You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, tu start school today. None of your friends know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that tu are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall dicho he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. tu still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know tu don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, tu stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. tu nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes tu wanna cry. tu sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” tu explain hoping she would mostrar some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make tu feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make tu feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him o her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” tu ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but más like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school tu don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, tu think that she got the idea that tu were annoyed with her. tu walk in the room and the first person tu see is you’re best friend, Annie, who tu haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. tu walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging tu immediately, tu hug her back.
“Hey! How have tu been,” tu ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making tu wanna cry….
“What are tu doing back here? I thought tu were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to mover back here,” tu say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” tu say summing up the best tu can so tu don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once tu got back to South Dakota so they put tu him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense tu moved and tu haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to tu o something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. tu nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend o something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” tu say sadly.
“Aww, did tu really like him?” she asks, tu nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. tu smile and nod, tu pull out a picture of tu and him, hes hugging tu from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a árbol por your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” tu say looking at the picture, tu flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. tu put the foto back into your folder and sit down siguiente to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mes you’ve been thinking about Lily and tu have also tried escritura some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, tu cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first año of ninth grade. tu miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all tu have is pictures, tu keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And tu tell yourself everyday that someday tu are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your friends keeping asking tu why you’re back. tu kept telling them that tu would let them know during lunch time so tu wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch mesa, tabla with one of your friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, tu sit down siguiente to Mary and Chelsea. “So are tu gonna tell us why tu moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minutos of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like tu guys are disappointed that I came back,” tu say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. tu sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” tu say. They all stare at tu like your kidding. “Im serious!” tu sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking por stops and stares at tu guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. tu sigh.
“Nice one,” tu say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and tu giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” tu yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” tu yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do tu like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. tu laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. tu shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” tu say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” tu say.
“Hey, Annie told me tu had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she dicho tu showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. tu stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at tu seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. tu reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, tu pull out the picture tu showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” tu scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of tu and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” tu say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. tu glare at her. “Not that I would wanna fecha him o anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to tu after about a second.
After school tu walk inicial with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. tu stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” tu ask.
“Well did tu see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” tu say.
“Do tu like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” tu say. “ I really liked Marshall,” tu say. tu place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do tu have something tu have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” tu say más as a pregunta rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, tu have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do tu can hate me forever and tu don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, tu know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that tu have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. tu stop on the side walk por a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if tu should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby o not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. tu nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes tu wanna cry. tu sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” tu explain hoping she would mostrar some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make tu feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make tu feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him o her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” tu ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but más like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school tu don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, tu think that she got the idea that tu were annoyed with her. tu walk in the room and the first person tu see is you’re best friend, Annie, who tu haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. tu walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging tu immediately, tu hug her back.
“Hey! How have tu been,” tu ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making tu wanna cry….
“What are tu doing back here? I thought tu were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to mover back here,” tu say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” tu say summing up the best tu can so tu don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once tu got back to South Dakota so they put tu him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense tu moved and tu haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to tu o something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. tu nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend o something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” tu say sadly.
“Aww, did tu really like him?” she asks, tu nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. tu smile and nod, tu pull out a picture of tu and him, hes hugging tu from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a árbol por your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” tu say looking at the picture, tu flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. tu put the foto back into your folder and sit down siguiente to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mes you’ve been thinking about Lily and tu have also tried escritura some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, tu cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first año of ninth grade. tu miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all tu have is pictures, tu keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And tu tell yourself everyday that someday tu are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your friends keeping asking tu why you’re back. tu kept telling them that tu would let them know during lunch time so tu wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch mesa, tabla with one of your friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, tu sit down siguiente to Mary and Chelsea. “So are tu gonna tell us why tu moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minutos of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like tu guys are disappointed that I came back,” tu say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. tu sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” tu say. They all stare at tu like your kidding. “Im serious!” tu sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking por stops and stares at tu guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. tu sigh.
“Nice one,” tu say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and tu giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” tu yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” tu yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do tu like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. tu laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. tu shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” tu say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” tu say.
“Hey, Annie told me tu had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she dicho tu showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. tu stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at tu seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. tu reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, tu pull out the picture tu showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” tu scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of tu and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” tu say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. tu glare at her. “Not that I would wanna fecha him o anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to tu after about a second.
After school tu walk inicial with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. tu stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” tu ask.
“Well did tu see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” tu say.
“Do tu like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” tu say. “ I really liked Marshall,” tu say. tu place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do tu have something tu have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” tu say más as a pregunta rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, tu have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do tu can hate me forever and tu don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, tu know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that tu have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. tu stop on the side walk por a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if tu should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby o not tell her…