Those words pierced me like thorns on a rose.
"Aww, tu remembered." I saw the nervous grin turn to relief. He earned a kiss.
"Of, course I remembered." I still wanted to make him sweat though. I couldn't resist.
"What happened to the whole " I don't remember things easily."?" I tried to impersonate his some-what deep voice that made me melt every time I heard it. But, to my disappointment he didn't seem moved por what I said. It was as if he knew I was gonna say that and he prepared a line for it.
"I remember all the important things Jaz.You are important to me." He gave me a warm smile but I knew por his eyes that he had been just waiting to burn me with that line. It was a good line I gotta admit, I just wish i would have came up with it first.
He knew I had nothing to parte superior, arriba that so I just looked up at his breath taking face and smiled. Matthew knew he had won but he wasn't about to rub it in my face. At least I hoped he wouldn't.
He gave me a quick kiss on my forehead and then took my hand and walked me out the door. He opened the car door for me and waited til i got in and insisted that he close the door. I was being kind of a kiss-up today. I know it is our one-month anniversary and he wants to make it special and all but...I really don't care for all of this.
Matthew was taking me ice skating today with Alley, Henex(I know call name right), And Bradly. I couldn't think of a better day. My three best friends and my wonderful boyfriend all on ice. Haha.
When he got to the rink poor Henex looked like a Popsicle. He was shortest one out of all of us and I didn
t know whether to laugh my butt off at how ridiculous he looked o just ...well there was no other option now was there? Ha. Poor, poor Henex.
Bradly on the other hand was tall but maybe a few inches short than Matt and I. He was indeed pretty toned. Maybe a six pack. I tectonically didn't know because I had never seen Bradly without a shirt(and I want to keep it that way), I only heard his countless brags about them. Matt told me they weren't as great as he says they are but then again he just might be kinda jealous. So I don't know but judging from the rest muscles on his body I didn't doubt he had a few more.
Alley was your average really, really skinny girl but with a fat girl appetite. Unfortunately, she could pretty much eat whatever she wanted and it wouldn't really affect her. For Alley she was quite if she didn't know tu but the loudest in the group if tu did know her. The five of us together were known to get into some trouble. Nothing law biding but definitely some classic mall pranks that Avril Lavigne would be satisfied with.
"G-g-g-g-guyssss. Im freezing. Can we just patinar, skate and get this over with?" So maybe Henex was a little tense, aww, but he'll be alright. Nothing could ruin this day; nothing.
We skated a good two hours' taking as many pictures as we could. I fell a few times but Matt was always there to help me back up, but when Matthew fell, umm...it was a little harder to pick him up. He definitely isn't fat o anything. But he has muscle so that is obviously harder to pick up than my chunkie-ness. We settled at the comida court after, Henex finally warming up with some hot chocolate. I was pretty happy about hpw the día was going so far. I couldn't get any better. Unfortunately......it really couldn't get any better than the past three and half hours.
The five of us were still sitting at he comida court table. I was leaning in to kiss Matthew when an unexpected person comes in the picture. A person who aren't always delighted to see at a time like this....your ex.!
"Jazzy,Jazzy,Jazzy." Oh crap was all that was going through my head.
"Hey Joey." My voice kept out a little más cheerful than I had anticipated and Matthew did not like that!
"What? No hug?" Joey was doing it on purpose to piss Matt off. I slowly got up and gave Joey and little hug. I didn't want to be rude. But I couldn't look at the Matt after that. I didn't have the right to.
"You look good Jaz. Maybe I'll see tu around." Joey winked at me! He actually did that in front of Matt like that! Joey walked away like nothing had happened and nobody dicho anything after he left. I could not even look towards Matt's direction.
I had to break the silence though, I didn't know he was mad at me o Joey. I finally looked at him. He did not look at me. he just had his head down staring the clean table. I grabbed for his hand he quickly moved it.
"Leave me alone Jaz." Those words pierced me like thorns on a rose. I knew this día could not end well.
Me and Those
Ever noticed that in this life
Everyone wants tu to do something,
o be something
That sometimes tu don’t want to be?
They are those!
tu know them!
tu probably have those in your house.
They are those who expect tu to take a path,
Even though,
Sometimes,
tu don’t want to take.
They are those who expect tu to be great,
Even though,
Sometimes,
tu prefer to be small and humble.
But do tu think,
For the slightest second,
That they care about that?
They don’t!
They are your parents,
Your grandparents,
Your Uncles and aunts,
That since tu were born,
Came up with a path for tu in life.
But know this,
And say it to yourself:
They are those, they matter,
But me is I,
And I’m the main character.
Artwork by me
Sitting right where tu are
tu have no claim on me
I know my own path
I am my own guide
tu are nothing to me
No matter how tu try
What do tu care?
If I'm not doing it right
I'm not following you
I know my own path
I am my own guide
tu don't know me
No matter how tu try
Why are tu here?
tu know I don't want you
I told tu to leave me
I am my own path
I know my own guide
tu can't mold me
No matter how tu try
Why do I feel compelled to write angsty poetry? I swear I'm not even that angsty. lol Oh well, I hope someone out there enjoys it.
A whisper in the cavern that goes unheard,
and a glimmer in the sky that stays unnoticed,
like the start of a brand new life, at the peak
of a mountain never scaled, lies in wait.
It can't be moved por any cosmic mover,
so no passing wind o fog will douse it.
Only your eyes can scratch out the image
o accept it, the light at the edge of your eyes.
Will tu take hold of the key you're offered?
Stop canto of freedom; seek it instead?
To become a companion of the new
takes an ever expanding, soaring gaze.
But even por taking one step forward,
por placing one hand onto the mountain,
as the wind tugs gently at your back,
tu will realize the cage has already been broken.
and a glimmer in the sky that stays unnoticed,
like the start of a brand new life, at the peak
of a mountain never scaled, lies in wait.
It can't be moved por any cosmic mover,
so no passing wind o fog will douse it.
Only your eyes can scratch out the image
o accept it, the light at the edge of your eyes.
Will tu take hold of the key you're offered?
Stop canto of freedom; seek it instead?
To become a companion of the new
takes an ever expanding, soaring gaze.
But even por taking one step forward,
por placing one hand onto the mountain,
as the wind tugs gently at your back,
tu will realize the cage has already been broken.
Liyah (me)
