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Riku114 dicho …
Me: Okay its 11 AM what are we supposed to be going? *checks calendar*

Me: .... the calendar is blank until 6 PM

Me #2: Ya know we planned to like... ya know, have an easy día on the weekend?

Me: .... OKAY THEN. LETS GET DOWN TO RELAXING AND HAVING FUN. WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO PLAY o DO

Me #2: Can tu like... not be so extreme and just relax when relaxing publicado hace 11 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Deep breaths, relax muscles, lower shoulders, and just do whatever~ hace 11 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Also I officially #100%ed Hijikata and Saito and I totally have... 26.1 hours on the game XD Im officially 1/6th way done with the game publicado hace 12 meses
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Im going back to get Hijikatas bad routes before starting another and I just remembered again how much he needs to stfu and stop being me publicado hace 12 meses
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I really miss my flock tbh. publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Its been way too long since I got to hold a feathery friend. I hope we get to hold the chickens in the chicken lab for my animal science lab siguiente week hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Cos Imma die if I cant hold a feathery friend for one más week hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
University: Here tu have a $755 Refund Check to pick up

Me: .... i do? What for? I mean Il ltake it but idk why

Me: *going through financial papers and stuff* OH tu GUYS DIDNT PAY ME MY WHOLE GRANT EARLIER SO THIS IS MONEY I HAD BUT DIDNT KNOW OHHH THATS NICE

Me: Well at least that makes sense. Alright time to account it into my budge-

University: *literally one hora after I picked up that one* tu have a refund check to pick up

Me: ???? WHAT FOR??? publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Im getting so much money from the universidad I dont understand why Im getting it. hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Maybe this one is the small student loan o something? o maybe its the downpayment on dorm paid back or...??? hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Tbh I was $400-500 above my budget I was dado and thus adding an unexpected $755 made me around $1200 saved and who knows how much the siguiente one is .-. hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Also everyone says Hijikata is originally cold, mean, and an asshole of sorts but like... I never really saw that and I dont know if thats everyone having differnet opinions o a commentary on me since I relate to him XD publicado hace 12 meses
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Too many good Hijikata Icons. I was gonna go for halloween but got distracted. Maybe Ill give him a witch hat publicado hace 12 meses
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Me: Imma google how to relax

Roommate: tu go do that. *goes off to the bathroom*

*two minutos later*

Roommate: did tu figure out how to relax?

Me: No

Roommate: .... get off the UC Davis hatchery page, yo uare supposed to be relaxin- no close the correo electrónico too

Me: .... ..... *legit didnt realize she was not relaxing and now feels dumb* publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
I officially accepted that I have a genuine friend irl and thus also decided to give her the irl best friend at the same time and thats honestly kinda weird for me.

...

... i dont know if i like this XD publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
I feel a lot of tu underestimate how horrifically bad I am at actually establishing meaningful connections with people IRL and then actually recognizing and accepting it rather than denying it and negating the 'meaningful' part because I refuse to let it count cos of my discomfort into getting invested into friendships hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
But TBH shes one of the only two not-boyfriend, not-therapist, not-oldest-sister people I know IRL that I am even remotely comfortable being my purely natural self and we still are in contact even after having not seen each other in two months and tbh shes pretty cool hace 12 meses
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#GayPTSDBuddies hace 12 meses
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Im annoyed por the amount of M&Ms in my trail mix publicado hace 12 meses
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I know Im weird hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
WELP. I apparently also do dissociative fugue XD The one dissociation thing I claimed to NOT have I apparently have for ffs XD

My new therapist was like "You do A LOT for being dissociated so it sounds a lot like a fugue if tu ask me". Apparently tu dont have to have that whole complete memory wipe / shock when tu come back from a fugue and apparently my selective amnesia and constant casual autopilot-dissociation is likely a mild but still active dissociative fugue ffs XD publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
But fuck man I got therapy homework to "relax" rip me hace 12 meses
Rihanna312 dicho …
https://www.facebook.com/pubity/videos/767156683615418/ publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
XD Thats hilarious hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ dicho …
Wait...who is Nomy? publicado hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ comentó…
Guys, check out my new pregunta on the misceláneo club xD hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
8theGreat XD hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ comentó…
I see xD hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Nomy: "Doing my job stuff so I might be slow to respond so sorry XD"

Me: "Its cool XD I was just mostly rambling here. And looking at birds"

Nomy: "When are tu not looking at birds"

Me: "good point" publicado hace 12 meses
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ A good point indeed lmao !!!! hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Lowkey having way too much fun with the thing me and Nomy are casually working on as a side thing together tbh. publicado hace 12 meses
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YES MY 7-10 PM CHEM LAB GOT CANCELED COS THE UC SYSTEM IS EXPERIENCING A STRIKE. HALLELUJAH. publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
So I managed to match with a therapist that does have experience with trauma and dissociation so that should be interesting. publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
So anyways, we did the away game and what not well and stayed up from 10 PM until 3 AM until I had to let my boyfriend go which lowkey really made me kinda sad to see him go since it was honest to god the first time none of my mental health crap was constantly pressuring me (Constantly but not majorly; present but not crushing) and I didnt really wnat him to go.

Woke up the siguiente day, had the banquet and senior speeches and what not publicado hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Then we got on the bus to head back to our universidad but only got like.... 20 miles out before one of the busses started majorly leaking oil and eventually catching on fuego in the form of an engine fire. That ended up making us stranded por a beach. hace 12 meses
Riku114 comentó…
Then we all agreed (quite enthusiastically as if we hadn't just been told we were stranded for two hours) to "rally at the beach" which pretty much means to play música and have a band version of a party on the beach. Pretty much did that for three hours straight. Apparently a couple whose son killed himself a week hace forced themselves out of the house to check out hte playa and smiled for the first time since because of us, our energy, and overwhelming positivity hace 12 meses
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I might subir some videos onto youtube XD hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
IM BACK HOLY SHIT XD

Our bus broke down and we didnt get a bus until midnight and then had a 5 hora drive back XD Plus I had a cold but tbh it was a lot of fun and I needed it XD After I get comida and laundry done I might ramble más on it if people are interested but it was quite a fun adventure with the band XD

Oh yeah I was at an away game that had us in a hotel over the weekend btw. publicado hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ comentó…
that was unexpected news but hola glad tu had fun xD yes más please.. hace 12 meses
GDragon612 comentó…
yyyyyyyyyyoooooo finally back!!!, but i am happy too tu had alot of fun<3 hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ dicho …
Riku why u no have time xD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cuz Im a bando XD hace 12 meses
JetBlack__ comentó…
:D hace 12 meses
GDragon612 comentó…
hahahaha XD hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
Fyi Goodbyes are still 200x harder than just cold turkey o any actual parting publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^This is in relation to the fact I got to see my boyfriend two nights hace and had to part as well tho on the same día XD It was harder than I thought it would be hace 12 meses
Riku114 dicho …
My relatable character lista is really hard to rank at this point XD Also I moved a few to an "EX-Relatable" lista since I was feeling some really didnt match up to the standard the lista held publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I also now added Tiers so I could place them más generally into Three Ranked boxes rather than trying to compare two really close ones. hace más de un año
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The Tiers arent really ranked inside the tier but First is higher than segundo which is higher than third hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
HIJIKATA GOTTA STOP DOING THINGS AND SAYING THINGS SIMILAR TO WHAT IVE DONE AND dicho FUCK OFF publicado hace más de un año
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ALSO CHIZURU STOP DESCRIBING HIM AS SOME PEOPLE WOULD DESCRIBE ME. tu TOO CAN FUCK OFF XD hace más de un año
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I might just go eat my pastas, pasta bar and glare. XD hace más de un año
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Hilariously hes also nicknamed "Demon Commander" por his friends and subordinates which is very well paralleled por the fact everyone in my old band called me "Satan" XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly I'm not too good at mostrando affection out of the provider method. Providing gifts, money, aid, help, and all that stuff. It doesnt really work well for people that dont want it o people that dont understand that type of affection, but its just the most natural and comfortable one for me.

Im also pretty good at the method of spending quality time, but I also feel that flies over people's head a lot since I have limited time so my 'quality time' often isnt long publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im usually busy so cutting out like... half an hora o an hora to just tu really says something hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honest to god my boyfriend is the más sweet thing ever. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
*most sweet hace más de un año
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Im the luckiest to have him in my life hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ah yes. The 4 AM call time for a football game in Marching Band. Sounds about right. XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Lowkey feel a little bad cause people are comparing their schedules to mine and feeling lazy but that REALLY isnt fair. I keep myself busy sometimes as a bad coping mechanism XD Being busy is usually easier for me than being free publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Oh huh. Thats the first time I dicho that since I turned 18.

I guess Im finally / officially 'legal' now XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
FUCK IM NO LONGER #TEAMTEENAGER ON fanpop XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Well.... "Teen"ager comes from the "teen" part so Im still a teen until Im like.... 20 XD So I still kinda am? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its weird tho XD Being on here since I was like 11 almost 12 makes it odd being moved a biiiiit into the older group. TBH not THAT old since there are a lot of older people still on here but yikes XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im 18 and take 6-7 pills every morning. What am I 60? publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
tu are 11 año old cat xD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Hijikata is too relatable tbh XD publicado hace más de un año
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Welp that Chem midterm had to be on of the easiest tests Ive taken in a while publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also I was debating between the conflict in my own values and ideals the fact that one of my closest college friends currently does drugs (which I am firm against myself; but I have had online friends that abused it so now that I think about it I should have no problem with it XD) but from what Ive heard and seen so far, shes rather responsible about it and doesnt push it so I suppose its fine. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
My firmness on that value of mine hadnt had such a direct pregunta to my decision of people to be around and to choose to be friends with since those that did do it that I was friends with did it after I already took them as longer term friends so something like that was a matter of concern for them rather than decision making on my part hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But personally, as much as I disagree with the usage of drugs and what not, as long as people arent in my face about it and trying to get me to take part and they themselves arent harming themselves with it o their behavior while on it isnt harming others, then its not really horrible. Everyone's life is their own hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Same as Zeppie and agree !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly I really like my Microecon professor XD I mean Ive always loved Economy - both Macro and Micro - but he just makes the class great. Both a wonderful professor and just person in general XD Plus with my amor for participating, tendency to sit in the front, and the small conversation I have with him before and after class Im on pretty good terms with him too XD

But lowkey my favorito! class to go to (until we get to Poultry in Animal Science prolly) publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Imma wanna die the siguiente two weeks XD

I have 9 hours of band practice this week, then an all weekend marching trip, two labs, and a midterm XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
omg

"arrrghh my head"

Youtuber: "Yeah tu should just amputate it" publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
ouch XD , get well soon Riku~bun<3 hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Nah XD That wasnt at me it was a thing in the game he was going through hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
hehe thats good xD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
extraverted Sensing (Se) (30.2)
good use

introverted Sensing (Si) (25)
average use

extraverted Intuiting (Ne) (29.3)
average use

introverted Intuiting (Ni)      (34.3)
good use

extraverted Thinking (Te) (43.6)
excellent use

introverted Thinking (Ti) (30.3)
good use

extraverted Feeling (Fe) (20.7)
limited use

introverted Feeling (Fi) (27.2)
average use

TEMPERAMENT: Theorist publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh the Temperament was a different wording for the "Rationals" "Idealists" etc etc hace más de un año
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But yeah that felt like probably the most legit of the tests out of the ones I took hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Fuck I was gonna record it but decided against it and now wanted to post it on my muro but now I cant find it :v

Anyways there was a Hijikata quote along the lines of "If I find myself in capable of doing a task, it is my responsibility to delegate it to someone who can." publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Personally thats the great thing about communications, having people around tu with diverse skills, and - in the larger spectrum for like nations and what not - trade. Time is very limited and one cant spend their whole life learning literally everything (against as much as I talk about it and seem to try to XD) so some things have to be passed up. hace más de un año
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AND THIS ALL STARTED FROM ME THINKING ABOUT A HIJIKATA QUOTE hace más de un año
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I hate myself XD (not really) hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Hijikata is also pretty relatable. Saito is más specifically relatable while Hijikata is más generally relatable publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
WOOOOO DORM TO MYSELF. God its been so long since I felt as free as this XD I amor my roommates but as the anterior post on this muro said, my mind just automatically assumes that they serve a presence like my parents so like... yeah XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly the thing about PTSD that I didnt really fully notice until I went to college is how it just makes tu have a constant sense that where-ever tu are and regardless of what facts tu present, there is a massive tag on everything that marks it a threat / possible danger.

Like I find that my dorm honestly feels exactly like it did when I was back at inicial but there is NOTHING here actually to give it that feeling publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Likewise, the college itself does as well outside of learning. I just suppose it hasnt fully occurred to me because when I felt that constant presence of a threat that isnt there was when I didnt know / accept that I had PTSD and when I did know / accept it, I had my boyfriend around me at least an hora almost every día hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And as cheesy as it sounds, I can honestly say the only place I felt normal - at least in terms of sensing a threat o anxiety - and safe. When I am around him, there is no levels of filters watching every word and every gesture and every thought and everything. Im fully genuine around him because my brain goes "Oh look. We are good and safe. No worries, feel free" cause he just makes me feel safe. HE doesnt really do anything too actively. HE isnt over protective o take up my inner routines to protect myself from a nonexistant threat. Its just that hes there and its like a safety net o harness. tu wouldnt go on an obstacle course 200 feet in the air without one of them, but when its there and dado por a company tu can sue, tu are much más okay with it hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im charismatic, smart, driven, good at applying myself, and considerably successful and just looking at the stats Ive got everything going for me way better than him. But honestly, its like people being amazed at the árbol and how beautiful it is without looking at the very soil, water, and nutrients that even let it be that. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ughh XD Im sad now. Im hearing the band practicing field mostrar for tomorrow's football game that I didnt sign up for cos I figured Id be exhausted but now that I hear them its giving me good old memories to late night practices and now I wanna be there XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Today was a fucking shitty day. 10/10 would NOT recommend publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Hijikata is great XD Saito seems más fitting as a partner in my opinion but Hijikata is a great character XD I seriously amor his casual cursing being part of the smaller details of his characteristics XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Oh shit one of my options for a therapist is trained in EDMR therapy XD I dunno if I wanna go for it though cause I dont really know if its the type of processign and recovery I want to go about but that therapy is like a really rare type to see publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
It really shouldn't feel as odd as it is to be dado normal friendly attention and to be treated as a normal person as it does. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
IRL I mean. I have a lot of online friends I feel give me that too hace más de un año
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WHY IS BUDGETING TO MUCH FUN? publicado hace más de un año
2ntyOnePilots comentó…
*too I’m sry, couldn’t help it. Argh.. plz don’t @ me, ik I’m hypocritical hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It was actually supposed to be *So hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also 7-10 PM Chemistry Labs was a mistake publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
And people are starting to notably notice that Im ahead of most of the class even when Im in a large universidad XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
College is the ability to say "You know this professor lectures 4x slower than I can learn por lectura myself and I have a TA and discussion classes to work through anything I might not know so fuck this lecture" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I have a midterm for Chem (not really a midterm cause I have two cause they dont understand what the word 'midterm' means) siguiente week and tehre are two más chapters to cover and Im pretty sure I could cover the two chapters on my own and start doing practice tests in the time itd take them to cover the single first chapter today hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally I think I like Pokemon partly because Im an animal lover and the fantasía of being in sync with your pets much más like companions and partners and going into battle with them just sounds like an awesome relationship.

Of course a large part is being raised with it, but my animal lover, my combat obsession, and my amor for fantasía just kinda melds together as well. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I suppose to animal lovers, it depends if tu see the battles as forcing them to fight o as working as a partnership to fight that makes tu pregunta it. Also I like to imagine pokemon less in the "I wanna be the Pokemon Master" way, and más in just like a world of Pokemon and conflicts and stuff going on and stuff. A more... mature and stuff orientated type hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
HArd to explain but I dunno XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I feel the same way when it comes to that matter !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My hair is so good for hair / head banging publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
Meow hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
headbangs with Riku❤ hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am honestly so sick of shitty fucking service management and help in the mental health department of fucking everything. Fuck Kaiser and maybe now also Fuck Davis publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I amor Davis but fuck their whole student care. Im paying for insurance yet have to struggle to book a single fucking appointment with therapy o psychiatry. I have STILL yet to get one despite all my efforts hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Poor service in the mental health department isnt even funny in the slightest anymore hace más de un año
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Not that it ever was hace más de un año
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FINALLY GOT AN APPOINTMENT jesús CHRIST hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Linkin Park is a real headbanger.

Also for those that wonder how well I hide emotions and even major breakdowns, Ive had two full breakdown and like.... three o four almost breakdowns and none of them have been noticed por my roommates o bandos who have been around me pretty much 24/7 publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I know how that is very well !!!! hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
And yes. Linkin Park rocks. It still remains one of my favorito! Bands !!!! hace más de un año
2ntyOnePilots comentó…
Linkin Park rocks! (Literally) I’m glad I’m not the only one who still gets a kick out of their music. (R.I.P. Chester) hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I still hate when my mind randomly reminds me how ruined and stolen my childhood and teenhood was stolen from my family situation and mental health. I usually accept it and can think about it and grow from it, but sometimes my brain just hooks on it in a form of comparison and just get really envious and sad and tries to drag me back into grief over it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its one of the things that I still almost definately need música to block out. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I was video chatting with my boyfriend when I took a two minuto break and something just brought it back and now Im just kinda really tense trying to block out the thought cause its not good for me to think about and if I think about it my mind starts going down a bad track and I start dissociating but even when Im playing música to block out the bad thought train, I still am tense af and my body still wants to be anxiety ridden hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I really do need to figure out therapy though so I can actually continue to work through things hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally for a while, I spent a lot of my life kind of lost in my own mind and just living in the worlds in my head and even in a reality slightly warped o rather wrapped in a veil of distance and separation. It felt so separate from the world.

I would have this sense of companionship and socializing talkign to online friends 24/7 while pent up in my room, rarely actually talking to anyone. A life that was perfect and a well developed and stable personality publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
While not knowing the first thing about myself and while being a mental health mess in a toxic family hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It was honestly a bit of a false reality and while it may have felt really good from time to time, I feel that its good that I got my reality and the TRUE reality to match up and work on actually taking part in the world hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I am not to say that friends online are not real friends o they dont provide companionship, however its hard to say that it fully fills the role when there is nothing in the actual physical world to be around hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
If I were to say anything, it was probably a lot easier, más peaceful, and fun to live like that and honestly sometimes there is a deep longing to go back to living like that, but this seems better - as más difficult as it is hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Welp I finished Saito's route and like.... I dont wanna go onto completing ANY of the other 12 rn cos I amor Saito and that story worked so well it doesnt feel like the others could compare XD

Im sure they are great but Id feel wrong moving on so fast so I might take a few days break o something.

Saito is great though publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
14 hours of game play and there is 11 other main routes XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Welp, it is reasonable. Give yourself some time to reflect on what tu have went through before tu jump straight into the other Routes XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Saito is so making my relatable characters lista XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Sometimes, I honestly feel like if Im not of use to people, I really am not wanted, needed, o worthy of attention / affection o whatever.

I am very aware that it isn't true, but I can't say I am not taken off guard o uncomfortable when I realize someone is liking me not for my skill in anything o my intelligence o my ability to help them, but just rather for me and myself and...

Its just weird publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I kinda relate to Saito in that matter hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I was actually having cena with one of the other trumpet freshmen and for over half of it I was internally struggling to comprehend the fact that I neither was amazing at the trumpet compared to others, havent shown off any particular academics, o really anything useful to them yet.... they still treated me and seemed to want to welcome me into being friends regardless and it just didnt seem right o to make sense XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD Thanks guys. Its not really a major concern but más so a reflection / analysis / observation I noticed on myself and felt like rambling about. It is just something that I noticed and one of the things that resonated strongly with me when a similar topic was beign discussed in Hakuoki XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Lowkey in a huggge ramen mood since I cant go to the dining commons but also not wanting to spend money

Id kill for like... legit ramen. Like legit cooked ramen. The real delicious good shit. publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
ramen I WANT ALOT*_* YUMMY!!!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
ALSO FUCK HAKUOKI SLIGHTLY XD

It makes me miss my boy más XD Cos Im like "Aww... this is such a nice romance cute thing... I relate case of my boyfriend... BUT HES NOT FUCKING HERE AND ITS BEEN LIKE TWO AND A HALF WEEKS AND I WANT HIM BACK. GIVE HIM BACK TO ME." publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly, I just kinda like having him around because I get a nice sense of security that makes it so I dont have to be well in check 24/7, looking over thigns 24/7, being responsible and controlling everything, and jsut all in all being a really spectacular, responsible, hardworker all the time. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I mean its GOOD when I am doing that and it REALLY doesnt drain me too much to be like this 24/7 cause its honestly just a different mode of sorts and doesnt really take much energy for me to keep track of everything and stay on task and everything, but I really do enjoy occasionally allowing myself to be stupid, to make mistakes, and to not have to look far ahead to make sure everything is going exactly as I plan / want it to and all hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Still tho. I amor Hakuoki hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Hajime Saito > Hajime Hinata

I amor both but Saito is great publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Hajime Ichinose > EVERY other Hajime so far !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
"All too often, doubt is little más than a poison" ~ Saito Hajime publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I burnt my self out helping my roommate with basic Chem that I just had a major energy and mood crash the segundo a minor inconvenience occured in my work when I started it at night

Whoops publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly the great thing about a well done Otome game is it gives tu a small, short version of the feeling of falling in amor all over again. Its not as long lasting, and its not as intense, but for a short moment when playing it, tu just get the rush and softness for a minuto o two where tu are like "Ah... Love"

Not enough to where tu fall in amor for real, but enough to get the feeling of being loved and loving. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So it seems the first game "Kyoto Winds" is más of the set up and is much más linear even with the different romancable options and then "Edo Blossoms" is the segundo half where tu start right away getting to be offered which route publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its just kinda nice being as busy as I am to be honest XD Makes keeping my club up and active harder but still lets me have fun and what not while still feeling like Im making progress in my life

Oooooh

I think I get to sheer oveja this Friday por the way

#Hype publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Relatable !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Apparently I am matching with Saito más just with my natural decision choices XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I wonder how much Ive read in Visual Novels in my time... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Hakuoki plays a lot better than I expected XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly... People assume me to be much más in control and independent than I am - o at least más than I comfortably am. Im driven and perseverant and all, but I really dont like doing things Im completely unfamiliar with alone and I dont necessarily know how to do everything. I mean, that is normal for people, but it seems like almost everyone but maybe my boyfriend and maybe my oldest sister realize that. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im great at leading when its somethign foreign that Im somewhat used to o something similar to something Im familiar with and all, but when its completely unknown, I really amor to have someone actually help me out. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I can get pretty easily overwhelmed alone in an area I feel like I dont have any solid footing in. Most things I do feel like I have solid footing in, therefore I lead rather well and handle myself rather well - but if I dont have a plan o any real guidance of something Ive seen before o anything, it just throws me off hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cos bois I still got severe anxiety thats just being mediated por medication hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I see that being perfectly natural, Rikubun. Someone thinking otherwise would seem unusual to me. That applies to every person and the impressions they are giving. Especially if tu have come to know them well !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ugh. I honestly wish I was actually taught how to do taxis and bus crap cos now I have to figure that stuff out on my own and its a pain in the ass. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Also a note as to why I need to take my anxiety meds daily. Cause I missed it today (and probably also cause I missed it two days ago), it was causing my body to start reacting in an anxiety attack what with the inability to breathe and shit hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im alright cause my sister actually gives me más help than "Take cash money and figure it out" and cause Im aware the reaction my body was having was primarily due to the lack of medication and I just took my medication but yikes hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Apparently I bike at least 4 kilometers on a regular school día so its a bit too convenient for Pokemon Go XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I might start playing Pokemon again. My schedule isnt as dense as I hoped it would be to make playing the DS más convenient but I still probably will. Maybe help my roommate complete the Pokedex publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My roommate and sister dragged me back into Pokemon Go. My trainer code 1156 7110 6840 for anyone who wants to add me publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im so forwardly in amor with birds publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
AQUA IS OFFICIALLY A BOSS FIGHT IN KH3 publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Yeah theres a lot of biking in Davis

Oldest Sister: I told tu there was a lot of biking in college

Me: No tu dont understand

Me: Davis is a whole new level

Me: Just google UC Davis Bike

Me: Just look out your window at Davis

Me: Davis is a bike publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its kinda nice that the torturous longing to be able to hug and cuddle and be with my boyfriend has been replaced with an excitement to go inicial and be with him in just a week of being here.

I really miss him and we can do so much when I get back XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I'm honestly just so lucky to have him. The distance honestly kinda makes me appreciate even the smallest things even more. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
But yeah Im not really the type of person who should have been out of therapy for over three months straight publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
tu are going to be starting it again now that Summer is over. Right? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
If I can work through Davis hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW tu are unsure whether tu are just really bad at recognizing your own emotions o really good at lying / convincing yourself that one emotion is the siguiente publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cause lowkey had a bit of a breakdown over the thing mentioned below and I know my need to stay active is a hugeeee front and the boredom is a HUUUGEEE red herring to keep myself from actually having to feel / think about my feelings hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
The thing is, even after a bit of a crack in it, I still dont know what Im blocking out, what, o why and for the time period that I was extremely distressed about boredom, I genuinely thought I was depressed cos I was bored cos thats a thing for me but like, I can bet tu I was depressed for some other reason and I only started to feel it cause I wasnt busy and was distressed cos I was feeling depressed and was using the scapegoat of boredom so I could ignore my own issue hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
God Im bored publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im not even a week into college and Im already bored of it. >.> hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It doesnt help my mind isnt in a "Have fun and relax" mode and thus dont feel comfortable / motivated doing anything fun which means I cant get into a game o manga o anime o anythign even if I forced myself to hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im HONESTLY going to burn out so fast if Im like this for much longer o if I cant relax on the weekend hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
That feeling when your shy introverted roommates have a larger will / want to make más friends than tu XD

I just am too lazy and dont have people Im interested in yet XD

Ive got invited to like... two o three parties already XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Sorry if I dont talk too much to people I usually would XD Ive been busy and distracted to keep up with my normal online routine XD publicado hace más de un año
Shukuya comentó…
No problem hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
Hey,as long as tu still here that’s all it matters. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ This. It is understandable, Rikubun. No need to even mention it !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Imma take a bit of a nap 20 minuto cause Im super tired and I never end up napping for más than a few minutes

*two hours later*

Me: FUCK ITS 4PM AND I MISSED día ONE OF SCH- Oh wait. Huh. *talks to roommate for like two minutes* Imma just curl up for like five minutos o something

*five minutos later*

Roommate: We should probably go eat soon since we have to leave in a bit

Me: Yeah sure around five

Roommate: It is five. tu fell asleep an hora hace publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
The cama must be so comfy xD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its alright XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I was just super exhausted hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So this is gonna be a copy paste from what I texted people on messenger but college story time publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Also dude. Someones bike flipped and they flew off it cos a janitor bumped the back of their bike with their vehicle and she - the rider - totally skinned her knee really badly and was bleeding a lot hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Karma has its very own pace and ways of rewarding. Glad things worked out for both of tu !!!! hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
That was weird xD Hope it's just a beginners welcoming XD be seguro Riku<3 hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I honestly just feel happy and comfortable when I can really help the people around me that I care about. ITs one of my easier ways of mostrando affection and all, and if people can come to me for help and I can help them, it just makes me feel respected and liked.

Maybe its a bit wrong, since its a dynamic that could get unhealthy, but in moderation I feel like its fine publicado hace más de un año
Shukuya comentó…
I think you're doing great hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Update: Quickly getting my good biking legs back publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly if Im not on much its cause Im moving in and doing school prep and figuring life out at college and all and I just feel odd being on my computer much now XD publicado hace más de un año
Rihanna312 comentó…
linkI`m just gonna leave this link here for when tu get back on, in case tu haven`t seen this yet ^_^ hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Awww XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Wow my whole dorm room is the " 5' 1(.5)" girls with dysfunctional families bringing trauma and bad pasts to UC Davis hoping for más luck and a fresh start here " publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My roommate is a wonderful person and I amor her XD We are gonna have a fun año publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
^Since when (her) means boy? xD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^ Plus platonically amor XD Also Im bi / ace af so gender doesnt matter for me hace más de un año
Shukuya comentó…
Sorry about that i didn't noticed!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
On a scale of one to ten, do tu want to die?
On a scale of one to ten, do tu want to die?
But if tu want to die
tu cant afford a funeral
So sadly I must say, tu can not die publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly its not that bad for me but feels man hace más de un año
Shukuya comentó…
Life is game, dying means quiting it and I never quit a game hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me and my roommate are whining and complaining about medical shit and college shit and assholes who write their own textbooks every año and make their students buy them publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
... well I was gonna make a Luka + Flugelhorn icono but I cant subir it >.> publicado hace más de un año
JetBlack__ comentó…
Oh ! why? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
fanpop glitching hace más de un año
8theGreat comentó…
I dig it hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Seriously though I just amor my college band. So hyped for Monday Practice this Monday XD They make me feel loved and welcome. Its great not being the mom for the first time and just being the 'kid' of the band since tu get that really nice older sibling feel and that "we have your back" feeling that I havent had in a while.

They are honestly wonderful people. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is wonderful to know !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
As for a college update, Im moving in tomorrow XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW tu spend all día playing online games with your boyfriend since tu both have the día off and tu still miss him XD Its honestly lowkey great to miss him like this. It both means Ive made great progress in mental health, that I really did amor him, makes the smallest things feel like the largest, and honestly just makes me más fond.

It sucks but like... Ive never been so happy o excited to play Fortnite o Stardew o anything before. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I realize that when comida is now on my own money, I eat a lot less of it XD Its probably for the better tho cos like... I eat más than I should XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly its quite a great thing that Im missing my boyfriend XD Its a huge improvement from what I used to be like with my mental health. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Annnnd now I need to figure out something to keep me busy and entertained the siguiente two days in a city I dont know, without a car, and with dead legs from band camp XD

Ill figure it out but for now Imma sit cos my legs are dead XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I AM BACK AND THE BAND IS GREAT.

#YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
WELCOME BACK! XD That is good to know !!!! hace más de un año