CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minutos and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the segundo most powerful vampiros in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving o breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are tu thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I dicho again with más convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known tu for almost for 8 years. Don’t tu dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are tu sure tu want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. tu asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed tu and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampiros in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. tu guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampiros one por one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minuto rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in cama and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t tu dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t tu dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I dicho was right.” I screamed. “Don’t tu DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just por the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know tu don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, tu have not failed. tu have won. tu have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, tu belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed tu have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make tu a crazy monster. It makes tu the wife that I amor and makes tu the amazing mother tu are. It makes tu the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if tu had to take down Aro and tu won. Though let us help tu when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, tu are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that tu are not alone. That tu have a whole big family downstairs and tu have Neisse and I. I will always be por your side. If tu let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble tu are in. tu got to help. Even though what tu did out there was killer. It was amazing. tu got to teach me how to do some of that crap tu did.” I laughed and dicho maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from tu missy. I understand tu are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn tu were when tu pushed us all away. Though just because tu as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy oso, oso de that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the amor had for my favorito! brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about tu come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I amor tu baby girl” I dicho and hugged her again. Edward sat down siguiente to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minutos later
Everyone filled into the room taking any asiento available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is amor and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minutos and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the segundo most powerful vampiros in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving o breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are tu thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I dicho again with más convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known tu for almost for 8 years. Don’t tu dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are tu sure tu want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. tu asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed tu and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampiros in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. tu guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampiros one por one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minuto rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in cama and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t tu dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t tu dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I dicho was right.” I screamed. “Don’t tu DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just por the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know tu don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, tu have not failed. tu have won. tu have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, tu belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed tu have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make tu a crazy monster. It makes tu the wife that I amor and makes tu the amazing mother tu are. It makes tu the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if tu had to take down Aro and tu won. Though let us help tu when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, tu are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that tu are not alone. That tu have a whole big family downstairs and tu have Neisse and I. I will always be por your side. If tu let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble tu are in. tu got to help. Even though what tu did out there was killer. It was amazing. tu got to teach me how to do some of that crap tu did.” I laughed and dicho maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from tu missy. I understand tu are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn tu were when tu pushed us all away. Though just because tu as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy oso, oso de that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the amor had for my favorito! brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about tu come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I amor tu baby girl” I dicho and hugged her again. Edward sat down siguiente to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minutos later
Everyone filled into the room taking any asiento available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is amor and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
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I'm Bella cisne and I'm 17. Í'm also the daughter of the Chief of Police of Forks, Charlie Swan, and Renee Dwyer, who died because of corazón Disease.
And yes, I'm a girl, obviously.
But I'm transferring as a boy in Forks High.
Why, tu ask? Because a girl isn't suppose to play baloncesto and I amor baloncesto so very very very much. Even sacrificing my own gender just to get in the team. Well, I got in but the team hates me and of my good looks....at least they say I'm a hot looking boy and beats the crap out of me.
But accidentally fell in amor with the wrong person...he's a jerk. a worm. an alien. a cockroach, a pig...
An ángel sent from above.
And yes, I'm a girl, obviously.
But I'm transferring as a boy in Forks High.
Why, tu ask? Because a girl isn't suppose to play baloncesto and I amor baloncesto so very very very much. Even sacrificing my own gender just to get in the team. Well, I got in but the team hates me and of my good looks....at least they say I'm a hot looking boy and beats the crap out of me.
But accidentally fell in amor with the wrong person...he's a jerk. a worm. an alien. a cockroach, a pig...
An ángel sent from above.