Have tu ever thought about killing yourself because tu were being bullied?

Yes I have even tried I slit my wrist and I was being bullied por my father

yes i have! ive thought of blowing the back off my head out with a .44 botella doble, magnum (i think thats wat it was) cuz of being bullied!

i felt like i wanted to torture the ones who were bullying me.

I really do appreciate this website, and tu know I thank god that there are people here to help me but tu know, there's that 78% chance that I am just going to lose it one day.i cant stand the sinful, meaningless person I am. I hate how I look I hate who I am I hate my bullies but I hate myself most of all. I am the meanest most heartless person I know, and the people around don't need this kind of bs. i'm debating whether o not I should leave it all right now, o stay and try to work it out. but tu know I'm trying. I haven't killed myself and I haven't left yet. I am just waiting for that someone to mostrar me MY meaning in life, but that person just hasn't come yet. and here I am waiting, waiting for someone to say I WANT tu to stay. could anyone please just at least say something nice? please?... anyone? I could really use some help.