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JetBlack__ dicho …
Psh.. riku is all high and mighty now xD publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
I AM BACK hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
I havent been able to touch the internet much for a few days and probably wont for the siguiente two XD publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
So in Pre-Retreat we...

1) Dont know who owns a baggage cos no one claims it so we might have lost some one

2) Played Spike the Section LEader with a Bag

3) Claimed a section dog

4) Claimed a section Ikea Shopping carro found on the street

5) Tired XD publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Gosh Im tired as heck XD Lots of fun. I amor my new section to be honest and for the first time in years, I was the one adopted rather than the other way around. publicado hace 12 meses
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Great you're having fun while at it. Keep it strong, Rikubun !!!! hace 12 meses
GDragon612 comentó…
try to sleep well Riku~bun<3 hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
:v tfw tu have to wake up at 4 am, its 11 pm, tu have a long long día tomorroq and youve been trying to sleep for the past hora and cant :v publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm blank. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Literally just staring at the screen for minutos at end hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Never consciously dissociated this hard without breaking into a different mode / persona of sorts hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: I wonder what a misceláneo post from a año hace says

Me, a año ago: "anxiety"

Me: ...

Me, a año ago: "anxiety anxiety anxiety"

Me: *gently pats my year-ago self's back* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Man Im pooped. Exhausted, tired, and pooped.

Not like actual poop but like...

Energy poop publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Man I get overwhelmed when multiple people are talking to me and asking me for information I dont know on the spot and dont have time to look up cos they are rushing for an answer.

On the other side, Ramune is an okay substitute for Dr. Pepper when it comes to chilling down from that. publicado hace más de un año
cool
GDragon612 dicho …
yooooo Riku and CO !!! Have an fantastic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and out kat meow xD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD My weekend will be chaotic to be completely honest with you. Heading off to college this weekend hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Hang in there, Rikubun. You'll pull through that Chaos just fine !!!! hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
welcome in the chaos hehe =D tu are not alone riku =p hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
There are the times when tu have to put energy to hold yourself up when your mental health is trying to make tu curl up and shut down.

But just surviving isnt good enough. As difficult as it is, tu have to push yourself a little extra. Do something to make sure tu keep it up and remind yourself that tu are better than the whispers in your head are trying to convince tu that tu are. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
When an old nostalgic Green día song is one of your options for Audition música for your upcoming marching band

https://tinyurl.com/y9vjxx79 publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
The Nostalgia vibes are pretty strong indeed. Green día is always the way. Awesome !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I will amor anyone who will massage my thighs rn XD

Jkjk that job and prize is already taken

But geesh my thighs are sore XD más so closer to my knees but specifics dont matter publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ughh... Finding the perfect finger collar for your significant other to claim them as your partner is hard. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Huh... I might have to figure out how to be emotionally vulnerable... o just normal but like... emotionally vulnerable for my standards again.

Since I wont have my boyfriend around for three months and hes been the only place I can be entirely genuine with my emotions. Cause if I dont I think Ill kinda go back a good few steps and snap again and thats not good. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
When things get down to it, theres usually something to tend to neglect that can easily disrupt and cause problems both in your personal and interpersonal life. If tu can figure out what tu lack a balance of, tu can likely make más harmony in your life por balancing it out. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Happy 9/11 da-

Oh shit no. Thats not what tu say publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also I stopped playing Dragon Age. Something abotu it just cant keep me drawn in. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I should watch some anime again... o read Medaka Box again... choices... choices... publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I have been considering of rereading Medaka Box as well. It would be nice to have someone on the same pace to discuss while doing so !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
That sounds cool honestly. As the last two breathing fans, I like the idea hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
I've actually been planning to read the "Medaka Box" manga for quite a while now hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
"You took most of what I introduced to tu and showed tu and took it to the extreme Riku. My friends that saw tu grow up say tu are like me, but level two - o más meanly put - Scar 2.0" ~ My Oldest Sister 'ScarlettGriffin'

Im not going to say shes wrong, at least during my childhood XD Most of the notable things (good and bad) I had from her was cause I took her consejos o introductions to things to an extreme publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like... anime, Guardians of Gahoole, some más immoral tendencies I had, Trichotillomania, etc hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its mainly since even as a kid I was kind of an all o nothing kind of person. I either have little interest and dont involve myself with it much at all, o I get strongly invested into it. One o the other hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And back when I was younger, my oldest sister was the closest thing I had to a parent figure so she kinda introduced me to a lot of things and a lot of concepts / vistas to take a look at hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*deep breath* As much as I amor change and amor growth and am excited for college, the massive change just gives me that natural halt and paralyze-anxiety moments in my head.

I have everything pretty planned out and back up plans to follow with it and everything. I set everything up so that transition should be both pretty good and considerably easy, but honestly, no matter how much I prepare and plan, I cant stay that the base fact that MAJOR things of my life are changing publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
ISNT at all a bit anxiety causing. I know itll be fine and I know Ill flourish, but honestly going from my rather regular life style Ive had for... at least six o seven years and abruptly change both the environment, the frequency of which I am able to be around my boyfriend, and simple school is a tad bit intimidating hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im really driven and confident, but I still am a normal 17 (almost 18) año old with severe anxiety XD So as much as my drive and confidence lately has done GREAT to balance the scales, I'm still quite human in the way that such a strong shift with a distance long enough that I cant reliably say I have my family and boyfriend covering my back like they usually do (at least my family with driving and making sure I eat and get basic needs done) hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
A año o two hace Id be having a major panic attack o anxiety attack over this to be honest. Now I just have a few segundos of paralysis when I think about it too much and maybe a bit of avoidance in actually thinking about it too much. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Had a great first party of three (possibly four since it sounds like people want to celebrate a little on my actual birthday in Davis) XD Went swimming, spent an hora playing Rocket League and Fortnite while just being goofs, then just like... two o three hours watching memes and other hilarious Youtube.

Pretty awesome tbh. Plus it was enough of a success they want me to organize a get together in the winter when everyone is back together. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly, all my non-trumpets canceled / didnt get back to me after saying they wanted to go, but I really dont mind. The trumpet section had this great bond and all with one another. It was amazing to spend the día with them hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Great to know that tu had an awesome time !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So lets run a progress check on how much Ive improved over the past three years with my ability to think of myself as worthy and comfortable with being slightly vulnerable por asking for people to hang out with me for my birthday... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
2016: Literally took three therapy sessions over three weeks of my therapist telling me how I NEED to have a birthday party and hwo he wants me to have one and my mom and sister bugging me to do it. I reluctantly invite THREE people to cena for my birthday. Spend the week before it very uncomfortable and lowkey panicking and begrudingly checking up on who can make it. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
2017: Willingly, on my own accord, set up a birthday party. Very uncomfortable still. Not really wanting to do it, but knowing its good. Freaked out internally for like half a week. Enjoyed it, invited like ten people, about five appeared. hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
An inspiration. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Once I got through the Arguement Armament that was bugged on Hard, I got the full ending of V3 and it sucks less with the last bit but still annoyed me and pissed me off for the most of it. But thats just my opinion.

Im not on the side of "I hated the ending" but I más so on the "I disliked the ending". publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Actually it continued past what I thought and I like it better. Im neutral on the ending. Really executed poorly through most of the Chapter, but I suppose they ended it good enough hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I will not say that none of my gripes I was going on before dont exist though. Its not a great ending o a good one, but its not THAT horrible since it cleared up one of my larger gripes hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is only fair. I am glad that tu went back at it and finished the whole thing yourself, having a somewhat better reception of it nonetheless. That is what the DR Experience is all about !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I might sleep early cos my headache is making me tired publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Yeah V3s Ending is an Ending I will pretend NEVER happened publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I closed out of the final Armament arguement cos I didnt feel like doing it and if I have to redo the ending, Ill research the characters and watch other people talk to them and whatever. If I have to do más than the armament, Im honestly not thinking its worth it hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its a sad día when I dont put a positive review for a Danganronpa game. As much as the first five chapters were pretty good (save how annoying Atua got), when combining the ending, the sheer lack of connection to the past story, the sheer lack of a conclusion to the anterior stuff, and how buggy it was as a PC port, I just couldnt say Id recommend it unless it goes on a major sale hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Nah, as I dicho in PM, I still amor the game. Its just the ending is baaad hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ugh. V3's ending so far is so predictable, underwhelming, and kinda annoying that I actually stopped mid-climax cause I was getting bored and tired of them jammering on about the thing I predicted from like the prologue. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Always finish what tu start. Things aren't always exactly what they seem, Rikubun !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Danganronpa Chapter 5 Ending

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma
Gonta Gokuhara / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Keebo
Korekiyo Shinguji / Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
There honestly isnt a ranking.
I just know that I dont
Care much for Tsumugi
o Angie much currently
This weird spacing for this
Is for the aesthetic of a ranking publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I also realized while thinking about it to myself that the reason Im más ENTJ than ENTP is the line "Honestly, my plans and shit arent that limiting. I amor the ability to adapt and branch out into different options so I always ADD IT INTO MY PLANS"

I had to pause there and kinda realize I plan to not plan and thats probably why Im más of a J than P XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
If I was in Danganronpa Universe:

"I am The Ultimate High School Level Bird"

"Dont tu mean Bird Owner o Bird Expert"

"No Bird" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally, as dumb as it sounds, the way tu walk, stand, and sit can really affect your confidence I believe. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Definately add dress into there too hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW tu are listening to one of your favorito! Project Diva Future Tone songs and tu feel tu fingers not tapping to the beat but rather to the rhythm it memorized to clear the game XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I honestly dont know why I like "This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Commitee" so much hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im SO fucking blind and dumb XD Im not kidding tu XD How did I jsut realize this publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Four fucking years guys. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Possibly even más hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
STILL didnt realize it hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Oh my fucking god I feel so fucking dumb XD XD

Im so retarded and blind XD XD

For all of tu that think I understand myself really well and my mental health, tu just hear me out right here XD

Ill change that for you. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cause I just realized that back when I used to have VERY aggressive responses to people mostrando me affection to the point of going to mental, emotional, and psychological torture and probably the most blood thirsty language and manipulation tu can think of and in two cases actually getting violent. For the ones that happened the worst, it was cause my boyfriend was being too affectionate to me and I kinda liked him back and it terrified the SHIT out of me hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
tu literally dont get much más textbook PTSD and flashbacks there hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
jesús Fucking Christ how did I JUST realize this hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
>Makes a Cute Playlist for Part of Boyfriend's Gift

>Sneaks in a Happy Feet 2 Song

>Boyfriend gets the playlist on 4th week

>Boyfriend doesnt comentario / call me out

>:successkid:

....

I like Happy Feet (especially the segundo movie) música too much. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
That feeling when your boyfriend realizes tu are getting #LiterallyTriggered before tu even realize it and hugs tu tightly causing tu to snap out of it relatively quickly and very well calming tu and your body down with dicho hug publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
This is why I amor him tbh. How the fuck does he notice before I do when Im the one getting mentally tormented and completely blanking out from my surroundings. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Do tu ever get like that rhythm game depression?

Where tu like.... practice one hard part over and over again for like ten minutos straight... think tu got it.... choke the first full run through, decide to give it a segundo time, and just find absolutely none of the skill there so like... tu jsut shut down the game, turn off the console, turn off the TV and sit there wondering what the hell tu did with your life to get no where publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
misceláneo Fact: I have a secret lowkey amor for playing cards. I can never reject a pack of them and while the amor isnt pushing me to actively collect them, I do collect ones that are free o easy to get publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I personally believe dystopia and utopia are one in the same. o rather, for one to exist, the other almost always exists for another.

The two go hand in hand. For every light, there is a shadow, for every shadow, there is a light. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
.... god why do I amor the people who fuck with the trials the most? XD

Nagito? Kokichi? Togami? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW when your favorito! of two iconos has a colorscheme that when reduced to a small icono looks like shit so tu gotta work with your segundo favorito! publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Well my boyfriend admitted to bragging about how smart I am whenever prompted to people XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW tu HAVE TWO imágenes THAT COULD MAKE WONDERFUL iconos BUT PIXLR IS DOWN publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
ALL HAIL KOKOCHI OUMA! publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Really I cant imagine how some people do that whole "30 years old, neck beard, in parents basement, jobless"

I have had a longer summer than the majority of people and everyone going off to college and work just gets me feeling like a lazy worthless piece of shit XD

I mean I dont take it seriously cos I know Im only on a longer break than everyone else, but man do I feel like a deadbeat lazy piece of crap XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And I dont feel like that for más than like three segundos in the morning XD Cos I was like "Wheres my mom - oh yeah she has work now too. ... hmm... i guess ill play some video games" hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
If tu ever get close enough to me to the point I ask tu directly for affection o comfort rather than just ranting to tu o having a breakdown in front of you, tu know tu really are someone I trust.

Cause ranting o breaking down is often a sign I kept things to myself too much like I do 95% of the time. If I go and just say "I need a hug, can tu hug me" o "Im feeling bad and could really use someone to be around" o basically anything along the lines of publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
"Im [insert negative emotion] and vulnerable, but could tu please [insert help]" cause I rarely let people I dont trust around me when I feel I might be in a vulnerable state and even when I do trust someone, its unlikely I would both tell them Im vulnerable and feeling bad AND ask them to help. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its something I SHOULD do más often, but it goes against every instinct and habit I am used to. Its like asking a lobo to eat tofu. I mean Im sure they probably can to some degree, but its just so unnatural hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its kind of sad that I still have to be in very specific conditions and situations to be remotely comfortable with actually thinking about any stressors that arent necessarily easily fixable let alone talk about it o express it o anything.

I didn't really think about it much, but other people cant control it and/or are free and seguro enough feeling that they are able to let themselves feel and express their feelings and emotions even in inconvenient times publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
As much as I have worked on it, I still am not really near the emotional availability and transparency level of a normal person. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Unless I am outside of my house, around someone Im comfortable with, having a therapy session within a week o two, and am not under time pressure o a critical period of time, can I genuinely feel comfortable touching upon all that stuff hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
ENTJS ARENT AUTOMATICALLY THE MAIN VILLAIN IN EVERY SERIES XD

Me and Zeppie are memeing about how in like 80% of the charts, ENTJs are the main villain of any series XD Like cut us some slack publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Sometimes its really interesting to see how differently two people could see and view the world. Depressed VS not depressed. Creative and in amor with imagination / fantasía and someone whos been más interested in real and worldly activities.

Even taking away psychosis and colorblindness and all that, the sheer difference in the ways we interpret the world just based on our upbringing is just honestly fascinating. Even mental health and all aside, the possibilities are astounding publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like as someone whose dissociated a lot since as far as I remember and probably my entire life from reports from my oldest sisters, I dont think Ill ever FULLY interpret the world and take it as seriously o feel as connected to it as people who have never dissociated before. I can recover all I want, but hte predisposition will always be there. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
o the contrast between me and my boyfriend. As tu all know, Im VERY into stories, and characters, and fantasy, and all that creative stuff that go far beyond anything realistic. On the other hand, a lot of his interests are más grounded in worldly things. History, space, documentaries, racing, sports, camping, things that are physically around and that tu can see for yourself and what not. Its not to say he doesnt have an imagination, but he finds such interest in things I would otherwise call rather boring. It honestly fascinates me and while it sounds like an issue that would cause problems, its honestly part of something that intrigues me the most about the relationship. Just trying to see the world that he sees it and understand it in the way he does. Its just quite baffling hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Then just speaking in the spectrum of my own life. The sheer difference between the world when I was extremely depressed and suicidal versus now where I dont really suffer from depression outside of maybe rare bursts that can last from an hora to a week, but even then its rare. But tangents aside, the sheer difference between now and then on how the world looks and feels and all is baffling. Take that one major thing away and it literally seems like the world is brighter and más enjoyable and free where as it appeared dark, empty, and threatening before. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Perception, interpretation, and understanding are just such interesting topics when tu see how differently one person could experience the EXACT same situation differently, and even how one person can experience the same event at different poitns in their life and perceive, interpret, and understand it differently. This is just one of those things I like to contemplate on and find just simply amazing hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Really, one of the best things I can get when Im having an anxiety / panic / traumatic breakdown is for someone to get me to look at them and remind me that Im safe.

Cos most of the time I get that thousand yard stare cos Im pretty much stuck in my head and usually getting me to focus on something around me that I am comfortable around is a bit of a nice way to slow down my brain and kind of snap me out of it.

A lot of the time I dont realize it too which is kinda funny publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Pretty much if I sound distraught and Im staring off at nothing in particular and all, I sometimes just need someone to refocus me and ground me and that can help a lot hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Usually my boyfriend is really good at noticing my 'negative' el espacio outs where Im silently panicking o stressing out in my head cos I apparently have a specific look with my usual "staring off at nothing" and hes pretty good at snapping me out of it there before it becomes a problem and tends to be a lot better at it than one would expect when he somehow gets me to vocalize it, usually when its gotten pretty bad hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I... I dont relate with much of the Libra sign much anymore.

I used to relate to a decent amount of it but not so much lately. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I should make a new icono at some point. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Fuck Atua XD publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Shhhh.... He is watching over us !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I think I might be getting a cold publicado hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
Rip. I hope tu feel better. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I think it wasnt anything serious. I mostly seem better now hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Tht's certainly good to know. Stll, take care of yourself as much as tu can !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Techno música makes great exercise music. Just sayin' publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So I was looking más into MBTI and all (actually was awhile hace but I was specifically looking into mine today) and letters alone and descriptions alone, I am a pretty solid ENTX

The interesting thing is the two I feel are closest to me are ENTJ and ENTP which have NO shared cognitive functions.

I will say I am sure that ENTJ is my main "default" mode, but I do feel in certain situations and cases I can very much be an ENTP. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I personally like Danganronpa cos I like mysteries and debating and arguing and high stakes and death and tragedy and all my favoritos dying

Its the Danganronpa experience, killing all your favoritos off to make tu feel true despair. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Same goes for me. Plus, the determination that is required to go through true Despair. A world filled with it as well as Hope, both countering one another. Havng the courage to still look at the Future despite the circumstances. It always felt like a pretty unique message to me. Fictional o not, I keep being inspired regardless !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am honestly quite tired XD publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
welcome Riku~hun XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Relatable as always XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
It does still baffle me a bit how people can not so simply step back from their own issues and disconnect their emotions from it to get a good lectura on what kind of action should be done.

On the other hand, I must say I do creep myself a bit on how I can do it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ah man I was just hit with a wave of something and my balance was knocked off. Like if yesterday I was standing in the optimal "goldilocks" zone where I had the energy and drive and optimism to go forth at things

Its like today I've been teetering and going back to sliding and running back and forth to keep myself balanced. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im honestly fine Im sure. If I sleep and wake up theres a good chance Ill probably be reset and all. Hopefully at least XD Otherwise Id have to figure this manually myself. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Maybe a día of not playing games 70-80% of the time Im awake will do me some good. I suppose it might be causing my escapist tendencies / accusations to come back XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But nah Im all good, its just that its uncomfortable hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Chapter 2

favorito! Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara
Gonta Gokuhara
Ryoma Hoshi
Korekiyo Shinguji / Keebo

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

favorito! Female Ranking:
Kirumi Tojo
Maki Haruwaka
Kaede Akamatsu
Miu Iruma
Angie Yonaga / Himiko Yumeno / Tenko Chabashira
Tsumugi Shirogane publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Also Ouma's voice actor is absolutely great hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally I wanna get back to working on my mental health rather than kind of putting it in a backseat, but I think its kinda easier to not wake the dragon when I have so much other things going on and cos its not really a good idea to wake the 'Mental Health Dragon' when tu cant see a therapist for a while XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So lets see. Chapter 1 of Danganronpa V3 complete

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Gonta Gokuhara
Korekiyo Shinguji
Keebo
Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
Kaede Akamatsu
Kirumi Tojo
Miu Iruma / Maki Haruwaka
Tenko Chabashira
Angie Yonaga
Himiko Yumeno / Tsumugi Shirogane publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I will do these each chapter to mark my changes in favoritos XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
favorito! en general, general would probably be either Ouma o Kaito. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Very good game so far hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I amor GONTA HES SO ADORABLE. I doubt he will be my favorito! but I amor him XD Imma probably make him my child and I barely started Chapter 1 publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
The Purity is strong. TOO strong !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Having a good "why" to what tu are doing helps a lot with getting yourself going and sticking to what tu plan to do. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Yeah I dont have the right to call myself an introvert at all anymore XD Im like a straight extrovert. Still selective but straight full on extrovert.

I get offered a día to have to myself and play the three video games Im playing all día and watching youtube and all after having active days, and it annoys me

So Im like "I guess Ill go out to exercise later" and then am like "I wonder if I could get in touch with any friends today. ... nah most are already off..." publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I get bored in an ENTIRE día to myself XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Pretty relatable !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am so not used to how HD this new laptop is publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Wow Danganronpa in just the opening screen runs SO much better on this hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I still feel really bad about upgrading cos my old one still works well... I feel like itll be lonely and its a lot of wasted potential to not be used hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I wonder what Fortnite will look like hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, maybe Im the odd card out cos my middle sister didnt care, but like... all the money going out into getting me stuff for college... like yikes.

Its a lot and I dont like spending - even money that isnt mine - so it kinda hurts to see bills of at least $100 a día coming up. Well not EVERY día but like almost cos we are doing small shopping trips daily. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I dont get how people can spend their money so freely. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im spending it on things college and my parents say are necessities and just... wow. Its not even my money and I dislike it hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Imma get carpal tunnel o some shit playing Project Diva: Future Tone. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I wish Luvoratory was on it XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Shit Riku Says: "Imma groom them to like the aprovechar, arnés just like a pedophile grooms a young child to have sex with them. .... It actually a very very similar process if tu just change a few details." publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm honestly really sensitive to the thought, sight, and all of child abuse o anything like it such as tough amor o whatever. I was watching a "What would tu do" haivng something similar to it and my whole body just flares up and I start to get that narrow vision shit.

And I know its actors. And I know its on TV, but part of me gets really flared up seeing it. Its the only thing that gets me so drastically and emotionally responsive other than maybe animal abuse publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And that narrow vision usually isnt too good. My therpist says its something to do with panic attacks o whatever but it usually follows with some form of a 'fight' instinct. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I would like to say I simply hate it and cant stand for it, but if there is roughness and anger towards a child it just shakes me hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Relatable. I understand that feeling very well, dudette !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So my bird aprovechar, arnés came in today and Ill likely begin testing it out and working with it later today

Rather than starting with agoraphobic Lucy tho Imma adjust "Accepts anything Riku does" Smokey publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Captain might be pretty badly injured cos he hit a muro really roughly. His head feathers got torn out and I think thats whats causing the minor specks of blood on his head, but theres reason to suspect he MIGHT be blind o have poor vision right now. Ill check him out to see if he really is when hes calmed down in his cage a bit. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Hope everythings works out !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So it came up in conversation so I took the Mensa Online Pretest and apparently "have an excellent chance of passing the real exam"

And, for those that dont know, Mensa is a group for 'geniuses' with an IQ higher than 132 that my therapist bugged me about.

I think Im somewhere around the 140s o something like that if tu convert my Pretest score?? Im like scrub tier 'genius' o high tier 'above average' publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I also finished 8 minutos early XD hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
When my mom had her IQ tested yeaaars ago, she was like around 165. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
OH GREAT. I got the Chem teacher so notoriously hard he is a well known meme for crushing people's souls in the school XD

Sounds like a fun challenge I suppose publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Those Teachers are the kind of people that value hard work above all, most of the time. As I dicho to tu before, I doubt tu could leave a bad impression on him !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Great Im busy all día on my actual birthday. I guess we could find some time either around cena o on Saturday to celebrate it?

Roommate: That sounds good but we probably have a football game to go to

Me: Ah yes. "Cant make it, got band." I should feel stressed o disappointed o annoyed, but its honestly kinda nostalgic and peaceful. I'm kind of glad that line still exists. Makes me feel at home.

Roommate: Same publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT NONE OF THEM OCCUR FOR LIKE THE siguiente WEEK DAMN IT publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Anxiety and excitement are pretty much identical brain processes and chemicals and activity in the brain and the only thing that differentiates the two is the narrative tu have around it.

Yeah thats probably explain why the level of excitement I have for college is getting to the place where my chest is crushing like anxiety and shit XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
1 TB is so much más than I, even as a digital hoarder, need publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm sad now...

I'm going to be leaving behind my Lenovo Thinkpad before its had a chance to do anything wrong for me... Im sorry baby. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Having someone who has faith in tu no matter how much tu dont have faith in yourself is honestly something that can do tu wonders.

Its hard to find people willing to invest that much into someone and finding someone like that might honestly be crazy since its unnatural, but it does wonders for the recovery process. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cause when tu start to have inevitable relapses o fall backs on your recovery process, its easy to loose faith in yourself and give up for fall into despair. But for someoen to always be rooting there from the side lines doing whatever they can to help, it can really help hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
♫ God bless the día I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

[..]

Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Just tell me tu amor me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

And that you'll always
Let it be me

So never leave me lonely
Tell me tu amor me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me ♫ publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, I sound like Im making a big deal out of it, but going to Davis with a fresh start and making new friends and rebuilding my reputation away from my old angsty image others had set from my anterior years and away from my toxic family, it honestly feels like Im being dado the chance to be alive and live like a normal person away from my mental health o hand I was dealt. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like this post was originally come out as "I can't wait to live!" but that didnt make sense without context / explanation hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cause I've already been invited to a party over there and while I dont usually like parties, someone actually bothered to invite me to one, so I might as well check it out and give it a shot? Its a going away party for my roommates friend and will be the día I arrive and apparently shes really wanted to meet me as well hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is simply wonderful to know and completely natural. Just as it should be. Make the most out of it !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I still remember that one time I had a really bad sleep paralysis experience and I felt like I was literally dying while napping to Amazing Grace done por Phantom Regiment on repeat

Afterwards, all I could think of was how ironic is was and how, for the rest of that día despite being kinda pretty suicidal most of the time, I didnt want to die XD

Just for that día o two tho. Cos I was really bad then publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Yikes. Tomorrow I have the massive task that is transfering my digital hoard off my computer publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its really interesting. Ive been playign the demo of Future Tone a good bit and theres an interesting mental skip I have when processing what to click and when where my brain never (or registers for such a short period of time I dont notice it) registers the actual button Im supposed to click.

Its like I see something on the screen and my fingers interpret it publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im not saying Im fluent cos my muscle memory isnt perfect nor does it sync perfectly with my ears and eyes to get a perfect "COOL" all the time o anything. But I find it interesting since it has that SAME exact feeling of a skip of translation I get when I play my trumpet hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I see a note and make the fingering, usually not actually thinking of what the letter note it is before playing it unless I check back and think it sounds wrong o something hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm SO gay for Megurine Luka. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Today was a long día that was 70% spent in the DMV publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know Im no where even near the age o contemplation point for me to even be thinking about it since I definately do not want kids until I am rather well stable financially and extremely extremely stable within my relationship and have had time to enjoy my marriage when I get around there

Then even then Im not sure if I really want kids even then. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
WITH THAT BEING SAID, I do have a voice in my head thats like "If I were to have kids, that would be a good thing to raise them with" hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It would be a TOTAL invasion of human rights and privacy so Im not ACTUALLY for it, but its really something when tu have to get a license to drive a car but literally anyone can have a child hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Putting the adoption thing aside, I share the same beliefs on that matter !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Okay after researching Impulsivity VS Compulsivity I can say I dont have less Impulse Control issues and más Compulsive Issues XD

Which makes sense because no matter how much I like to put the word "minor" in front of the diagnosis without them saying its minor, I do have OCD. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly though. I have to focus really hard for like five to twenty segundos to make sure my hand DOESNT do something. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It sounds silly but with how used to it I've gotten, its almost reflex that when I get that overwhelming body tension that within segundos I just do whatever its telling me to do hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
So better to nip it at the bud hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE LAST LIKE THREE minutos OF DANGANRONPA 3 XD

WHERE THE FUCK DID MUNAKATA WALK OFF TO - BETTER YET HOWD HE WALK ANYWHERE WHEN THEY ARE ON AN ISLAND. HE MIGHT HAVE WALKED TO A barco BUT WHY AND WHAT

AND THE ENDING MADE SENSE WITH HOPES PEAK BUT WAS KINDA ODD AND ABRUPT WUT publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
ITS SUCH A SMALL THING hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
"YOU ARE A VALUABLE ASSET. CANT tu AT LEAST TELL US WHERE SO WE CAN KEEP tu IN CONTACT: hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Dudette, tu can exclude Kyoko, Nagito and most of the DR2 Cast from the Dead List, Seiko's wish in a way didn't go to waste, so many Children appeared, were seguro and ended up happy, Hope's Peak Academy was rebuilt and you'll probably have a lot of material for Fanfics and various hypotheses concerning Munakata. The Future Foundation Member is still alive as well and kicking. DR3 is over. Let THAT sink in XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Oooooh roommates are nice XD I really cant wait to go to Davis. Plus the section leaders of the trumpet section contacted me and they seem sweet and kind. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: *visiting band friends and their band camp*

One of my Children: STOP. PLAYING. DANGANRONPA.

Me: Imma do what I damn well want to :v :v

XD I havent even been playing Danganronpa. I opened it twice to see if it was a one time thing that it wasnt running hte best on my current laptop. XD It seems to run okay on my current one but I wont play it until I get my new one. publicado hace más de un año
Mauserfan1910 comentó…
Fucking weebs playing anime games hace más de un año
Mauserfan1910 comentó…
Why don't tu weeks play quality games like amor nikki hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I suppose your fondness for it has been made quite apparent to them XD !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Ya it's a real break. Hoped for it to be a simple sprain but my arm droops 45 degrees without the brace. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Meant to post this on Random. hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
@Riku deleting rude comentarios doesn't work on me. If you're that particular about it then fine, I'll leave this up for awhile "then borrar it" if it means that much to tu hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Ah nevermind. Can't be bothered hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*plans a pool party*

*forgets the reason she hasnt gone to the playa o swimming pool for más than like 20 minutos is cause she doesnt have a fitting traje de baño cos her bust is too big and shopping for one is hard cos its almost non-existent* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I GOT MY ROOMMATE OFFICIALLY AS A ROOMMATE

YAY publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: *walks into the band room to visit old children*

Half the Band: SATANS BACK!!! SATANS BACK!!!

I wonder how confused the new members were. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I think I have a huge bias on animated cine cos some of my favoritos and most memorable ones are all bird related XD XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
"Im not good at ____" "I suck at ____" are not good excuses for not doing something tu really amor to / like to do. Skill is something that can easily be changed with a work, perseverance, and effort.

Its not like Im saying people who dont push por those are bad o just making excuses, but I hear it a lot and its kinda sad how easily those can kill people's dreams and all. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Amen to that !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im thinking of adding Jewel to Relatable Characters lista cos from a few scenes I rewatched from Rio, I think she has a relatively similar personality to me XD

But Id have to rewatch the movie again. Maybe the segundo but I think I only own the first rn publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
From what I have seen from the first Movie only, I guess she KINDA reminds me of tu !!!! hace más de un año