That I get guilty really easily. I always remember any fights o screw ups that I've ever had. Seriously, I remember one fight that I had with my best friend in first grade about how much money we had. .______. Anyways, I always blame myself for the little fights I remember and I'm guilty about each and every one to this day.
I hate that I'm so obsessive, and I hate that I'm so uptight and morbidly high strung. I hate that I can't relax, and I hate that I'm always having a neurotic fit about something. I lose my temper easily, and so many things irritate me. I hate my habit of lying and stretching the truth, and I hate that I'm only good for hurting people. I hate that I'm such a perfectionist and set myself up for disappointment, and I hate that I set too high of a standard and expect too much out of people. I hate that I take too many things too seriously, and I hate that I procrastinate on almost everything. I hate that I am so sensitive, so high strung, that the smallest things will send me in to a fit of depression. I hate that I can't let things go and that I can't tolerate my mistakes. I hate that I'm so negative about everything. Most of all, I hate that I can't change any of that.
In other words, I hardly like anything about myself.
For me, I get embarrassed easily, I get jealous VERY,VERY easily, I'm really shy and I have low self-esteem U_U I also tend to be obsessive and independent in a bad way. I don't listen and I have a hard time paying attention/caring. I really don't mostrar much emotion, I act too differently around different people.
1. I'm shy and insecure about myself. 2. I'm impatient and have a short temper 3. I'm incredibly quiet and anti-social 4. I can't pay attention to things for so long. 5. The fact that I'm a shipper. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have to experience the pain of having my ships shot down. 6. I'm too negative about myself.
If I get offended o want to hear más about someone's opinion that I don't like, I get really in their face about it, even if I'm just trying to figure out their entire point of view on things to know why their opinion is their opinion (I amor psychology). Unfortunately, I often go overboard and start to get really defensive. *sighs*
I say stuff that people think is harsh and I don't know it. I'm....I guess tu could say ignorant and oblivious sometimes and I offend people when I don't really mean to. I say something and they cuss me out and I'm left confused. And then I beat myself up over it because I have a really sensitive conscience and I think everything is my fault and I feel horrible and I can't get over it for years. People get offended por my comentarios but not I their's. I hate that I don't stop and think what another person might think about my words. It's happened a lot and I've lost friends because of it……but honestly, I don't mean to:( And it happened today and now I hate myself. Yep. That's me………
There's a lot but some are things I like but don't like hopefully tu get what I mean:
1)That I'm super naive (talk to me sometime you'll see) 2)people walk all over me and I don't know why I don't stop them 3)i can't say a lot of words without slurring sometimes(i don't have a speech problem i just get nervous) 4)I'm always scared!!!Always... 5)I have a problem saying "I amor you" because the día i say it to someone i'm dating o like I want to make sure i don't lie to myself about feeling that way 6)I push guys away 7)I'm a control freak yet I'm not one 8)I'm not hyper often but when I am its super bad and I know its super bad but I can't stop 9)I don't have a bestfriend/close friends I have people I hang out with but I feel like an extra wheel hanging with them 10)I amor dancing like the way it looks. I think dancing is tight yet I don't know how to dance at all and when I do know I probably won't want to dance 11)that when people hug me I get hurt...Not that anyone hugs me mean o anything but anyone hugging me hurts because I have a chronic pain 12)In class like every thirty segundos I have a pregunta some being serious but stupid and some being intelligent 13)People insult me and I'll act like they didn't o pretnend I didn't understand 14)I amor sports but can't play any because of my chronic pain 15)People I like flirt with me and I don't realize it (by the time I realize it they no longer like me)
I am me though and I wouldn't change it for anything!!!
When I Do Something like escritura A Story o poesía , I Just Want To be Interactive With people ,I Expect Higher Reaction from them, Like Saying Wow, great ,But In honesty .But I'm Amateur ,I Shouldn't Care About ,Cause I Do something I love. It Shouldn't matter is There Any FeedBack o not.
1. I hate that I have a chronic fear of humiliation. 2. I hate that I care too much about what others think of me. 3. I hate that I'm uncoordinated (especially when I'm nervous). 4. I hate that it takes me so long to find the right words to say (I always have to thoroughly plan out what I'm going to say; which is why whenever I'm put on the spot I either say something stupid o simply studder). 5. I hate that I'm a procrastinator. 6. I hate that I latch onto the past too much. 7. I hate that I'm a bad liar (I always find myself smiling when I tell a lie). 8. I hate that I'm overly sensitive (I over-think a lot of minor criticisms).