Ok so on a deeper level... (if that’s ok) What are tu really afraid of?

Change & responsibility. I have a lot of trouble coping with adulthood because I'm such a child at heart.

Well, I am truly terrified of ghosts, but I don't think that is exactly what you're asking.
I am scared, más specifically anxious and uncomfortable, with confrontation. If someone is mad at me o I need confront someone I avoid them like the plague.

Either my own strength o Abandonment

I'm terrified of intimacy and attachment with people. Those two are probably the most. I still freak out a bit offline (Im fine online with it) when someone gets close to me to the point I actually get even slightly attached.

Its a work in progress though. I'm getting better at it I think.

I am afraid of public speaking and speaking on the phone. I can't speak on the phone especially if I don't know the person o they aren't family. I get very nervous and I start to shake. Same thing with public speaking, very nervous and I feel like I would pass out. I've never been good with public speaking. I hated giving oral presentations in High School and would always freak out when it was my turn.

Dancing and canto in public (when people are actively watching me) And the fear of losing loved ones are primarily my biggest fears.

I've never really known how to describe what exactly I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of things like the ocean, outer space, the ranch at night, the future, and the sort of abyssal nature of these things.

I hate feeling stared down por something I can't even look at fully

I still have nightmares from this song:

We had a theme regarding this on the icono Contest and I had listed on there that I have a fear that when I need to speak up and it truly matters, I wouldnt be able to.

Ill go ahead and push that one level deeper and say that I’ve been pretty much pavlovian style conditioned to assume that if I do speak up and it goes against the grain, I will lose something important. Relationships. Privileges(when I was younger), trust, anything. So at this point I dont argue and its very rare to see it because its easier to give in and let the other party have their way rather than face the consequences of having my own view

*an image of something anime but cant be uploaded cuz at work rn*

There is a small bunch of things I could say I am afraid of. Some of them have been already mentioned por others. Fearing my own power, losing those that I care about, not being able to express myself properly at a crucial point o support others the way I should, etc.

One that I could particularly go about is the uncertainty over the Bonds I build over the years and how in touch with reality I really am. It is something that was affecting me in the Past for the most part and some of its after-effects are still lingering around. It concerns ''Human Relations''. Do I really know how they are really supposed to feel like? Can I actually reach out to others and have a mutual understanding with them? Do people really feel relating to me? Are people only nice to me just for the sake of making it seem like that? Would others really notice if I was gone? Perhaps, I will come out as boring o end up being betrayed again if I let my guard down. These thoughts and más similar ones come often to mind. In the end, I suppose it is the fear of being completely alone and that being something that will never change. The Past will just be repeating itself. Getting my hopes up just to end up getting Betrayed in the end again. That it is impossible to be understood o belong anywhere regardless of how many I find to be around me. While I know that this does not hold true in many cases, these kind of worries are still rooted inside me because of all the negativity I have already experienced. That is the gist of it, pretty much. I guess, it feels like Paranoia / having a Complex about it. I'm working on it just like with other issues of mine and try not to let my stress o depression take over me. Just like with everything else, it needs some time. A bit of readjustment. This is something that I don't usually talk about but at the same time, I do not see a reason why not to. After all, all this, is something that I had ended up speaking about again a while hace on this Club so I suppose, it is no shocker for those that have come to know me better and got close to me. Improvement is a vital part of our Lives. A constant strife. Only por confronting and coming to terms with your Past tu can go beyond it. I truly believe that !!!!

Change. Still coping with that.

- Talking to anyone on the phone that isn't a friend/family member
- Talking to a customer and have them mentally reject future visits to my place of work o giving it a bad review because of my awkwardness
- The idea of a paranormal creature being in my house
- Being assigned a front desk/phone shift at work someday
- Disappointing people por not being as far/successful in life as they expected me to be
- Confronting a stranger/customer/my boss/etc. when I know they're wrong
- Getting in trouble for deliberately not confronting someone doing something against the rules/policy because I was too shy
- Having someone I don't know that well be angry with me because they didn't understand I was being sarcastic
- The knowledge that those I'm close to who are significantly older than me (ex. my parents) will most likely die long before me and I'll have to live without them

1. Losing my loved ones
2. Tornadoes.

falling asleep




and then waking up again