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Riku114 dicho …
I'm alright and all XD But honestly, I'm so bad at asking for help I dont really promise people I will anymore.

Sister: "Call me if tu ever need help."

Me: "Honestly probably wont."

Sister: "I mean if someones following tu o something."

Me: "I mean I guess I can say Ill probably promise that if Im in big danger I can."

I'm just not used to o really comfortable when I need help actually telling people I need it and actually receiving it. Its not like I dont think I can publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its just that when I think I should my mouth freezes up, my brain starts telling me all the reasons I shouldnt, and just a bit of personal pride and stuff. Thats kinda why its a huge thing when I go "Hey I need tu help / advice" o "Hey can I be honest about how I feel about this" (<-usually something negative) hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cos most of the time when I get to that point, it means I put active effort into both getting help and active effort into getting past my natural discomfort and inability to mention it in order to share which is actually a lot of trust XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its not an offense for me not to since sometimes I just dont feel like getting help and that isnt odd since I like to handle my stuff on my own fairly often, but still XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*curls up in corner*

Davis dorms wont let me bring my knives

*depression* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
por the way I dont think nube is gonna live too much longer. I think his age combined with his disability and stuff is getting to him. Hes notably weaker lately publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Sorry to know about that. I have been through it. In the end, it is simply innevitable. Pretty sure he lead a contented Life so far. I believe this counts a lot when taken into consideration !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Yeah XD I got him knowing his life span would be shorter than the others and that he was probably not the healthiest due to birth defects. It was pretty much the reason I chose him in fact. Cos the people selling him was tyring ot hind him under a mesa, tabla and I knew it would be hard to find an owner that would take good care of him o ones that could take care of him better than me so I took him to make sure that despite his health condition, I could keep him happy and alive as long as he could hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
So if he dies, itll be sad, but Ill be glad I gave him a good life and a better one than he probably would have gotten otherwise. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Am I too flamboyant at times?

*throws glitter in the air* publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That's a given. I do not believe anyone in here would say otherwise !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Nothing helps más than waking up to having your parents having a really loud stupid argument right in the morning than looking through an old favorito! JRock band again that tu some how forgot about for a while.

#LetsGoT.M.Revolution publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Fuck I wanted to write and ended up watching Sengoku Basara Game scenes and listening to their OPs again. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
For the record, I did start escritura hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
It honestly kind of shocks me and scares me at the same time.

Am I going to have an actual friend irl that is close to me?

Of course I have my boyfriend, but theres a difference between that and a friend. Like for a boyfriend, it becomes much like a partner o family member

Like... an actual friend... Its been so long since I've had an actual close friend irl, I dont really remember what it is like publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So looking into who was the lead writer for the Hollywood Undead songs, most of my favoritos were made por Johnny Three Tears followed por Danny prolly.

Makes sense that most of the ones that I love, have a lot of amazing verses, that also were done por J3T XD

Seriously tho, J3T's choice in lyrics are amazing. Hes a Milton fan too apparently. I might add John Milton's Paradise lost to things to do soon prolly. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I've had that book on the parte superior, arriba of my lista of things to read for a while. I jsut kinda got scared of actually trying to read cos when I fail o cant focus o struggle to it has a chance of making me panic over my mental health progress o my future XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Who here thinks an articulo where Riku and I try to guess each others tentative parte superior, arriba 10 Video Game OSTs would be cool?

Warning tho. She has no time. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Video Game OSTs huh? As someone who loves that particular aspect, I would certainly find it pretty cool. artículos like these are always welcome !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
:sad:

Ronnie, A Game Theorist, killed himself and from what MatPat says, he was in a really similar situation to me so I feel the pain since his battle parallels a little too closely to that of which I do. Personality, problems with personality, and role with friends and all...

Anyone, if tu ever feel like tu need to talk to someone, send me a message. I dont care if Im unrelated o anything into the topic. Ill hear tu out and support tu <3 publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Always remember that the same applies for tu too, Riku. We're here for tu !!!! hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Once again, my deepest condolences for Ronnie !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu ever get anxiety over a good thing? Like... all the physical symptoms of anxiety but like... in no where on bad reasons?

Like chest tightening and stuff... Is that just excitement then? Uncomfortable excitement?

Google, what is understanding emotions? XD publicado hace más de un año
Rihanna312 comentó…
Since I have SVD in light form, it sometimes turns good moments into really unpleasant and sometimes even frightening. But it happens rarely and out of my control. But still sucks a lot. Especially when it gets hard to breathe. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I have. Quite a few times really. Mostly because of my worrying that I will mess things up somehow and turn a good thing into the exact opposite. The kind of feeling tu get when tu try something for the first time. It usually subsides when I have already gotten into it !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Shit. Ninja caught Ligma... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Really, everyone - especially those who are new - just want someone to amor and accept them. If tu also can provide the confidence and skill to mostrar yourself capable of guiding, you'll quickly find there are people willing to follow and heed what tu have to say.

If anything, that is what leadership is. Accepting and guiding. It actually has little to do directly with responsibility o giving out orders o anything. They just tend to come with maintaining those two. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also at this point, I dunno who I relate to in Pandora Hearts anymore.

They are all relatable in different ways.

With that being said, I think Xerxes and Vincent are my favoritos XD publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That very fact makes tu quite Relatable yourself XD I understand that !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: *watching "Best of Johnny Three Tears Verses"*

Me: Like... all of them? Why not just say "all of Best of J3T" cos his verses are god???"

Honestly I amor J3T too much

...

I also may have been geeking out on Hollywood Undead música with my roommate last night since neither of us really ever met anyone else who liked their música publicado hace más de un año
Rihanna312 comentó…
Well... tu may have found another one. :D HU has been one of my fave bands for like 8 years. Recently went to their concierto and yes, there isn`t just one best J3T verse, because he`s fuego in all of them!!! But when I think about it I also don`t know anyone in partocular who`d be as big fan of them as me. hace más de un año
Rihanna312 comentó…
particular* hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Yasss más fans hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im sleepy publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I'm dopey hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I'm both of the above !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Wrote a story for Riku titled "Two Venezuelen Uncles Fliped the universe away to the Beat" but she was too tired and didn't read it. #Shaming publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
It's kind of nice that I can say literally anything to Riku at any time and have zero repercussions. Man I unleash so much shit XD publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
What is that game called where tu have a picture of some things and when tu put them together it makes a phrase? publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Why is it so early? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: *tapping my fingers impatiently even though I was told it wont happen until after the fall quarter* HMMMM. WHEN WILL I SEE MY AP CREDIT APPEAR ON MY DEGREE TRACKER FOR COLLEGE publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Time to play a game I like to call "Riku o her bird?"

"Small, cute, with a couple issues that acts tough and is super confident"

Riku?

o her bird? publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I'll say both !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So nube also had a badly broken blood feather so I did the procedure myself cos hes old, underweight, and disabled and Im pretty sure theyd want to try to put him down.

#Successful publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I'm too good at Sonic 3 and Knuckles publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Final Destination probably shouldnt be a childhood nostalgia for me XD

But it is XD I grew up watching these cine and they were like a regular hype and one of the few family traditions. Watched every single one as they came out. Probably watched all of them at least three times each and the pointless gore and creative yet unrealistic gory ways to die just get better.

I dont really like horror o pointless gore, but Final Destination is special publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im not gonna say its a well made movie, but god do I like watching it XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Riku watching Rated R Gore films since they first came out hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Why do I watch this like a comedy XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Theres just so much solid irony hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*Final Destination at the Racing Speedway*

"You come here to see a crash?"

"Nah I like to watch them go around and around in circles OF COURSE I want to see a crash" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
"The trumpet is widely known for drawing in más extroverted children. They can be bold, brash, have nervous energy and even tend to be dominant and ambitious. This is due to the nature of the trumpet, which is usually a lead instrument playing a higher melody."

Yep publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ dicho …
There is something about pandora hearts and bungou stray perros xD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh? hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Is it that it tries to fit 10 volumes of information into the first three chapters of the manga? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Negative Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus struggle to remain consistent in therapy and conversations and arguments and can rarely hold my ground to long term major decisions that might be hard

Positive Trait of my Dissociative / Memory Inept Brain: I rarely ever feel the same way I felt when I went to sleep and thus pretty much 'reset' each morning despite negative moods / thoughts publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It actually más so a habit I apparently picked up when I was really young. According to my older sister horrible shit would happen one day, then Id go to sleep and remember none of it. Much less severe these days as its only really my emotions and will and any emotions related to anything the prior day, but its much mroe tame hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And thats regardless of if the día was really good o really bad. Very few things actually register in my memory with emotions attached hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Pandora Update

Unsure on Gil. He dicho some relatable shit but like...it kinda like spawned a little thing where I created a más accurate version of what he dicho so like...unsure on Gil publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I tried rewriting the quote but it didn't flow well hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Eh nevermind. No new point for Gil hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I dont think I've ever written a gay couple I amor más than Nora and Lu Stevenson in the RP Wanta and I have.

While Nora never appears in the main cast, the two of them make an adorable couple and even cuter and better parents. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Neewwww perfil publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
amor it. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It really looks great. I amor it as well !!!! hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
Noice hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
OMG I fucking amor it!! *-* hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, Lucy is so attention needy XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Seriously tho. Its still laughable my dad thinks tu can get a decent computer for $200 publicado hace más de un año
Rihanna312 comentó…
This makes me feel bad, because a few months hace I was about to buy a new computer and in my book decent started from €700 and up 😳 Have tu showed him what specifics fall under $200? Maybe he`ll understand that tu can only play solitaire on that. Even there sometimes tends to be really good deals for extra cheap prices. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh yeah Im like 99% sure hes trying to low ball me XD Since he refuses to let me input money, he promised hed work with me and honestly I know how to get him to be reasonable XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
In my book, barely decent starts at like $500 and up when on discount XD hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
If only there was a newly Full Time employee who offered to match whatever tu put in for the computer hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
:v I'm mad at Riku. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
She dicho I'm not allowed to pitch in to get her a good computer for Davis since her dad only wants to pay $200 hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Nah its very easy to pull strings on him. hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Humph hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Can someone get me a pillow? Apparently that wore me out from "could sleep but not at all tired" to like...

"Im so tired I cant figure out any new ideas for stories o really create words to speak, I wanna sleep and am yawning every minute" publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
welcome in da club riku need so much sleep these days too, feeling that i ate drugs o drunk to much hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
kat buys riku a bunch of pillows hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
"Do stuff I guess" - Wantadog2018 publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
hola if anyone wants to know one variation of dissociation and depersonalization, Im right here.

I somehow ended up entirely numb cause my brain kept working me with unnecessary trauma shit and I took too long to determine if I wanted to dig deeper and ruin my mental state for processing something, cutting it off entirely and dissociating unnaturally which is worse than this, o just letting myself sleep and forget it all

And now Im just sitting here pretty darn empty. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And that actually turned out to be a really short thing cos between my boyfriend and Wanta both stubbornly being stupid concerned dumbasses kinda ended up clicking with me and kind of giving my traumatized shithole brain a little bit of what it needed hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its nice to see some people have my back and genuinely really care for me as much as those two do. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am honestly tired of PTSD and trauma and feeling extreme anxiety and lack of safety for no reason.

Is there a place I could waiver out of it o like.... give it to one of those tumblr shitlords that think having mental disorders is cool..? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Fuck. Took way too long trying to decide which way to go with it and now Im just emotionally numb again. Ah well. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I really want to kinda just sleep even though Im not tired o anything. Seems easier that putting effort to keep myself entertained o to dig deeper into that crap pile hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Munakata: "Sorry for making tu do this"

Chisa: "Say my name and it's even!"

Munakata: "No"

Riku: "Sorry for making tu do this"

Wanta: "Call me your best friend and we're even!"

Riku: "No" publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Lefteris: ''Call me por a nickname like I do for tu and we're even!'' hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Riku: ''Maybe siguiente time'' hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I do a lot of things I mean to do out loud just in my head hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I scared Riku with how badly the Aoi thing is taking its toll on me publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am so bored publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
#RelatableAsAlways !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
FUCK I WAS PLAYING FORTNITE ON SOLO AND GOT SECOND

THE GUY WHO WON HAD LIKE 5 HP AND SINCE HE WAS RUNNING FROM ME I WAS PRETTY SURE HE WAS LOW ON AMMO o SOMETHING

SO FUCKING CLOSE UGH publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Haha. Yeah the diagnosis with PTSD still is sometimes hard for me to believe since my mind has trouble believing it was really that bad.

Therapist: Well when tu start to pregunta it, just ask yourself [insert pair of preguntas that blantantly Bpoint out that it was very shitty]

Me: *spending the rest of the día frequently and randomly getting pulled into fixations and bad memories of dicho shiftiness* Aha... tu are right. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I'd like to give a quick shoutout to a special person in my life that really has helped me throughout the last couple days when I've been going through a rough spot and facing some big decisions in my life. This person always made me laugh, made me emote even in anger, kept me on the straight and narrow, and even showed me their weak side.

So Remae from the game Spiral Scouts. Thanks! tu made me feel good for a bit.

#BuyTheGame publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
tu really got me there, I must admit !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So the official final set of diagnoses from the probable last session with my therapist is PTSD with Dissociation, OCD, Trichotillomania, and GAD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh and Chronic Stress hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Take the shitty hand tu get dealt, accept it, and make something amazing from it.

Life is really never ever a fair thing. Some people are born with a shit ton of wealth, loving families, and everything they could want. Some people are born in absolute poverty, abusive and broken households, and in the middle of the perhaps a deadly war o gang territory.

The thing is, tu cant really change what hand tu were dealt. All tu can do is adapt and morph it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I dont have the worst hand. I have a less than ideal and kind of shitty hand but not the worst. As do others who follow this club and all. The thing is though, its possible to change dicho weaknesses into strengths and use it to grow if tu think about it hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Personally, I take the hand I was dealt and use it to push reason to grow and to use it as a basis to let myself reach out to others better. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm the kind of friend that to get close, tu have to pay increasing work and effort into understanding and figuring out the bumps that naturally come with being close to me, but once things smoothen out I am also the type to pay it off extremely XD

Cos Im really driven and really goal orientated and good at planning and getting thigns done. Im also really good with mental health and struggles and have heard SO many stories of people both with mental and non mental health struggles publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Monetary issues? I can probably help. Mental health issues? Gotcha. Suicidal? Talk to me, Ill make sure tu walk out alive. Cant get your life together? Lets figure out something we can do. No passions in life? Lets figure out something for tu to work towards. Never seen things in life? Lets fix that. Family issues? Gotcha. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Then even better, if [I] cant help you, I have contacts that probably can help me help you. hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Riku is a Formula One.

Im a Ford Pickup thats left in the backyard till tu need a lift publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I dont think Ill ever die TRULY satisfied with life. I can be 90, saved ninty bird species, millions of birds, changed many lives, warped and washed away the stigma of mental health, had a family, mastered forty languages, mastered multiple instruments, mastered multiple combat styles, got multiple PHDs and all that

And I will STILL find things I would have wanted to find more. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
If I dont keep learning and dont keep evolving who I am and developing, I dont feel like Im living. And thats NOT bad. Its WONDERFUL. I feel so alive chasing goals and plans. Its not that whole "Once I get all this, I can relax" - no. Its "Once I get all this, I can explore más of the amazing interests of this world". hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
When I die, Ill be glad I did everything I did and its posisble for me to be at peace (cos theres a chance I wont if its a shitty death) but I dont think there will ever be a time in my life where I no longer have any strict goals hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is quite Relatable. It makes me glad to see others feeling that way as well. Life is a constant struggle. Constant Improvement is a major part of it !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Huh. Despite being someone who isnt one to believe conspiracy theories and never was quite into Avril Lavigne, the theory that she died and was replaced ACTUALLY has some notable evidence XD

Its interesting. I could somewhat buy it publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally, I try to make it out to be the best that it can be and accept it, but its quite painful and frightening to know your problems with memory and knowing youll probably forget many things much faster than one shout and things no one else would

If tu go off to Davis, will tu actually remember all the fun tu had with people and how much tu care about them when tu return 3 months later? Did tu forget o did it just not happen? What was it like being depressed? What about happy? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
The bright side of it is I am very nicely trapped in the moment and future plans. I can get myself excited for my goals and plans. I can enjoy whatever is in the moment cos I things that happened a few hours hace feel like days, and days feel like months and months feel like years hace hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Anyways Imma go to sleep hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I am Rikus memory hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Tfw tu FEEL that night time depression sneaking up

But tu ALSO wanna read some Pandora Hearts publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Prolly read some then sleep hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
USB = Unsuspectingly Saucy Butthole publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly shocked and disgusted with people. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Major faith in humanity and friends lost hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Seriously anyone who thinks thats funny and okay is disgusting as hell hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
same here hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
One a segundo note, Im incredibly disgusted, sickened and pissed off with people from my band cos one of my band children and his family had a small song bird fly into their house and instead of saving it (even when it was easy to save and grab) they decided to FILM the gatos hunting and killing it while finding a shit ton of amusement out of it.

One kid was like "Oh should we grab the hat (that it was sitting on)?" and then the mom owuld be like "No let it hunt" and everyone had cameras publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like... are they REALLY finding amusement in watching a helpless bird get killed por a cat that PROBABLY wont even actually eat it? Seriously? I mean its KINDA okay if it did because circulo, círculo of life, and honestly, I wouldnt mind that bad if they filmed it o something. Because hola maybe its an idea of recording nature and shit. Like a snake eating a ratón o whatever. But the commentary PISSED me off. "Oh let it hunt" "Oh lets watch it" "Oh look it got killed lol" hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And of the 36 people that liked it, only one bothered to comentario "Why didnt tu save it? ;-;" while everyone else either didnt care o found it funny as well hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I could say a lot about this but tu already did yourself. People like these disgust me as well !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
On one note, its Lucys birthday today and he got all sorts of toys and has been canto all día like he knows it is his birthday and its great.

Im glad to have such a wonderful bird in my life...... BUT publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Happy Birthday to him. May he continue to grow and be healthy !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also, I amor the look of slender builds on men.

I'm just saying that.

While I like rounded and curved women cos I amor thick thighs and boobs. ((That being said, my taste is much less strict for women than men since I do amor the extremely flat too and only a bit less than curved))

Slender builds are great. Perfect hugging size. A bit más to the feminine side. Less domineering look. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I really cant stand the idea of being the 'woman' in a relationship. It either has to be off the charts of being able to figure it out and balanced, o I'm the "man" in it. And personally the big and bulky look, while I dont hate it and its not a deal breaker o antyhing, tends to put me on guard. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And im not saying no to muscles. Muscles are nice too XD I just think slender frames are niceeee. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^^ hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
While I DO amor Davis and STILL amor Davis and had a wonderful trip there, I do have to say the sheer amount they pushed the liberal ideologies and agenda onto everyone was a little... concerning.

As someone who is moderate, probably a little leaning towards Libertarian, I found it kind of honestly uncomfortable. It was almost cult like to be honest. Talking about lines and verses and explaining what they mean and what they make us feel like and why they are true publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
RATHER than discussing it thoroughly and properly, there was a whole "Do this, o else" and a "This is the objective response to the topic / idea and not subjective, so tell me why its right" hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It was just so super PC hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I just feel people are too quick to be driven to be nice and make everyone happy and all they miss a chunk of reality hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
When Wantadogs fucked up mind comes up with shit so weird and unexpected that both he and Riku can't even bring up the energy to acknowledge its existence. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
parte superior, arriba that, Davis band chick hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
[Riku gets boners] publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
[Wanta gave Riku a boner] hace más de un año
zanhar1 comentó…
Put ur weiners away there are aces here :v hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD Wanta was denying his ability to write smut, and while it wasnt smut, it was a sensual scene and he did really good so I have to call him out on it cos I got an empathetic boner for my character :v hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Having seen it, I can attest to its Sensuality. Not bad at all. It was certainly a nice part !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
That feeling when the misceláneo person tu met in a UC Davis band chatroom is pretty much on a fanpop Friend level basis with tu and tu openly discuss and share many similarities and opinions on mental health, music, classes, etc.

She noticed my extreme passion and drive to learn :v

Is it really that obvious? Shes talked to me in IM for like... less than a week :v publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I've been replaced already..... hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Hasn't even started at Davis and Wantadog is already old hat hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
#TheOldModel hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Great to know. It doesn't really surprise me. Your Passion on certain Subjects has a way of really standing out. One of your charms. Many in here could attest to that !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
On another note, I tore / bit my finger nails and fingers way too much yesterday out of stress of how annoying the schedule builder was.

My eyebrows are a given.

But my fingers hurt. Especially the right thumb which hurts like a betch, publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
tu shoulda stayed up with me all night XD Clearly the smart play. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
HUNGER GAMES FOR universidad CLASS SEATS BEGINS IN 22 MINUTES

LETS SEE WHO WINS THE TWO CHEM CHAIRS OUT OF THE LIKE 300 STUDENTS WHO WANT IT

I mean there are más like.... eight seats for like... a hundred people but still. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Whoa. Fortnite got crazy... publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
*lays head down in a depressed manner* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Put me out of my misery :V publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
tu need to fight it, Rikubun !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Made it to Sacramento XD Tomorrow starts Davis' Orientation publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
Let the new journey begin. 👏🏻 hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also my anxiety over college has mostly subsided now that I found ONE person who I am a lot like and get along with online XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally, if tu ever get concerned of how pointless and meaningless life is, think of it like this.

Life is less like an RPG game o story game

Life is much más like a sandbox game. It has no real point o goal, but it is full of opportunities and game mechanics that allow tu to do so much, experience so much, and explore freely. If tu learn to work the game mechanics well, tu can pretty much do anything.

Heck, if tu work the physics engine publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
tu can do things that might seem impossible hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its sad that I am so uncomfortable being alone with my parents for más than half an hora without something actively distracting me o someone to balance it out / distract me publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
Daydream might com in handy.. hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
link hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I LITERALLY HATE THAT MY favorito! comida IS BIRD

AND THAT MY favorito! THING IN THE WORLD IS BIRD

WHY HAST GOD FORSAKEN ME publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
LIKE. I COULD STOP EATING PIG. I COULD STOP EATING COW. BUT STOP EATING POULTRY KILLS LIKE 90% OF MY DIET hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
NO BIRD LIFE IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER. ITS LIKE EATING COCKATIELS JESUS. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And no, I dont care. XD Dont get me wrong, I amor cows and pigs too. Its just that there isnt the strong instant emotional connection o strong obsession and amor that I have for birds that makes me feel guilty wheneveR I eat it XD Plus I dont eat pork and beef NEARLY as much as I do chicken hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I just realized I no longer remember any of the physical abuse I witnessed a lot as a kid huh...

I REMEMBER remembering it. But I dont remember it itself.

I KNOW it happened, but no matter how much I buscar my memory files, I genuinely cant find it.

Youd think somehting like that would be embedded deeply but I guess tis the way of repeated trauma. publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
Same hace más de un año
JetBlack_ comentó…
A weak memory in certain situations is blessed I truly believe that because it deletes all the awful things that a person went through. hace más de un año
laugh
GDragon612 dicho …
Good humor is the health of the soul, sadness is its poison. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Stay humorous. Stay healthy !!!! hace más de un año
laugh
GDragon612 dicho …
I'm a sarcastic person, and people don't get my humor sometimes. publicado hace más de un año
cool
GDragon612 dicho …
The secret to humor is surprise. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Body = Tense publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Body = Primed hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Body = Naked !!!! hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
bodycontrol ^^ hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Man being stuck in the situation where tu are not being energized sucks ass. I find that I'm not 100% introverted in that even if I'm alone, I still am not necessarily energized. What recharges my battery is my environment. I could do the same thing with the same people in one setting and not get revved up the same as I do in others publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
But right now I'm not in any environment that gives me energy it seems cuz with each passing día I'm más and más worn out and más and más drained. hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
A misceláneo ramble about one of Wantadogs RP characters.

I just really like Kumau because of how he is the most accurate embodiment of his nation that we have so far. He's a patriot. He can do anything because he has the support and strength of his people, urging him on to new heights. Likewise, his people can accomplish whatever they set their mind to because he is there supporting them with all the power he possesses publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am still learning a lot about my mental health and even más specifically on what is normal and what isnt normal and what is likely due to past trauma and shit publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ugh now Im bingeing Versailles guitarra solos. Why do I have such bad impulse control XD publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Called it hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Why does Kamijo look so young? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Brain: Remember that song that back in 9th grade even though we werent severely o actively suicidal, almost helped tu really screwed up mind and the many fictional things in your head that tu talked to 24/7 that it was both good and okay for tu to kill yourself?

Me: Yeah.

Brain: It was pretty lets go listen to it again.

Me: Okay.

Me: ...

Me: Wait.

Me: THIS IS A TRAP. :v ITS NIGHT TIME AND tu WANT ME TO LISTEN TO A POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS SONG publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My hobby is spraying myself with a spray bottle o shooting the spray bottle above me and letting the water fall nicely down on me on hot days

It feels so nice publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Quite frankly dealing with the issues that arise on the icono Contest and trying to go about them diplomatically is quite a pain in the ass. There is a process Wanta and I go through that makes things relatively simple

Not gonna say the idea of canceling the contest didnt occur to me. Im not going to, but I did contemplate it. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
The bitchy respuestas are getting annoying. Stop chewing us out simply because you’re actuación suspicious. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Not even that. Its just the annoying defensiveness. If tu didn't do it, just say so and be like "Hey I think this is a missunderstanding" instead of feeling the need to pull up an entire argument that is just sooooo over the top. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
link hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Heres the thing though guys.

Its hard to judge someone, o at least it should be. If tu think about it, every person in the world is human - every person in the world has emotions - every person in the world have their wants, loves, desires, etc - every person has struggles.

Some might be smaller than others, some might be insane o invalid. The thing is that somewhere in their head, their behavior and beliefs make sense and are something they feel is necessary, whether publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
they are aware of it o not hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
So personally, I have trouble full on judging someone (at least long term) for things they do and all. Personally, if I wasnt so open and so genuinely trying to figure it out myself, Id probably be disgusted with myself and my actions, but personally, I know I am working my hardest on figuring out what feels right and what is okay. People behave interestingly based on their stories, what they want, what they lacked, what they never had, what struggles theyve been through, o what struggles theyve never had hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Well said. Personally, I always try to place myself in the shoes of others before I judge them. It has certainly dado me más insight !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
That feeling when tu get up to brush your teeth and grab something to eat cos tu are hungry

But instead go pee, then go back to your escritorio and now have to try again. Ugh XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly Im not even gonna keep it a secret since its not my natural personality to do it

Im lectura Pandora Hearts cos its actually an anime I loved and intentionally neglected for years so I could read without much memory of it. It also had a huge impact on me like... three o so years hace so its really interesting

Its likely going have my new icono Contest entry publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Hype 👍 !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
REALLY good time at the Fourth of July celebration yesterday. It was a lot of fun and the peopel there were great. Kinda felt like a normal family for once

....

Also I somehow dont remember much of any of it still tho.

Just a huge fog.

Thats the level of my memory publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Riku has really put me into a dilemma. She compared me to a character from an anime/manga I haven't seen so I can't even look into it to see how accurate it is publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Same lol. Although I did some research on each Character. Just for the Personality part though. I'm planning on getting on with this Series soon. Seems quite interesting !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Muahahahaha hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Rikus new descripción of my personality: "Mopey poutiness" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Dude, for all the things I find New York to be kinda dumb for, requiring elementary, middle, and highschools to teach their students about mental health is definitely one I am NOT on that barco for. publicado hace más de un año
laugh
GDragon612 dicho …
banging your head against a muro burns 150 calories an hora publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
ouch XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Being as obsessive as I am is monotonous. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
To be honest, I just want my free meat and chips and soda Ill get at the calle party my boyfriend's family invited me to. Like... the carnivore in me is happy. The "Drinks Dr. Pepper Like Beer" in me is happy XD

The me who loves absolutely loud noises is happy especially since the neighbors have a literal cañón they light and try to get the loudest noise out of.

Is it legal? Maybe, maybe not.

Do they keep running it back and forth between the garaje and the street? Yes. publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack_ dicho …
Is té even good for parrots? 🤔
I’m watching youtube 👀 publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Well some but I would typically avoid it since there are a lot of things tu have to keep an eye out for that ARENT in the té to make sure they are okay for the bird to have (caffinee, flavors, specific chemicals, etc) hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It could be good for them if tu find the seguro ones but not too much to my taste hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
For those that I didnt tell, siguiente session with my therapist we are going to go over the possibility of a dissociative disorder diagnosis rather than leaving it as just 'dissociative tendencies' to perhaps make my transfer to a new therapist easier when I get around to it.

So hola we might see if I fit into one o not XD

Cos it might just be C-PTSD. Might have gotten extreme enough to be más than just C-PTSD which has dissociative symptoms. *shrugs* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes makes me want to die :v publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Trust me. We tried hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
boom!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Me and Riku are playing Keep Talking and Nobody Explodes.

Riku: "It looks like a circulo, círculo with a little toupee"

Me: "?"

Riku: "Or like an upside down 9"

Me: "...you mean a six?"

Riku: "...oh ya" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
ME AND MY MOM MANAGED TO CONVINCE MY DAD HE MIGHT BE GROWING A TAIL publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh man, taking advantage on his lack of any science-based education made up for his snotty comentario on the vet bill being not worth it hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Well if tu think about it... hace más de un año