dressed up and she really thinks we’ll pull it off!”
After we had put our costumes on, we went out to find houses that were giving out candy. When we found a house with the porch lights on I noticed that there was just a bowl of dulces on their doorstep. At that point we had been looking for hours for a house that was celebrating halloween and dad was starting to get discouraged. He dicho “apparently these other rich and famous people like me are too good to celebrate Halloween!” Dad dicho “come on; I’m done with this, I have another idea!”
When we got back to the ranch Grace asked “what are tu doing back here?” I dicho “no one was giving out candy!” Dad quickly went to the pantry and pulled out a big bag of assorted candies and poured it in five separate bowls. He whispered in Grace’s ear and then carried me upstairs. He dicho “if we can’t go trick-or-treating, tu can at least pretend that we are! He dicho “knock on that door!” When I did Grace opened it and dicho “happy halloween!” I opened my bag and dicho “trick-or-treat!” She passed me some dulces and we went door to door in the house getting más until my bag was full!
This will definitely be a moment that I look back on when I am older. Dad always strives for me to have as normal life as I possibly can! He didn’t want me missing out on trick-or-treating for the segundo time in a row so, he came up with this within minutes. I was so excited and he couldn’t handle having to let me down again! Sure; this wasn’t what I had in mind but, it is probably as close as I’ll ever get to doing the real thing! This is just más proof that my father is the most amazing father in the world and is nothing like what the media mostrar him to be! I wish they would just leave him alone! Its one thing to say something nice about someone that tu can back up but, on the other hand their favorito! things to is say something completely false and all it does is eat away at my dad’s self-esteem!
September 7, 1996,
I woke up this morning to dad putting me in an SUV and Grace was sitting siguiente to me. Grace must have come back last night because I haven’t seen her since she left to keep her sister company a week ago. I also noticed that we were in a different country, which means I slept through the whole plane ride to Spain. Today’s dad’s first concierto for his history tour and it starts in an hour. He will be doing four shows a week and the rest of the time he will be spending with me!
We pulled up in front of a concierto arena and Grace followed dad inside with me in her arms. Dad ran as fast as he possibly could to go change into his first outfit for the show. I tried to follow him and Grace dicho “daddy is busy; we’re going to get to see him sing on that stage over there!” She picked me up and I dicho “WOW… That’s going to be so cool! Are people going to scream for him?” She dicho “yes, really loud!” I rested my head on her shoulder and dicho “I amor my daddy so much!” She dicho “I know tu do; he loves tu más though!” We playfully argued back and forth about who loved who más and then dad came out of his dressing room. He kissed me and dicho “okay; it’s time for me to do my thing!”
I sat backstage and watched the concert. Dad would occasionally come back there for a last-minute costume change and the entire time he would talk to me. Even though he’s on tour he knows that he needs to be there for me no matter what! He doesn’t want me to forget that he’s my father and that I can come to him with anything! As I watched him dance across the stage I absolutely loved when he was doing and thought it was so awesome!
When the mostrar was over he came backstage to get me and he was dripping with sweat. He picked me up and asked “did tu like the concert?” I dicho “daddy I want to do that when I grow up!” He dicho “you can do whatever tu want to, just as long as tu try your best and work hard!!!” I knew from that moment on that that was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life! Just seeing him on the stage and how magical his dance moves were mesmerized me! We went back to the hotel and I fell asleep in his arms!
December 1, 1996,
It was three o’clock in the morning and I walked into dad’s bedroom. I climbed on the cama and shook him until he woke up. He turned on his light that was siguiente to his cama and rubbed his eyes. He asked “what are tu doing awake this early?” I dicho “I had a bad dream again daddy… I am really scared!” He dicho “this is the 5th time in a row that tu have had a bad dream!” I put the blanket over me and dicho “it was about a monster chasing me this time!” Dad dicho “monsters aren’t real… tu have nothing to be afraid of sweetheart!”
I knew very well that monsters were not real; the real reason I wanted to be with him was because the new baby will be here soon and I’m worried that I’m going to miss out on doing stuff like this after he is born! I think dad is starting to catch on to my tricks and I don’t think he will let me sleep in his room anymore!
He hugged me and dicho “I need to go back to sleep because I have a concierto tomorrow so, go back to your bed, I amor tu but, you’re not scared and it’s time to go to sleep!” I looked at him shocked and climbed off the bed. As I walked back to my room (in the hotel we were staying at) I dicho “I just don’t want to give tu up!”
Afterwards I laid in my cama staring at the ceiling wondering if my dad was truly going to treat me the same as my baby brother! I don’t know what made me doubt that he wouldn’t but, here I was starting to grow up and learn new things. My brother would be the baby of the family and I would just be me! I know dad loves me but, what if the new baby would listen to him and stay out of trouble? Most times when I get in trouble I don’t think before I act and what if the new baby was everything he ever wanted in a child? I can’t change who I am, which most of the time was a troublemaker and ignored everything that was dicho to me!
December 19, 1996,
It was about an hora and a half after my dad’s concierto and we were just getting settled in at a new hotel. I am slowly getting used to life on the road and dad tries to make each bedroom that I have in the hotels comfortable for me. He takes posters that are normally in my bedroom at inicial and puts them in each hotel room. Something that I’ll never forget is the fact that he always puts a poster of himself in my bedroom, no matter where we are so I can always look at him; even if he’s not there in person!
I heard dad watching a movie in his bedroom and went in to see him. I looked at the TV screen captivated por what I was seeing. I asked “daddy; what are tu watching?” He dicho “this is estrella Wars, one of my favorito! movies!” I asked “what are those colorful things those people are fighting with?” He dicho “those are light-sabers!” I dicho “Lifesavers?” He laughed and dicho “no, light sabers!” I dicho “yeah; that’s what I said, Lifesavers!” He chuckled and dicho “okay, I guess they are Lifesavers!” I climbed on the edge of his cama and onto his lap. He smiled as I really became interested in what was happening in the movie.
I asked preguntas about tons of different things about the characters and he would quickly jump to answer them. I don’t know what it was about that estrella Wars movie that was so special but, I really felt like that was a good way for us to bond even after my brother is born!
December 21, 1996,
It’s getting closer and closer to the birth of my baby brother so, Debbie is coming over again today to help dad get prepared to be a father of two! Dad was busy getting ready for the día when she arrived and Grace let her inside our hotel room. Grace then when to her room so, she could fold our laundry. I was playing in my room and watching a disney movie.
Debbie came in my room and sat down on my small twin sized bed. She asked “how are you, I can’t believe you’re almost 3 years old now… I remember when tu were just a little baby!” I ignored her and searched through a pile of toys for my pacifier. She looked at me shocked as I casually put it in my mouth. She dicho “wow; I’m surprised your daddy still lets tu have a pacifier!” I heard dad walking down the hallway and ran to him.
He scooped me up and dicho “hi Debbie!” He walked over to the sofá and sat down siguiente to her. Grace came over to the three of us and passed me a bottle of chocolate milk. Debbie looked at dad and asked “don’t tu think Alanna is getting too old to be using pacifiers and baby bottles?” He ran his fingers through my hair and dicho “I’ll deal with that when it comes, for now she can stay my baby girl for a few weeks!” She dicho “I just figured since she is almost 3 years old tu would have got rid of those things a while ago!” Dad dicho while beginning to get irritated “I really don’t appreciate tu giving me parenting advice; when tu are not with her every single día and tu are not theoretically her mommy!” She dicho “okay; I don’t want this to turn into a fight so, I’ll keep my thoughts to myself!” Dad dicho “thank you!”
Debbie put a gift bag filled with baby clothes on the coffee-table and started to take them out. Dad asked “what’s all this for; tu don’t have to buy anything!” She dicho “well, I thought because he is going to be your first son; I would get tu some boys clothing.” I dicho “wow, new clothes for my baby brother!” Debbie asked “are tu sure tu want to name him Prince?” Dad dicho “yeah, because it was my grandfather’s name and because I think it’s adorable!” Debbie asked “Alanna, are tu excited to be a big sister?” I dicho “yeah, he’s going to cry a lot!” She laughed and dicho “I’m sure he is!”
After she had left, dad sat down on the sofá with me his lap and dicho “only a little bit longer to go and your little brother will be coming!” To me dad looked happy but; I think he’s a little bit nervous because he didn’t expect to have another baby while he is still on tour! I don’t know how he’s going to balance going to concerts and being a father of two but… I know he will figure it out!
March 16, 1996,
I turned two years old yesterday and dad is having a hard time with my temper tantrums. He loves me to death; I just don’t think he knows what to do with me half the time! Grace is getting más and más frustrated with every día that goes by. I have no doubt in my mind that he loves me but sometimes I wonder if I’m not what he bargained for!
There was a knock at the front door and a blonde haired woman that I did not recognize walked through the door. I had this strange feeling that I knew she was but, I couldn’t put a name to her face. Dad plopped me down on the sofá and sat in between her and I. He dicho “listen Debbie, I know things didn’t leave on the right foot last time but, I’m ready for another baby and I want to put all of those feelings behind us!” She dicho “I was just being way too sensitive and I apologize for what happened!” She looked at my hair and looked at hers while smiling. She smirked at dad and dicho sarcastically “I wonder where she gets that hair from?” He dicho “yeah I don’t know where she gets it either!”
I ran around the living room screaming and Debbie asked “are tu sure you’re ready to deal with Alanna and a newborn baby Michael?” He dicho “I think I know what to expect now at least the first año of the siguiente child’s life!” I ripped one of my new libros that I got for my birthday and dad asked “why would tu do that?” He picked me up and put me in the corner facing the wall. Debbie looked it dad and asked “does she normally act like this o is it only because I’m here?” He laughed and dicho “no, she started her terrible twos a few months ago!” I tried to get out of the corner and he dicho “don’t tu even try to mover from that spot till I tell tu that tu can!”
Debbie dicho “I have to say that I’m shocked to see this side of you!” He asked “what do tu mean?” She dicho “well, I expected tu to be a laid-back father but, what tu just dicho to Alanna proved me wrong!” He picked me up and asked “are tu sorry for ruining your new book?” I kissed him and dicho “I’m sorry daddy.” He put me down and dicho “it’s okay but, don’t do that again.” He came back over to the sofá and sat down. He dicho “it took me a while to be stern with her but, I’ve learned that I have to be because if I’m not she feels she can get away with anything.” He cleared his throat and dicho “believe me I felt terrible the first time I had to punish her!”
After a few hours of talking about having another baby, Debbie grabbed her chaqueta and gave dad and I each a hug before she left. I climbed onto his lap and he dicho “I don’t know about tu but, I think tu need a sibling!” I had no idea what he was talking about and I sat there with a blank look on my face. He dicho “I know tu don’t understand what I’m saying but, tu will soon enough!” As he held me he dicho quietly “I can’t believe tu are already two years old… tu are growing up way too fast for me!!!”
March 24, 1996,
It was almost 3 o’clock in the in the morning and I woke up to dad taking me out of my cuna and bringing me outside to the car. He dicho “hey sleepyhead, we’re going to go to disney World to see Mickey Mouse!” He buckled me into my car asiento and sitting siguiente to me was my uncle Macauley Culkin. He isn’t really my uncle but, dad and he are really close so I’ve always called him uncle Mac. He starred in the movie “home alone” which is one of my dad’s favorito! movies!
We arrived at the airport and boarded our flight. While dad flipped through one of his parenting books, I watched the in-flight movie of the lion King. Uncle Mac played his hand held video games and I ended up falling asleep. When we got to our destination I was wondering where we were going. A few minutos later I saw a huge castillo and immediately knew where we were…at disney World!
I started to get very excited and dicho “I want to go see Pinocchio!!!” After we had gotten our park passes we went to go see some of the new rides. I gravitated toward the rides that I was familiar with and uncle Mac started to get bored with all of the kiddie rides. Dad let him go off on his own while he took me on the Dumbo ride. The two of us rode it about seven times before I had had enough and we went off to go find Pinocchio. After about 20 min. of searching we finally found him and I was so happy. Besides the preschool nickelodeon shows, most of what I watch is disney cine because dad likes them too.
Then dad took me to get something to eat because I was hungry. He was hoping that we would bump into Uncle Mac on the way because he had not seen him in a few hours. While dad was ordering us some sweet potato fries and cheese burgers uncle Mac showed up. Dad asked “did tu have fun?” Uncle Mac took me out of my stroller and dicho “yeah, thank tu Michael for taking me on this trip with tu guys!” Dad put the trays of comida on the mesa, tabla and dicho “you know tu don’t have to thank me… Alanna and I amor to hang out with you!” Uncle Mac passed me a sweet potato fry and I dicho “thank you.”
After we had eaten, we spent four más hours shopping for souvenirs and watching a parade of characters. Then it was time for the three of us to get back on the plane and fly back inicial because dad has to continue rehearsing for the tour tomorrow morning. He’s trying to fit in as many memorable moments for me before we have to travel the world because it’ll be at least a año before we completely mover back home. Sure we’ll spend a couple weeks at the ranch every couple of weeks but, we will mostly be living out of hotels.
April 10, 1996,
I had money from a few family members for my birthday and dad decided to take me to Toys “R” Us to spend it. Very rarely do I get to go to a toy store because dad does not want me to become spoiled, so I am really excited! I had over $150 to spend at the store and was excited to get my hands on some new toys. Before the tour starts dad gave nanny Grace a couple of weeks off because once we are heading all over the world she won’t be able to go see her family. Today she was packing her bags and getting ready to head back inicial to her mother’s house.
After Grace had left, dad and I were all alone in our huge home. He took me out to the car and sat siguiente to me in the backseat. When the bodyguard who was driving us pulled up in front of Toys “R” Us I became más and más excited! Dad helped me into a shopping carro and we went into the store. The first thing I saw was a giant stuffed animal of Spiderman. Beside the Spiderman stuffed animal was one of cenicienta and dad asked “wouldn’t tu rather have the cenicienta one?” I dicho “no; I want Spiderman!” He wasn’t trying to change my mind but, I think he was shocked when I picked the one I did.
Dad took me out of the carro and let me mostrar him where I wanted to go. I walked down the Lego section and grabbed 1000 piece Lego racecar set. He looked at the amount of pieces and dicho “let’s get the big mega blocks set instead, because I think they are más for two-year-olds!” I picked out the red mega blocks instead of the option of rosado, rosa and light purple colored ones. He put them in the shopping carro and I saw a display of toy dump trucks out of the corner of my eye. I ran towards them and dicho “daddy I want one of these please!” He dicho “okay… If that’s what tu really want!” I carried it around the store and dicho “I want to go inicial now… I’ll save the rest of the money for siguiente time.” He put me back in the carro and dicho “that’s fine, I’ll put it in a seguro place for tu so it doesn’t get lost!”
I think dad is starting to learn now that I’m definitely not a girly girl. I already know that I am a tomboy all the way. I can sit through a Princess movie but, it’s not very entertaining to me. I think now dad gets that and is going to gravitate away from those types of things. He knows a lot of people with kids that are tomboys so, I know that me being a tomboy isn’t going to bother him one bit because he’s accepting to those sorts of things!
April 18, 1996,
When I woke up from my nap this afternoon my uncle Jermaine was here with my five-year-old cousin Jermaine Junior. They had just gotten there because they were still wearing their jackets. Dad put me down and helped Jermaine Junior unzip his jacket. I went into the living room and Junior followed me. I have not had as much contact with other kids because of my father’s busy schedule but, he definitely thinks that I need to!
Dad pulled out my toy box from the closet and opened it up. I saw that Jermaine Junior was grabbing one of my favorito! toys and took it from him. He picked out another toy and I took that one from him too. I dicho “no; these are all my toys… tu can’t play with them!” He looked at me and sat down on the floor feeling defeated. Dad noticed that it was extremely quiet in the living, which usually means I’m up to no good room!
He walked into the room and looked at me surrounded por a pile of toys. Jermaine Junior was watching Nickelodeon and dad asked “how come you’re not playing with Alanna Junior?” He replied por saying “she won’t let me play with any of her toys!” Dad dicho “Alanna; tu need to share your toys with Junior!” I dicho “but they’re mine… tu bought them for me!” He sighed and dicho “I know I bought them for tu but, it doesn’t mean tu can’t share them!” I passed Junior a plastic baseball and dicho “there; tu can play with that because it’s boring!” Dad dicho while desperately trying not to laugh “no tu have to share all your toys with him, not just the boring ones!”
Dad got up and dicho “you better share your toys with him o I’m not going to buy tu anymore!” He walked out of the room and sat at the cocina mesa, tabla with my uncle Jermaine. Dad looked at him and asked “please tell me these terrible twos to come to an end?” Jermaine dicho “she’s barely 2 so, tu better get used to it now because you’ve got a long way to go before they’re over!” Dad laughed and dicho “she’s just so stubborn; it drives me nuts!” Jermaine sarcastically replied “wow… I wonder where she gets that from?” Dad dicho laughing “well it’s not from me; I’m easy-going and passive!” Jermaine dicho “Michael if tu weren’t so stubborn tu wouldn’t have the best-selling album of all time… You’re the guy who stayed overnight in the studio to make sure everything on the album is perfect. tu wouldn’t take no for an answer even when mtv didn’t want to mostrar your thriller video because tu were an African-American artist, but they did end up mostrando it didn’t they?” Dad smiled and dicho “okay maybe I’m a little stubborn, but not near as much a she is!” Jermaine dicho “you watch; she’s going to be just like tu when she grows up…Stubborn as hell but, an amazing person because of that!”
Jermaine Junior shouted from the living room saying “Uncle Michael; Alanna isn’t sharing her toys with me!” Dad asked “do tu want to come here and sit on my lap while he plays with your toys?” I walked into the cocina and came up to dad. He dicho “if tu don’t want to come in here and listen to me and uncle Jermaine talk; tu better behave… I told tu that tu need to share!” I looked at him and stomped out of the room. Dad dicho “she needs más interaction with the kids because preschool is only a few years away! Jermaine didn’t say anything and took a sip of his soda. Then he asked “do tu know what tu are doing Michael?” Dad dicho “I don’t want this to come off wrong but, Alanna’s my trial and error child… I don’t really know what I’m doing and I’m just hoping something will work with her!” Jermaine dicho “I know exactly how tu feel; parenting takes real skill and time!” Junior grabbed his chaqueta and dicho “you have to drop me off at mom’s house in a few minutes, don’t forget dad!”
As uncle Jermaine was putting his chaqueta on, dad dicho “I just don’t want her to become a brat!” Jermaine walked towards the door with my cousin in his arms and dicho “she won’t Michael; tu need to have faith in yourself as a father!” The door slammed shut and I ran up to dad!” He dicho “I don’t like it when tu act like that… I’m not happy with you!”
Dad will always be grateful to have me for his daughter but, he knows how he wants me brought up. It bothers him that I constantly disobey him and he is embarrassed when I act out because he’s trying so hard to make sure I understand right from wrong! He is too tough on himself because of that though! He’s hoping that I’ll catch on soon so, it doesn’t get worse in the future when I’m a teenager!
April 21, 1996,
Dad came inicial around six o’clock and walked upstairs to my room where I was watching TV. He sat down on the floor siguiente to me and noticed that I was sweating. I started to shiver and he asked “do tu feel okay?” He felt my forehead and dicho “you feel a little warm!” I looked at him and started to cry. He picked me up and asked “what’s wrong?” I pointed to my ears and he dicho “you must have an ear infection!”
He carried me downstairs and dicho “I think I still have those drops from the last time I had an ear infection.” He rummaged through the medicine cabinet in one of the bathrooms downstairs and dicho “here they are!” Grace held me down while dad put the drops in my ears. That was quite the ordeal I was determined that those drops were not coming anywhere near me and definitely not near my ears! Every time he would try to put them in my ears I would pull away and one time I actually broke free of her grip!
I ran upstairs and into my room. Dad and Grace had to chase me into a corner so he could put the drops in my ears! Of course I acted like it was the end of the world because I was having a two-year-old meltdown and on parte superior, arriba of all that I didn’t feel very good! Dad managed to calm me down por lectura me a book while Grace tried to catch her breath after following me around the whole house for 45 min.
A few hours later, dad took me to his room and put a movie in the VCR for us to watch. I laid there siguiente to him with his arm around my shoulders and watched Peter Pan. We chuckled and rewound parts of the movie over and over again and this is definitely a moment that I’ll never forget!
June 6, 1996,
It was the middle of the día and I was playing with my Legos in the playroom when there was a knock at the door. Dad answered it surprised to see Debbie on the other side. He asked “what are tu doing here?” Out of the corner of his eye he could see that she was holding an unidentified white stick in her hands. She dicho “I have some news!” Looking puzzled he asked “what kind of news?” She passed him the white stick and he dicho “oh my gosh; a positive pregnancy test!!!” He jumped up and down with joy and hugged her.
Being two years old, I had no idea what he was so excited about so, I just continued to play. He eventually came over to me and dicho “you’re going to have a little brother o sister soon!” I dicho “a baby?” Dad smiled as he dicho “yes… Another baby!” Debbie smiled and dicho “I can’t believe I’m pregnant again!” Dad hugged her and dicho “I can’t thank tu enough for what you’re doing for me, you’ve made me the happiest person in the world!”
I don’t know what compelled me to do what I did next. I got up off the floor and asked Debbie to pick me up. She did and that was the first time I willingly let her hold me since I was born. Dad asked “can tu give Ms. Debbie a kiss on the cheek?” He was shocked when I kissed her and dicho “wow; she rarely kisses anyone but me!” Debbie seemed really happy to have me in her arms but, she also looked a little uncomfortable. I think she was feeling like she was missing out on being a parent but, she knew deep down that she didn’t really want to be a hands-on mother and that dad was doing a really good job as a single parent!
For reasons I don’t understand yet; dad became very emotional seeing the two of us together. He loves being a single father but, his corazón was hurting for me because I would never know what it was like to have a mother! He started to tear up and took me from her so he didn’t get más upset because he doesn’t like to cry in front of me! Debbie quickly dicho “well; I better get going, I just wanted to tell tu that you’re going to be a father of two in nine months!” As she left dad kissed my forehead and dicho “wow… Two kids!”
June 12, 1996,
Since dad found out he was going to be a father of two kids soon he decided to slowly start helping me reach certain milestones that a toddler should accomplish. He thought a good place to start was por getting rid of my crib. A delivery truck was going to be at the ranch in a few hours and dad went upstairs with me to get my room ready and mover things around so there was room for my new bed.
He put me down on my bedroom floor and dicho “I know I’m not very handy but, at least you’ll have something to laugh at while tu watch me try and take apart your crib!” He kneeled down and started to unscrew the bolts that hold it together. It took him forever to take it apart but, I don’t blame him because he would much rather be cooking something in the cocina then building o taking things apart! At one point Grace walked into my room and busted out laughing. She asked “oh my God there’s so many screws scattered everywhere and the cuna looks like a trapezoid!” Dad laughed and dicho “yeah, yeah, yeah (blushes) I know I’m no Mr. fix-it!”
Grace let the delivery crew in and bring my cama frame and mattress upstairs to my room. To dad’s relief; the cama frame was already assembled and all he had to do was put the mattress in. I helped dad put my brand-new Mickey ratón bedding on my cama and he put my Mickey ratón stuffed animal at the end of my bed. Grace walked into my room and dicho “I was wondering when tu would ever get rid of that crib!” Dad dicho “it’s just hard for me to let my baby grow up!” I hugged him and dicho “thank tu for my cama daddy!” He dicho “you’re welcome; I amor you!” Grace dicho “you know that you’re probably not going to get much sleep tonight because she is going to keep getting out of her bed!” Dad dicho “yeah, that’s part of the reason why I didn’t get rid of her cuna right after she turned two!”
At eight o’clock it was time for me to go to cama and dad brought me upstairs to my bedroom. He put me under the covers and kissed my forehead. He dicho “okay, I’m going to be downstairs if tu get out of this cama I will hear you!” He shut off the lights and left my bedroom door open so the hallway light when shine in my room. I got out of cama and walked to the parte superior, arriba of the stairs. Dad didn’t notice me at first but, when he got up to get a drink of water he saw me and asked “what are tu doing out of your bed?” I dicho “I want to come down there daddy!” He walked up the steps and picked me up. He put me back in my cama and dicho “I amor you, but it’s time to go to sleep!” He went into his bedroom and I could see him watching TV on the edge of his bed.
I waited about 5 min. to see if he saw me looking at him before I got out of cama again and went into his room. He looked at me and dicho “you better get back in that cama before I have to put tu in time out!” I started to cry as I slowly made my way back to my bedroom and into my bed. After a while of me sitting in my bedroom crying; dad came in and lay down siguiente to me. I think he realized that I was used to having the security of my cuna and tried to comfort me. The first few times I did get out of my cama was because I was testing dad to see if he was going to bring me back but, I only got out of cama two más times before I got the message that he wasn’t going to give in. When I woke up the siguiente morning I was in my cama alone and he was sprawled cruzar, cruz his cama on his stomach with the remote in his hand.
July 26, 1996,
It was the middle of the afternoon and I was upstairs in my room. Dad noticed that it was awfully quiet and normally I would be making some sort of noise. He went upstairs to investigate and saw me in the corner of the room holding something. When he came closer he noticed I had cut my hair with scissors.
He took the scissors out of my hands and asked “oh my gosh, what did tu do to your hair?” I dicho “I was just giving myself a haircut like Karen does!” At first dad was mad but, a few minutos later he couldn’t help but laugh because I looked so weird with a chunk of my hair shorter than the other parts. Luckily my hair is really short so it didn’t look that bad and it wouldn’t take a long time to grow back.
Dad took me downstairs and showed Grace my hair and she dicho “you have to admit that it’s kind of cute that she tried to cut her own hair!” Dad laughed as he looked down at my head and dicho “yeah I know… I tried to be serious with her but, I couldn’t because she looked so adorable!” Dad dicho “just don’t do it again and we’ll be all good!” Let’s just say I think I’ll be wearing a baseball gorra, cap for a very long time!
July 28, 1996,
When I woke up this morning dad was at work, like he usually is at this time. Grace is still getting used to the fact that my cuna is gone because now I walk downstairs and wait for her to get up in the morning. She was surprised the first time I was down there por myself because she wasn’t expecting me to be up and playing. She went into my room this morning and I had already gone downstairs.
She went downstairs and found me sitting in front of the TV, which I managed to somehow turn on Nickelodeon. She patted my cama headed hair and got me a bowl of cereal for breakfast. She dicho “I just talked to tu daddy on the phone and he dicho we could visit him on the set of his new música video ghosts.” I began to get very excited and started jumping around. She dicho “were going to go there for a couple of hours so, daddy can ride inicial with us when he’s done working!” I hurried to finish my cereal and Grace dicho “you don’t have to rush; we won’t be leaving for a while!”
A few hours later we drove to an undisclosed location where my dad was filming a música video. Grace helped me out of the car and we walked inside. I looked around for dad but, he was nowhere to be found. Then an overweight man wearing glasses, kneelt down in front of me and dicho “hi Alanna!” He sounded like dad but, definitely didn’t look like him. I started to cry and reached out for Grace to pick me up. She asked “Michael; is that you?” He dicho “yeah, this is just a costume that I wear when I play that mayor!!! I didn’t mean to make her cry!!!” Grace passed me to him and dicho “it’s okay; it’s just daddy in a costume.” I shook my head and dicho “that doesn’t look like daddy!” I screamed out of sheer terror and clung to her as tightly as I possibly could!
Grace followed the man with me in her arms and went into a dressing room. He sat in the chair and people began to remove a rubber mask from his face. When the mask was off I finally realized that it really was dad under all that makeup!” He looked at me and smiled. I climbed onto his lap and dicho “I amor tu daddy!” He dicho “I amor tu more!!!”
August 1, 1996
I was playing with my toys in the playroom while Grace was doing dishes in the kitchen. The phone rang and she picked it up. She had a shocked look on her face as she listened to the person on the other side of the call and raced upstairs to pack her suitcase. I was wondering what was going on because I saw her crying as she ran to her room. I decided to lay low for a while so I didn’t make her any sadder than she already was!
20 min. later dad came inicial oblivious to what was going on. He saw that I was downstairs por myself and then Grace came to greet him carrying her suitcase. Dad looked at her as tears streamed down her face and asked “what’s wrong?” She dicho “my sister called and told me she was just diagnosed with lung cancer and asked if I could keep her company until my other sister was able to quit her job and stay with her full-time!” He hugged her and dicho “you take as much time as tu need and tell her I’ll keep her in my thoughts!” She asked “who will watch Alanna while you’re at work because I will probably be gone for a month?” He dicho “I will stay inicial with her… It will give me some time to spend with her before the new baby comes!” She hugged me and sobbed as she walked out the door.
I asked “where is she going daddy?” He picked me up and dicho “she will be back in a few weeks!” He kissed me and dicho “that’s okay, me and you’re going to have fun together because I’m not going to work until she gets back!” I dicho “daddy I want to take a bath!” Even though dad tries his best to be inicial from work in time to give me a bath and put me to bed, he had not been able to in three months because of his busy schedule!” He dicho “okay, we can do that!”
October 31, 1996,
I am so excited because I’m going to get to go trick-or-treating today for my first time! Dad came up with a plan so, we don’t have a repeat of last year! He brought a costume for himself to where when we go house to house because people won’t know that it’s him. He brought himself a Spiderman costume and I picked out a batman costume. Grace thought that it was a really good idea to have the two of us dressed up and she really thinks we’ll pull it off!”
After we had put our costumes on, we went out to find houses that were giving out candy. When we found a house with the porch lights on I noticed that there was just a bowl of dulces on their doorstep. At that point we had been looking for hours for a house that was celebrating halloween and dad was starting to get discouraged. He dicho “apparently these other rich and famous people like me are too good to celebrate Halloween!” Dad dicho “come on; I’m done with this, I have another idea!”
When we got back to the ranch Grace asked “what are tu doing back here?” I dicho “no one was giving out candy!” Dad quickly went to the pantry and pulled out a big bag of assorted candies and poured it in five separate bowls. He whispered in Grace’s ear and then carried me upstairs. He dicho “if we can’t go trick-or-treating, tu can at least pretend that we are! He dicho “knock on that door!” When I did Grace opened it and dicho “happy halloween!” I opened my bag and dicho “trick-or-treat!” She passed me some dulces and we went door to door in the house getting más until my bag was full!
This will definitely be a moment that I look back on when I am older. Dad always strives for me to have as normal life as I possibly can! He didn’t want me missing out on trick-or-treating for the segundo time in a row so, he came up with this within minutes. I was so excited and he couldn’t handle having to let me down again! Sure; this wasn’t what I had in mind but, it is probably as close as I’ll ever get to doing the real thing! This is just más proof that my father is the most amazing father in the world and is nothing like what the media mostrar him to be! I wish they would just leave him alone! Its one thing to say something nice about someone that tu can back up but, on the other hand their favorito! things to is say something completely false and all it does is eat away at my dad’s self-esteem!
September 7, 1996,
I woke up this morning to dad putting me in an SUV and Grace was sitting siguiente to me. Grace must have come back last night because I haven’t seen her since she left to keep her sister company a week ago. I also noticed that we were in a different country, which means I slept through the whole plane ride to Spain. Today’s dad’s first concierto for his history tour and it starts in an hour. He will be doing four shows a week and the rest of the time he will be spending with me!
We pulled up in front of a concierto arena and Grace followed dad inside with me in her arms. Dad ran as fast as he possibly could to go change into his first outfit for the show. I tried to follow him and Grace dicho “daddy is busy; we’re going to get to see him sing on that stage over there!” She picked me up and I dicho “WOW… That’s going to be so cool! Are people going to scream for him?” She dicho “yes, really loud!” I rested my head on her shoulder and dicho “I amor my daddy so much!” She dicho “I know tu do; he loves tu más though!” We playfully argued back and forth about who loved who más and then dad came out of his dressing room. He kissed me and dicho “okay; it’s time for me to do my thing!”
I sat backstage and watched the concert. Dad would occasionally come back there for a last-minute costume change and the entire time he would talk to me. Even though he’s on tour he knows that he needs to be there for me no matter what! He doesn’t want me to forget that he’s my father and that I can come to him with anything! As I watched him dance across the stage I absolutely loved when he was doing and thought it was so awesome!
When the mostrar was over he came backstage to get me and he was dripping with sweat. He picked me up and asked “did tu like the concert?” I dicho “daddy I want to do that when I grow up!” He dicho “you can do whatever tu want to, just as long as tu try your best and work hard!!!” I knew from that moment on that that was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life! Just seeing him on the stage and how magical his dance moves were mesmerized me! We went back to the hotel and I fell asleep in his arms!
December 1, 1996,
It was three o’clock in the morning and I walked into dad’s bedroom. I climbed on the cama and shook him until he woke up. He turned on his light that was siguiente to his cama and rubbed his eyes. He asked “what are tu doing awake this early?” I dicho “I had a bad dream again daddy… I am really scared!” He dicho “this is the 5th time in a row that tu have had a bad dream!” I put the blanket over me and dicho “it was about a monster chasing me this time!” Dad dicho “monsters aren’t real… tu have nothing to be afraid of sweetheart!”
I knew very well that monsters were not real; the real reason I wanted to be with him was because the new baby will be here soon and I’m worried that I’m going to miss out on doing stuff like this after he is born! I think dad is starting to catch on to my tricks and I don’t think he will let me sleep in his room anymore!
He hugged me and dicho “I need to go back to sleep because I have a concierto tomorrow so, go back to your bed, I amor tu but, you’re not scared and it’s time to go to sleep!” I looked at him shocked and climbed off the bed. As I walked back to my room (in the hotel we were staying at) I dicho “I just don’t want to give tu up!”
Afterwards I laid in my cama staring at the ceiling wondering if my dad was truly going to treat me the same as my baby brother! I don’t know what made me doubt that he wouldn’t but, here I was starting to grow up and learn new things. My brother would be the baby of the family and I would just be me! I know dad loves me but, what if the new baby would listen to him and stay out of trouble? Most times when I get in trouble I don’t think before I act and what if the new baby was everything he ever wanted in a child? I can’t change who I am, which most of the time was a troublemaker and ignored everything that was dicho to me!
December 19, 1996,
It was about an hora and a half after my dad’s concierto and we were just getting settled in at a new hotel. I am slowly getting used to life on the road and dad tries to make each bedroom that I have in the hotels comfortable for me. He takes posters that are normally in my bedroom at inicial and puts them in each hotel room. Something that I’ll never forget is the fact that he always puts a poster of himself in my bedroom, no matter where we are so I can always look at him; even if he’s not there in person!
I heard dad watching a movie in his bedroom and went in to see him. I looked at the TV screen captivated por what I was seeing. I asked “daddy; what are tu watching?” He dicho “this is estrella Wars, one of my favorito! movies!” I asked “what are those colorful things those people are fighting with?” He dicho “those are light-sabers!” I dicho “Lifesavers?” He laughed and dicho “no, light sabers!” I dicho “yeah; that’s what I said, Lifesavers!” He chuckled and dicho “okay, I guess they are Lifesavers!” I climbed on the edge of his cama and onto his lap. He smiled as I really became interested in what was happening in the movie.
I asked preguntas about tons of different things about the characters and he would quickly jump to answer them. I don’t know what it was about that estrella Wars movie that was so special but, I really felt like that was a good way for us to bond even after my brother is born!
December 21, 1996,
It’s getting closer and closer to the birth of my baby brother so, Debbie is coming over again today to help dad get prepared to be a father of two! Dad was busy getting ready for the día when she arrived and Grace let her inside our hotel room. Grace then when to her room so, she could fold our laundry. I was playing in my room and watching a disney movie.
Debbie came in my room and sat down on my small twin sized bed. She asked “how are you, I can’t believe you’re almost 3 years old now… I remember when tu were just a little baby!” I ignored her and searched through a pile of toys for my pacifier. She looked at me shocked as I casually put it in my mouth. She dicho “wow; I’m surprised your daddy still lets tu have a pacifier!” I heard dad walking down the hallway and ran to him.
He scooped me up and dicho “hi Debbie!” He walked over to the sofá and sat down siguiente to her. Grace came over to the three of us and passed me a bottle of chocolate milk. Debbie looked at dad and asked “don’t tu think Alanna is getting too old to be using pacifiers and baby bottles?” He ran his fingers through my hair and dicho “I’ll deal with that when it comes, for now she can stay my baby girl for a few weeks!” She dicho “I just figured since she is almost 3 years old tu would have got rid of those things a while ago!” Dad dicho while beginning to get irritated “I really don’t appreciate tu giving me parenting advice; when tu are not with her every single día and tu are not theoretically her mommy!” She dicho “okay; I don’t want this to turn into a fight so, I’ll keep my thoughts to myself!” Dad dicho “thank you!”
Debbie put a gift bag filled with baby clothes on the coffee-table and started to take them out. Dad asked “what’s all this for; tu don’t have to buy anything!” She dicho “well, I thought because he is going to be your first son; I would get tu some boys clothing.” I dicho “wow, new clothes for my baby brother!” Debbie asked “are tu sure tu want to name him Prince?” Dad dicho “yeah, because it was my grandfather’s name and because I think it’s adorable!” Debbie asked “Alanna, are tu excited to be a big sister?” I dicho “yeah, he’s going to cry a lot!” She laughed and dicho “I’m sure he is!”
After she had left, dad sat down on the sofá with me his lap and dicho “only a little bit longer to go and your little brother will be coming!” To me dad looked happy but; I think he’s a little bit nervous because he didn’t expect to have another baby while he is still on tour! I don’t know how he’s going to balance going to concerts and being a father of two but… I know he will figure it out!
Michael Jackson: Joe Jackson blames his wife for the death of the singer
He asked him to hospitalize him
Michael Jackson cannot rest in peace. The parents of the singer, Joe and Katherine Jackson are faced por the death of his son. According to Joe Jackson his wife is the culprit of the death of the ' King of the Pop '.
The father of Michael Jackson revealed to a British diary that asked for several times his wife who was hospitalizing his son in a clinic of rehabilitation in order that it overcomes his addictions. ' If tu had listened to me, Michael would be alive ', dicho Joe Jackson to the mother of the singer.
The portal TMZ informed that the attorneys of Katherine Jackson answered to the accusations and indicated that the whole world wise that she always was a good mother and grandmother.
He asked him to hospitalize him
Michael Jackson cannot rest in peace. The parents of the singer, Joe and Katherine Jackson are faced por the death of his son. According to Joe Jackson his wife is the culprit of the death of the ' King of the Pop '.
The father of Michael Jackson revealed to a British diary that asked for several times his wife who was hospitalizing his son in a clinic of rehabilitation in order that it overcomes his addictions. ' If tu had listened to me, Michael would be alive ', dicho Joe Jackson to the mother of the singer.
The portal TMZ informed that the attorneys of Katherine Jackson answered to the accusations and indicated that the whole world wise that she always was a good mother and grandmother.
Randy has been on Twitter attack, calling the auction at Planet Hollywood in Vegas "distasteful."
Darren Julien from Julien's Auctions claims it's pure coincidence the auction falls on June 25 -- "We have the same summer auction [of pop estrella memorabilia] at the same time every year."
Julien says the auction fecha can't be moved. So there.
Sources tell TMZ Janet Jackson was so "blown away" por the positive reaction to her appearance on the "American Idol" finale that she's "seriously entertaining" a concierto tour ... that could begin before the end of the year.
Janet was amazing on Wednesday's "Idol" -- performing "Again," "Nothing," and "Nasty." We're told as of today a concierto tour is now on the front burner.
Miss Jackson -- who has only toured once since 2002 (and a bulk of that tour was canceled) agreed yesterday to appear at the Essence música Festival in New Orleans on July 2.
Janet was amazing on Wednesday's "Idol" -- performing "Again," "Nothing," and "Nasty." We're told as of today a concierto tour is now on the front burner.
Miss Jackson -- who has only toured once since 2002 (and a bulk of that tour was canceled) agreed yesterday to appear at the Essence música Festival in New Orleans on July 2.
Murray with a fan
Dr. Conrad Murray has fans ... with whipped cream on top.
Murray -- who's due in court siguiente mes in the Michael Jackson manslaughter case -- was corralled por a fan Wednesday at a Houston Starbucks.
She gave us the pic but asked us to blur her face.
It's all about taking precautions.
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Originally publicado May 13th 2010 5:30 PM PDT por TMZ Staff
Lisa Marie Presley's desperate plea for fans to bring más flores to Michael Jackson's tomb must have fallen on deaf ears -- because as of today the entrance to the tomb was pretty bare.
Michael Jackson's ex-wife complained about too much "empty space" around the singer's tomb on her MySpace page yesterday -- and urged fans to fill the void with lots of sunflowers ... but obviously that didn't happen.
fans have since fired back, claiming they've been faithfully doing their part flowers-wise since MJ died last year.
Read more: link
Lisa Marie Presley's desperate plea for fans to bring más flores to Michael Jackson's tomb must have fallen on deaf ears -- because as of today the entrance to the tomb was pretty bare.
Michael Jackson's ex-wife complained about too much "empty space" around the singer's tomb on her MySpace page yesterday -- and urged fans to fill the void with lots of sunflowers ... but obviously that didn't happen.
fans have since fired back, claiming they've been faithfully doing their part flowers-wise since MJ died last year.
Read more: link
(Originally publicado May 6th 2010 12:23 AM PDT por TMZ Staff)
Dr. Arnold Klein's office manager -- who claims he was Michael Jackson's lover -- is facing such intense death threats that he's moving from place to place ... hiding out from angry MJ fans.
A fuente close to Dr. Klein and Jason Pfeiffer tells TMZ incensed Jackson fans have walked right up to Pfeiffer's inicial and knocked on his door -- and they've also tracked him down at his friends' houses.
Since Jason went public last week with allegations of an affair with Michael, we're told violent and homophobic threats have poured into Dr. Klein's office por phone, fax, and email. According to the fuente one voicemail said, "I'm gonna put a bullet in your heads."
Klein and Pfeiffer have hired bodyguards, and reported the threats to the FBI. We're told Pfeiffer is currently at a private location with friends.
Read more: link
Dr. Arnold Klein's office manager -- who claims he was Michael Jackson's lover -- is facing such intense death threats that he's moving from place to place ... hiding out from angry MJ fans.
A fuente close to Dr. Klein and Jason Pfeiffer tells TMZ incensed Jackson fans have walked right up to Pfeiffer's inicial and knocked on his door -- and they've also tracked him down at his friends' houses.
Since Jason went public last week with allegations of an affair with Michael, we're told violent and homophobic threats have poured into Dr. Klein's office por phone, fax, and email. According to the fuente one voicemail said, "I'm gonna put a bullet in your heads."
Klein and Pfeiffer have hired bodyguards, and reported the threats to the FBI. We're told Pfeiffer is currently at a private location with friends.
Read more: link
Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon
Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
The loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon
Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of a moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon
!THESE LYRICS ARE COMPLETELY CORRECT!
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon
Like a rainbow
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon
Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one day
Gone one night
The loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon
Like a castle
Built upon a sandy beach
Gone too soon
Like a perfect flower
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon
Born to amuse, to inspire, to delight
Here one day
Gone one night
Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of a moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon
!THESE LYRICS ARE COMPLETELY CORRECT!
The Michael Jackson estate just laid the tortazo down on a bunch of Michael Jackson wannabes -- all over access to Neverland.
The wannabes are actually in a Michael Jackson tribute band named "Neverland" -- a name the MJ estate feels is a violation of its trademark.
Long story short -- the MJ estate wrote a scary legal letter demanding the band change its name ... and it did ... to Foreverland.
Here's the catch -- "Foreverland" still owns the rights to the domain name neverlandsf.com -- and its willing to give it back to Camp Jackson ... for a cool $30,000.
In short, the Jackson estate told the band to "beat it" -- and gave them until February 2011 to begin forwarding all web traffic to the new foreverlandsf.com ... o else.
The band tells us they're currently going over their options.
"Lawyers from the Jackson estate have forced us to change our name."
The wannabes are actually in a Michael Jackson tribute band named "Neverland" -- a name the MJ estate feels is a violation of its trademark.
Long story short -- the MJ estate wrote a scary legal letter demanding the band change its name ... and it did ... to Foreverland.
Here's the catch -- "Foreverland" still owns the rights to the domain name neverlandsf.com -- and its willing to give it back to Camp Jackson ... for a cool $30,000.
In short, the Jackson estate told the band to "beat it" -- and gave them until February 2011 to begin forwarding all web traffic to the new foreverlandsf.com ... o else.
The band tells us they're currently going over their options.
"Lawyers from the Jackson estate have forced us to change our name."
