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Riku114 dicho …
Honestly... I really need to work on figuring out how to pull the breaks on my life cause honestly... my personal physical and mental health are so low on my priority lista no matter how much I want to claim otherwise.

I wouldnt be working myself to constantly sleeping on buses, migraines, and complete exhaustion each morning and night for two o three weeks straight if I took care of myself properly.

Cos yeah my work ethic is up there, Im on parte superior, arriba of things, but man does it have a toll publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cause seriously, I normally cant sleep around people o in the día time but Ive been passing out in buses and cars. And yeah, I have an uncanny ability to fall asleep in moving vehicles but around bandos in the morning? Its really something. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And Ive been on band trips three times (six times if tu count hte round trip as two) and like... all but maybe one I was at least half asleep hace más de un año
rainy
Riku114 dicho …
Ugh... Ive had a horrible migraine for the whole last quarter of the football game (it was a lighter one that I thought might just be a mild headache since the start of the game), the whole ride back, and now which probably makes about an hora and half of horrible migraine... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Man every día is band during marching season I swear XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Should I add "Satan" to my lista of nicnkames? o unofficially do so? publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Honestly, I believe tu should add it. I already got accustomed to it XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
#Satan hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I really do feel Im an ENTJ tho tbh. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It feels the closest to mee hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
*me hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, with my band rambles, I can kind of see why people like me.

I have the egocentric-ism, intelligence, problem solving skills, and extroverted capabilities that make it so that I look like a confident, knowledgeable person who I guess can be admired and all

Yet I still have the flaws and realism of my depression, anxiety, and sadism

But even with that, its mostly controlled and ultimately all of that is set asside to be caring and protective a lot with my character. So... idk publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im just kinda bored and trying to self analyze in the view of others hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
That's another reason. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Tru hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Apparently one of my rookies had a dream where she was being bullied then I, out of the shadows and darkness, manifest and pour my wrath upon them causing them to fall dead to the ground.

Honestly, its not too far off from the truth. Shes probably one of the most, if not the most, precious rookie I have and Im insanely protective over them all so...

Did I mention she and the other rookies like to call me Satan? Its a long story Im willing to explain publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cos like when I was in ninth grade, I was almost constantly an angsty, depressed shit among other things and I REALLY didnt like being annoyed o bothered with at certain times so I developed this thing one of my trumpets called the "Soul Eating Glare". So from then on I became known for the bando that eats souls which I think, when combined with other traits of mine, got me jokingly calling myself Satan. And apparently I introduced myself to my first batch of rookies as "Satan" saying "Nice to meet you, Im Riku but tu can call me Satan". So from then on, three of them just had me in their phone as Satan without me knowing until it came back around this año and literally 80% of them changed my contacts to some form of Satan and my newest batch of rookies all call me either Dad o Satan hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Some of them even call me "Daddy Satan" hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
#SatanAgain !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So my boyfriend has gotten to the point he can tell if I plucked pretty accurately even if the amount I plucked was minuscule in amount

Meaning
1) I have más peer pressure to not pluck as I cant get away with it and he isnt harsh on me about it / rides my culo about it / makes me uncomfortable - yay
2) I cant let myself pluck at times since I cant get away with it. Boo.
3) :feelsbadman: when I get caught publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
That being said, thats en general, general a good thing. Its just Trich makes it so eehhhh. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Since my current icono is no longer Kingsman for the sake of Halloween, I will revert my perfil back to its neutral background. I may o may not go back to it when the season has passed publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Why cant I be a zoologist vet medical communications autor economics business woman side youtuber?

My life is way too short to satiate my curiosity and craving for knowledge on topics that interest me. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh and dont forget música composer. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM WASTING PERFECTLY GOOD OPPORTUNITIES TO CHOOSE ONE OVER THE OTHER AND IM LIKE SHOOT MYSELF hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh and therapist was in the original lista of things so *a zoologist vet medical communications autor economics business woman therapist música composer side youtuber hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Come registrarse the icono Contest~!

link publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
How many times have I dicho "BRB" on a conversation and never returned to it cos I forgot?

I mean for some people in the past Ive done it intentionally cos I didnt feel like talking at the time

But like...

Is that the online equivalent to a dad saying hes going out to buy leche / some cigarettes and never coming back?

Is that what that is? publicado hace más de un año
Zeppie comentó…
If that's what it is then I'm a shitty father :v hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Yeah and then tu find out that tu father has created a whole family with some Spanish perra and he doesn't even remember tu anymore. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^RIP hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
@Zeppie Same tho :v hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I also hope Riku mentions some nouns over the siguiente few days because I'm running out of stuff to recreate in Minecraft. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
What if Riku woke up tomorrow and found that there was just a bunch of mindless ramblings of ME on her wall. Like...what if I'm just typing crap with my eyes closed and hoping it forms a coherent sentence that could be funny? publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I think the reathon I didn't wathch Kingsthman The Thecret Thervice is because the título thounded like thome kind of thocumenthary. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
We need más "Wacky races" style movies. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Brain matter makes your brain matter. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
HAPPY amor YOUR HAIR DAY! (A Riku holiday if ever there was one) publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^True hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Ugh I need a break Im so exhausted. I wish I didnt have band practice today so I could relax and save my energy...

Band: Practice today is canceled due to the fire. Percussion will still attend and stay inside.

Me: YAY! I GET A BREAK!

YAY LETS WORK ON SCHOLARSHIPS AND COLLEGE APPLICATIONS!

Me: GOOD IDEA! publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I seriously need to learn how to pull the breaks and R E l A X hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, Im not sure if my good and boosted mental stat after the mes o two struggle to adjust from weekly good to monthly bad therapy sessions is because I stopped feeding the obsessive, overthinking OCD thoughts o because I stopped prying at my dissociation and instead am letting myself pretend issues arent there.

Honestly its probably both. On one hand, Im not falsifying and creating issues off of obsessive concerns, but Im also ignoring genuine issues and not being being present publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its really hard to say if I should request más sessions o not. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ideally I would like to keep the infrequent sessions if I could have my old therapist back hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is something that needs to be discussed. Pretending that issues aren't there won't really help. Rather, they will be returning to the surface every time tu let your guard down. I believe that tu should speak your mind in every case. Especially if your own health is on the line !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Yeah I know. Its just hard to differentiate if whats being lessened is the overthinking o the actual issues being addressed. Ill probably discuss it was someone at some point tho hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
OH MY GOD!

THEY CALL THEM CARGO PANTS BECAUSE THEY CAN CARRY ALOT OF SHIT! publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
OH SHIT YOURE RIGHT hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
The Men of Yoshiwara: Kikuya isnt really the best otome game but its decent at the very least once tu get used to the blatant flaws in it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Now that a raccoon walked into my house and I got to see one for the first time up close, raccoons just jumped up on my lista of animales I like.

They are so much cuter close up than in photos. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Tragedies are always wonderful publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Indeed they are. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Being wonderful is always a tragedy !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Howd tu know what it woud be like hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I cut myself several time on the tongue and on the roof of my mouth with a REALLY sharp sucker. I mean it was hurting to suck on but like... XD It tasted so good. I just kinda assumed the damage wasnt that bad

Turns out now my tongue has like three spots where cold water kinda hurts to drink and the upper roof of my mouth has like three as well XD

Those things need warning labels on them. Its like I was eating a razor blade o something XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ive taken a liking to reviewing games on Steam for some reason publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Is it wrong that I kinda relate to Souh Tesla's mental health struggle? Cos that doods fucked up in the noggin

Im here just trying to figure out what his "sickness" is since thats what hte game is named after and its a big part of it that I imagine there might be a mental illness tied into it and what I have guessing so far is that they are illuding to schizophernia, dissociative identity disorder, o OCD, albiet they would be making inaccurate depictions of any of them. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Obviously at least a bit of a psycho/sociopath though. But yeah. Between those three, those are the ones Im guessing, más closely to the first and third guess tho. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But yeah this visual novel is interesting XD I enjoy it. BTW its called "Sickness" and is on sale on Steam if yall are interested hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Estimated time until Zach and/or Rachel spam por Riku: 3 days publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
We will seee hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Drat my estimations were off. Damn tu Sickness XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
ángel of Death! A VIDEO GAME ALL ABOUT....what happens when a person is unaware of what the term suicide por proxy means..... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^XD XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I need to make my trumpet a fanpop account at some point. Just have it play around my club at times publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
parte superior, arriba 5 People (not in an order) Im Thankful for Having in My Life
-My boyfriend
-Wantadog
-Zeppie
-My Trumpet
-My older sister publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I felt like calling them all out hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Seriously tho, life would be so lame and Id be so different if not for these five people. They make life amazing and great. Thank tu all for being tu :3 hace más de un año
Zeppie comentó…
I'm thankful for having tu in my life too c: tu wonderful person you. <3 hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
<3 hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
It really still baffles me WHEN I became liked por so many people.

It feels like one moment the only person who liked me was Wanta, then I blinked and I have a club people go to a lot, a lot of online friends, practically a cult of followers in band, several people who have asked me out, and one of the most popular-not-popular people in my school where I can walk in the hallways at school and expect like two "Hello"s

Like...

When did it go from Wanta to this publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Also shout out to Wanta for being the OG and still lasting all this long. XD Ive had friends before him but yeah. Thats counted in a different category hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Wantas been my pal for who knows how long at this point... 5 years? Are we going onto 6 I think? I think we are going onto 6 years now. For a short while I stopped using the term bestie cos I had a bit of a bad experience with it and it felt a little rude but really. That guy deserves "Bestie" title. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Tbh, it might not mean as much since I have a notably bad memory, especially of my younger years, but I really only have a few memories before Wanta was my friend. Its kinda weird thinking of a world where it didnt happen. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Sorry XD Im giving too much of a ramble of appreciation to the friendship. Still tho, hes great. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I WANT más FORMAL WEAR DAMN IT

I WANT A MULTI-LAYERED SUIT TAILORED TO MY SIZE DAMMMN ITTTT

I WANT A TAIL capa AND SHIT GUYS

I MEAN COME ON

IF I DIDNT HAVE BAND ZERO PERIOD TOMORROW ID GO IN ALL FORMAL WEAR publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Okay I seriously amor this icono cos it is serious and stuff and when I type stuff like *dabs* it just makes me laugh my culo off XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
It just contrasts with how I act on here so much its hilarious XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
YALL NEED TO KNOW ME FOR KINGSMAN TOO. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I MAY o MAY NOT COLLECT EACH DVD OF IT WHEN IT COMES OUT hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
*Starts to associate Riku with Kingsman* hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
HAAAAAAAH! link hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I think its seguro to say Kingsman series is probably my favorito! movie series publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Might make my perfil themed it XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Okay so the count goes (ones I found easily on the channel)

English: HIchigo, Gin, Kyoraku (slightly), Ukitake, Staark

Japanese: Ulquiorra, Kenpatchi, Byakuya, Grimmjow (slightly), Urahara, Toshiro

Couldnt Decide: Mayuri, Soi fon publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Hollow Ichigo, Staark, and Ukitake REALLY appealed to me más in English. So while they didnt get as many over on their side, they got más firm ones XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Group projects are literally communism as it doesnt matter how good o bad tu do, everyone gets the same grade publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Note to self: Wanta has increíble pixel art abilities publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Little does everyone know that Wantadog is actually a ardilla with 300 Walmart receipts stuffed into his cars sunglasses compartment publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Tite Kubo is being added into the lista of people/celebrities that I find likable and fairly admirable. publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Fun fact:Tite Kubo is a fan of the "Saint Seiya" manga. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ooh? hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Also the"Soul Society"arc does have many similarities to Saint Seiya's "12 Zodiac Temples"arc. hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
I'm not saying that Bleach copied Saint Seiya but the inspiration in that arc was really obvious. hace más de un año
sunny
TheLefteris24 dicho …
Riku needs a new Character to get obsessed with. I'll be glad to assist !!!! publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Yay! My first muro post in this Club lol !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
SHHHH IF THE GAME GOES ON A NICE SALE ILL GET IT BUT I CANT GET ADDICTED o LOOK INTO THE CHARACTER UNTIL I GET THE GAME ;-; hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is understandable. Thought of keeping the hype fresh though with a small vista previa XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD Of course XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Important news bulletin: There are no gatos in America publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ya know one of these days I should get a lot of us together to do "Dont Starve Together" together.

For those that have it that is publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Sounds fun. I can go steal más eggs from those terrifying ostrich things hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Dude sorry Ive been pretty inactive. Super busy week. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also I seriously dont know how Im supposed to do college without Lucy... por no means do I trust him with my mom since shes made all of my most people-loving birds fairly wild....

But hes so precious and adores me. Makes me feel nice and loved. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Guys, I gave my boyfriend a lista of dere types and his judgement is I am a mix of Tsundere and Yandere. However with certain moods of mine I am also a hardcore Kuudere. But his two main ones for me were Tsundere and Yandere. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Pictures of birds make my day. Birds are just such derps that its amazing. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
The 10 año old screamed at me that I hate my perros and are mean.

So out of spite, I bought the perros outfits and toys.

That'll teach her. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
People think its mainly the caffeine that causes soda addiction and all

Honestly, for me, its school that causes it. I usually follow por the rule "Dont drink soda too much if there are better options (juice for meals, water for desk). A few occasions are okay though o if its needed to function / keep mood up."

However with school I often find myself so tired and exhausted that if I want to complete all my duties AND have a bit of a break to myself, I need some kind of boost publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
So I end up drinking a SHIT ton of soda cause I really kinda do over work myself. I can easily stray way from soda when my days are lax and not super draining but when its busy, I can drink like two o three large sodas and a can in one día hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Dont tell Riku I'm here, guys. Shhhhh publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Why does amor in Bleach never turn out well? Yeah yeah, I get the ending - Ichihime and Renjiruki and all turn out cañón and happily ever after BUT THATS JUST BULLSHIT ENDING STUFF

Not to diss either ships o anything, but I kinda believe they only turned out happily as they did cos it was the ending. Its a little out of tone with the anime. I mean the manga makes it seem más natural but every other form of amor in ever other case in Bleach seems to end in tragedy publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like for example. Byakuya and Hisana. Isshin and Masaki. Ishida and every girl he had a crush on. ginebra and Rangiku. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like off the parte superior, arriba of my head, Ichihime and Renjiruki are the only relationships/affections/feelings/crushes in Bleach that had a happy endy hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Cuz movie characters never get to live. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I realize I really dont have a medium personality irl. It wasnt really apparent until I came back from summer this año but with my boyfriend Im all soft, nice, cute, super caring, peppy (in good moods at least), and huggy but when Im in a regular school environment o at band I have an apathetic, sarcastic, low energy, leader-y, friendly but not over so, grown, and "I dont really care to help if Im not feeling for it" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Some people who noticed small bits of it are always slightly shocked / weirded out for a minuto o two before shrugging it off. Cos like one time I was talking and actuación how I normally do around people before I was like ":3 Ill do it for (insert boyfriends name)" in a very cute, peppy, más child-like voice before abruptly returning back to my normal school voice and I had like a "o-O" look from the people i was talking to and a "Im going to puke" from one of them. Mentioned it to my boyfriend and hes like "Oh yeah its very VERY different but I dont mind." Cos quiet honestly hes used to my heavily differing facets I show. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like seriously - voice change and everything for that one moment I talked to myself outloud mid conversation. Like I have a más deeper voice and usually a resting perra face when I speak and when Im around my boyfriend its usually a higher más peppier voice and usually with a bit of a smile, regardless of if Im happy o not hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its just kind of weird tho. Mostly just kind of rambling her about something I noticed hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its also interesting how I dont really seem to have such drastic splits in my personality online though. For the most part, the Riku tu see is consistent and/or can really have the change in behaviorisms just be explained with mood Im in at the time yet me offline can act super different to different people and in different scenarios - más so than I feel most naturally do. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
IRMA GIVE WANTAS ELECTRICITY AND INTERNET BACK. IM SO BORED publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Imma make a parte superior, arriba 10 Bleach Characters lista since I havent made a parte superior, arriba 10 articulo in a while and Bleach REALLY deserves one since Im its perra and there is no better time for it since Im re-reading Bleach

Actually the best time would be after I get to the Fake Karakura arc (cos I really didnt care much for hte Fullbring arc) in the manga butttt ehhhh.

Ill write más on each of these characters when I remember más details on them when I get to it if I feel like it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its strange how lectura Bleach manga feels so different from the anime even though there has only really been one actual story difference and like maybe one medium detail added that Ichihime seems much más prominent in the manga than it was in the anime publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
FUCK. THAT FEELING WHEN tu PLAY THROUGH THE GAME MAKING AS MANY friends AS POSSIBLE AND tu NEED TO DO A RUN WHERE tu HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO friends AND ONLY 9 FRIENDS.

I HAD más THAN 9 friends FROM THE FIRST CHAPTER ;-;

I HAVE TO PLAY THROUGH ALL FOUR CHAPTERS AGAIN?! ;-; I will do it tho publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
YOSHI NANASHI WHY ARE tu THE WAY tu ARE

I got the good end but Yoshi Nanashi....

Relatable in an eerie way. I out to see the other endings and I may o may not add him to the lista depending on if I get less of a kinda creepy connection. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*goes from owning 0/74 Bleach manga volumes to 21/74 volumes in one week* :3 publicado hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
*thumbsup* hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Bleach is triggering me with how they are calling a cockatiel ad parakeet. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
At least the Wiki correctly refers to it as a cockatiel XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Btw for those that didnt pick up on it, Ulquiorra radically jumped up my relatable characters lista to be up with Kano, Akashi, Aika, and Ryouko

Actually over time i think Ryouko has moved down XD

But its hard to rank them since they are all demonstrate seperate parts but like

1) Kano
2) Aika
3) Akashi
4) Ulquiorra
5) Ryouko

If I were to guess. If anyone is curious as to the elboratin / explanation for each I could give it a shot if tu send me a message of interest on fanpop publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Does lectura manga from an actual book help with sleeping like actually lectura a book apparently does? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I think Im catching my school off guard with how on parte superior, arriba of the college stuff I am.

Cause the person in charge of the college and career center at my school didnt have the lista of people to calculate what percent of the school I am until I got in cos she had to take five minutos out of our appointment to do that XD

And I just went to sign up for the scholarship program my school provides and i think its still glitchy XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh yeah, she was able to calculate that Im at least the parte superior, arriba 5% of a school of 293 students. So like... parte superior, arriba 15 students at least. Probably higher tho. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
.... I publicado a muro post about how i had my first entire time lost where I literally zoned out and lost like five minutos of time where I apparenlty had a full conversation on minimum wage at the cena mesa, tabla with my sister

But it didnt post so yall dont get más details on that. It wasnt really exciting anyways publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: *probably the only senior in my class excitedly working on my applications and scholarships* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But really, quite honestly I like to / almost always need to be focused on something and this is pleasant for me. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Sometimes I gotta wonder if its really that odd to feel so pulled back from the world to the point I believe the world exists as real as people tell me it is only slightly más than I believe that God is real.

Like... really? Not only does the existence of the world itself not have a logical evidence, but it just really doesnt feel its an actual encompassing thing - like Im actually there.

For me the world just feels like a really vivid dream o elaborate VR. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I take the word of people that its real but... Quite honestly I almost always feel like this and almost always felt like it to my memory. People call it "dissociation" with how far taken back and separated my sense of reality and how rarely Im actually present, but it really blows my mind that there are people out there that dont continuously pregunta the validity and reality of the world hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like Im not in a bad mental state o anything. Its just something I struggle to comprehend. I can comprehend the blind faith in God más than I can comprehend how some people can feel the world is real so naturally. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But yeah the acceptance that the world itself just may not exist / may not be real, that really everything could just be pointless and make shift, and all that is something Ive long since accepted and lived with, coming up with a lot of somewhat optimistic philosophies and vistas like "Even if the world ISNT real, its the opportunity to experience that matters, so even if the experience isnt truly real, if there is no way to break out of the illusion, its best to take the false illusion and enjoy it as much as tu can. Its an opportunity to see the world, experience, and live. False o not, real o not, nothing o not, its not necessarily a chance youd get again" hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
ahhh. I have school tomorrow and I REALLY should sleep cause every hora less of sleep I get the stronger my anxiety and shit will probably be....

but like Ive been intentionally avoiding the thought of school using various tactics because it kept giving me anxiety for no reason and if I were to go to sleep, especially since Im not tired, Id actually have to deal with the thought of waking up for school tomorrow...

.-. I know school will be fine and all but it doesnt kill the feeling .-. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I hate anxietyyy hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im half tempted to like... Draw Genocider Syo in my "Good Drawings Done Off Reference" just so my first three entries in it are all people that either have it well established o technically have MPD XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I mean Hollow Ichigo is technical since it isnt as much a seperate personality as much as it kinda is a genuine other self but at the same time it kinda is? XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Also, Junko Enoshima is another DR Character that would fit well in this aspect. I amor these types too !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
@SilentForce Yeah tu really should XD @TheLefteris24 I did draw her before realizing that I couldnt shade / detail well without color so I only did an outline for the most part XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Apparently from what Im hearing, Bleach has a lot of the staff wanting to animate the last bit of it, but they are missing permission from Shueisha and BORUTO estola THEIR DIRECTOR :V :V :V

Nah tho. Ive waiting a while for it, just hearing its still in consideration and talked about makes me super happy that I could wait several years for it. Let Boruto have its fun publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Your constant talk about"Bleach"is reminding me that I really need to finish watching it XD.3 o 4 years hace I watched the first 2 seasons and I liked them very much but I stalled the anime and ever since then I haven't gotten around finishing it. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
tu should finish it XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*is eating Fritos with nacho cheese using chopsticks so she can still use her PC w/out getting it dirty with chip oil* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ive used Chopsticks to eat some of the oddest things. Like Popcorn, Ribs, Fried Chicken, etc. I should eat a hamburger with them just to see how people react hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
It amazes me the level of ship wars that go on in fandoms XD I just checked por the Bleach club out of lels and saw a "Which is the worst bleach pairing ever" and of course IchiRuki and IchiHime were just below RYUKKEN X URYU

Like seriously XD They say that IchiRuki and IchiHime are WORSE than a HEAVILY creepy Father X Son relationship.

Quite honestly though, I dont really think any ship listed on there could be possibly worse than how creepy that is publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like even if tu dislike the ship, that ship is just so horrible. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Kinda hurts me to see a few people have such a dislike for Ulquihime o Rangiku X Gin, but I kinda understand it since some people could say it is / would have been abusive in nature hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I mean the age difference is so large that Ryuuken could be Uryu's fathe- ... oh wait hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
How is / was Bleach such a big anime yet there is so little really good fanart I can find of the characters I really like? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Is it normal to feel overworked before even going into school? Cause Im in summer and Im exhausted and thinking about school is just kinda....

Like its not even that I dont want to go to school.

Its just doing más than what I already am and doing it well sounds just.... kinda a scary demand.

Ill probably be fine, even if my first Saturday of school is welcomed with an ACT test. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I am Bleach's Bitch. Just for all of tu to know. It controls me publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know its a problem when my mom can recognize the anime Bleach within just a few segundos of seeing the screen. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
This is a perfil diseño I made one time when I was having trouble sleeping XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So I got a new PC and the keyboard is just a little odd so itll take some getting used to. Sorry if I make a lot of typos XD publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Riku needs ALL of us to mention Bleach in as many conversations with her as we can. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Just a fun reminder that pretty much all my favorito! characters are dead

Not really just like 75-80% of them but yeah publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
Same por me. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know its the first time since like... 4th Grade that I ever felt liked enough and liked enough people in person to really actually want to have a birthday party. Every time between then and now has been forced pretty much. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like seriously.... I used to find birthday parties annoying, pointless, stupid, a waste of time mostly cause I saw like... all my irl friendships as pointless and an entire waste of time since none of them actually are REAL friends and none of them are actually going to be long term friends and all so I didnt really want to even bother with that... but like.... I dunno. Maybe Im a little más open to the idea of it and trying and all. Cause some people have really made it clear in the past week o two that they really do adore me and really would miss me when I leave to college and all. There are just some people I wanna spend más time with before I go to college and risk loosing contact and all. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My PC did a stupid while I was seeing if I could mover my collections into another place and I lost all my Amenisa: Memories imágenes I collected as well as a good portion of my "Band" folder, most notably including all of BTS' images

So yeah. My PC has barely any Bangtan Boys imágenes now. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
A few years hace 50 imágenes would be an average batch size. Now a batch of 90 imágenes is considered a small batch publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
A friendly reminder that Ulquiorra needs amor publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Okay so heres the thing. Im open about being an Ulquihime fan, but Im not going to say Ichihime doesnt have its validity. It effeminately does and its a fair ship to become cannon. Orihime clearly liked Ichigo, Ichigo seemed to have shown signs of liking Orihime. But the thing is I still see a lot of potential that could have happened in an AU of Ulquihime with how things were going and to a degree I also think it could have been valid dado slightly different circumstances. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But no really Bleach has a tendency of having relationships / amor that doesnt work out and I fully believe that Ulquihime is a pretty unrequited type AND IT PISSES ME OFF ULQUIORRA DIES SO CLOSE TO ACTUALLY KINDA HAVING A NORMAL SENSE OF HAPPINE- //shot/ eherm. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Reasons Why My Rookies Are Adorable:

Us: *texting*

Them: Will tu be at the potluck tomorrow?

Me: Yep

Them: Yayayayyyaaaysyayayayaayya publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Dood. Did an abrupt impromptu Vice President speech for a band meet and greet in front of the entire Band Boosters (parents) and I think (and apparently other people were telling my mom that I did) I did really good XD

At least 20x better than I thought Id do

I guess Im not really bad at public speaking after all XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
UGH I STRONGLY SHIP ULQUIHIME THE más I LOOK AT IT. THEM AND SARUMI MY GOD.

SARUMI ENDED KINDA OKAY

BUT ULQUIHIME. I GOTTA puñetazo, ponche THE GUY THAT KILLED ULQUIORRA OFF RIGHT WHEN- DSJFLKSDJF

WHYD I READ ULQUIORRAS UNMASKED CHAPTER?

POOR GUY publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Dood. I today realized that my duty as Vice President of Band translates usually to "The Presidents Dog / Back Up" but here actually translates to "The person who is the messenger and communicator in order to try to make it so the highest up officers and the lower down officers dont spend the año hating each other"

Cos pretty much I realized thats a duty that isnt and hasnt been filled at all and weve had consistent useless Vice Presidents soo... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Bleach the anime, no matter how much I recognize the flaws and all, no matter how much I know its not the best anime in the world, has the strongest control over me that makes it almost feel as if I do see it as the best anime in the world and constantly just tugs me around to constantly drool over it.

Like why?

Like how? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu ever wonder if "good always prevails" because "the winners write history"? So the winners always say are seen as good and because they won, good always seems to prevail? publicado hace más de un año
SilentForce comentó…
"Power is Justice.Those who are in power decide what is right and what is wrong"-Cancer Deathmask(Saint Seiya) hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^ hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I wanna make a Fushimi background for my perfil to save, but I promised Akashi one and itd be kinda wrong if I were to make a Fushimi one first. On that same coin though, my past TWO/ALL backgrounds have been red.... So Akashi's would probably make another red one and blue might be a good change of color scheme... publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Fact of the día with Riku: Saruhiko Fushimi is attractive and his voice is almost más so, there is no denying it nor arguing it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uv1oGZCQKI

segundo Fact of the día with Riku: Fushimi isn't properly understood por 90% of the fandom due to the lack of people lectura lost Small World

Third Fact of the día with Riku: Riku REALLY needs to find where she left off on that mange and find dicho translation on tumblr since its there but not on her manga sites publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know tu dont use coins when tu go to count only your quarters (cos your band is having a coin-based donation game and tu have way too many coins in your wallet for your wallet to be efficient anymore) and tu have $17 of quarters and $10 of dollar coins. I also put all my dimes and nickles in for donation too. Only $7.50 of quarters and none of my dollar coins since I kinda collect them XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
But really.... it just kinda amazes me how much Ive come to notice the millions of rookies I adopted each año actually really like me. Like I tend to adopt like 5-8 rookies each year, which, over the span of the 4 years Ive completed and this año I started, results in about 20-40 rookies Ive adopted ever.

And like... the ones this año are REALLY fond of me. Like I have rookies from other sections being like "I wanna be an honorary trumpet cause tu guys are really fun and talkative. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
My section is all quiet" and within a week having some of them be like ";-; dont leave us siguiente año ;-;" and the ones from years prior too. Its like.... am I REALLY that much liked / enjoyed? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
And then I kinda realized I have a similar, even though smaller thing like that, on fanpop and Im like :v :v How do so many people like me? hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im going to shoot myself. I have an SAT tomorrow right after a week of super exhausting band when I already got a really nice score and shit. I already know my siguiente score will be notably lower than the first one I did and bleh. Imma be forced to wake up early and take a several hora test just cause. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I probably just wont humor that segundo SAT. I dont care if my parents dont think my score is good enough o whatever. I have the highest score of most of the over achievers in my school without having tried and the only reason I was thinking of taking another SAT was if I could have time to study before hand and I didnt hace más de un año
ace2000 comentó…
wow today I took my SAT for the segundo time too hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Howd tu do on your first one? hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Psychiatrist: So have tu been abnormally tired since our last visit?

Me: Oh h e l l yeah.

Psychiatrist: And not because youve been staying up late and have been having to wake up early for band.

Me: Well I mean, yeah, but it was like that before hand :v publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
To be honest Ive been sleeping at somewhat regular times, o at least trying to XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Band camp makes me so thoroughly exhausted that Im barely making it through the día with enough energy to just sit at my computer cos Im only exhausted and not sleepy o anything.

Like Im currently running on fumes and Block B which I went to solely because I know their música gives the fumes Im running on a little más power.

Im probably just going to get through the last one of this week tomorrow on the idea that its the last one man (and the longest day) publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My plan worked XD Make Junior año (last year) super hellish and make Senior año (this upcoming year) as easy as possible.

I have literally 4 non-band classes XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Aka about 2 hours of non-band school a día XD hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
A P P l E S publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I amor the minor key tbh. Major tends to sound happy and all, but I like the eerie, dark, and sad tone of a minor key.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmrhzGyW1Fo

Listen to that guy o any other song on his channel thats dedicated to changing things into the minor key.

The minor key just kinda... soothes my soul. publicado hace más de un año