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Riku114 dicho …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v estrella Wars added to it and :v hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man cine rather than half assing them too :v hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. tu know tu want to !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three o four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, o some traumatic shit o anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, o pat me o something publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
So like... I had a segundo o two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a segundo o two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the segundo floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any preguntas asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting perra face no matter what emotion Im feeling hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
RIP all my classes from today adelante, hacia adelante tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school año when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Awesome. Be lazy time? hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Lazy is life hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel favorito! of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know, if tu think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the día just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When tu think about it like that, tu have to pity superheroes publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
As an idealist, I can assure tu gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE parte superior, arriba OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A música JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
THIS IS NOTHING azada hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
*cough* My irl friends have no place judging me :v hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like más English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a música junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ #Relatable !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
música is just really nice. hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Without this música I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six libros in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I dicho Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She dicho I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other libros (not that I even studied R&J) publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years hace and really liked his character más than I should have, watched an anime version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Despite never really watching the movie o anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Me too! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy día XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder o shit. Im in a demented tired :v hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what tu call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
jk jk hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even más so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt o shame to back it up. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer tu get to me, the más creepy and unsettling things tu might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem o hold against myself hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my en general, general character. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I want sleep publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
tu NEED sleep !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Sleep? hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
ya deserve sleep so much hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
"If that's the case, then tu owe it to yourself to pick apart the games tu LOVE, not just the ones tu hate."

amor that. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG tu ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cos like... perra I doubt tu are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Jk jk hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the culo with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my en general, general trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make friends and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when tu tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl friends are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts dicho …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a año when tu live here publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Welcome back hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, Im waiting for más information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually dado out on her character.

Im super interested tho. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing o sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy o because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if tu ask me. Like I wasnt shocked o surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my favoritos XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD parte superior, arriba Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Great to know. Looking adelante, hacia adelante to seeing it myself !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy culo bastard. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Not really but still. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him o give him any leeway o even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people tu want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Lol! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also a misceláneo fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby dinosaurios publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Also, tu doubt it until tu hear what baby cockatiels sound like. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
link hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also misceláneo fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 minutos of bird videos within each day.

It makes me happy. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my amor and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement o uncertainty of facts, that within five minutos Ill hear "Hey Riku! tu are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
It’s expected por now I imagine:) hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of tu are right o wrong. tu are just ignoring an entire half of his character. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side o the other. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot más interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE publicado hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
It was a great movie. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence lol !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I dicho we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an hora o two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest o something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure tu rest whenever tu are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts dicho …
hola this probably sounds really weird but I amor tu guys. Feel free to ignore this if tu want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable o just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its cool dood XD hace más de un año
nightiee comentó…
tu too hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at tu !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just por talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what tu feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko más than I did the first time publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I could see tu relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this anime !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
link hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Wow 5hats pretty cool hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
❤️ hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
lol hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
welcome back wanta! hace más de un año
sunny
TheLefteris24 dicho …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the lista of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! publicado hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Got it :^; hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Uh what was that I just did?! hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Are tu talking about the Emoji tu made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Yup. lol hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts dicho …
<3 thanks for the hope publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Keep the hope alive. <3 hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Preach 🙏 !!!! hace más de un año
nightiee comentó…
Keep the azada alive hace más de un año
2ntyoneplts comentó…
Oh Satan! XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of tu mind but I wanted to put that out there. publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ !!!! hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything tu want. It's a blog of sorts. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there hace más de un año
sunny
TheLefteris24 dicho …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! publicado hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
xD leftie hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
XD !!!! hace más de un año
sunny
TheLefteris24 dicho …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ Preach !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Aye hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that descripción fits me VERY well XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror mostrar about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
At least we now know hes aware hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
^Eh... hes a child hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out más of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched misceláneo stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected tu and will continue to help tu in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free perra hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist o psychiatrist about at some point. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried o concerned, I should be fine.

Thank tu so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let más of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my siguiente therapy session and individually on my own. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We amor tu too !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
We officially have a baby bird. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
We might have two hace más de un año
GDragon612 comentó…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics jugo, jugo de xD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my favorito! character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his videos can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi videos can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral o calm and managable mental state hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time o something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The reciente events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did o anything Im pretty sure.

Thank tu to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. publicado hace más de un año
Zeppie comentó…
Take all the time tu need. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Feeling better ish rn hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
A little hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Figuring out which Akashi icono to use when tu have so many is hard. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Literally every time I want to display a new icono showcasing favoritos of mine. It takes a while !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
For me I have to like the icono and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the icono either cos it represent it o because it soothes o it just feels fitting at the time hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the más harder honestly with such a variety !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
misceláneo Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no tu over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn culo medicine publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five o six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to tu specifically, that tu knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious o important enough. Doing that is how tu make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for consejos and a segundo opinion. Ive always lived por that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt por it otherwise. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick o something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way o solving it. hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
Feel free to say your peace as much as tu like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another hora so...*shrug* hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved registrarse Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tu know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, tu just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already lost hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and mover on. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I owe people in my highschool más credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my friends from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

o the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I amor him. Hes family. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ill be honest. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Thats actually going to be my clubes new quote hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
True, I suppose !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 minutos is always good for when the brain is being stupid. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
#Relatable !!!! hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do tu pretty good !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" o "proud" to tu in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty minutos of being asked to compliment you. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
TFW tu get hit por a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize tu forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of supernatural o really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those frases hit way too close to inicial and their dynamic feels too personal. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant o tempts to bring tu back into a anterior bad mental state? Like tu dont actually fall back to it, but tu feel the pull for a segundo in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Like a mini panic of a warning? hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
XD this is just a pregunta for anyone XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
@Me a año hace saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly going through my muro for an articulo is interesting cos firstly, this icono makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even más shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an hora of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
That's me with whatever misceláneo app has my interest for the mes XD hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it o get run over por whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I amor it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is great to know. Wish tu all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let tu name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
IM FINALLY inicial AFTER A 15 hora ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Welcome back XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always amor having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight hora drive to get here but Im here. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of tu !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself más than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer tu do it... the más magical and wonderful and secure and confident tu feel. publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I dicho before, pretty admirable !!!! hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Seeing tu making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
God Im tired XD publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Relatable XD !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Riku is oppressing me! publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
:v hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in amor with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After estrella Wars and Kylo, I fear having two popular series holding characters I amor publicado hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
tu would amor Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my favorito! works geesh.

*knows más anime osts than animes* publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! hace más de un año
BlindBandit92 comentó…
You've listened to the fate ost even though tu haven't really seen the anime? lol hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
tu continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still lol !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. tu forget a lot. tu loose your history and your past. tu loose your childhood. tu loose your sense of identity. tu become a grandly incomplete person hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe tu can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in friends and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with consejos and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress o anything hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with dicho person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

amor is nice when tu think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true amor is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true amor CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. publicado hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
"Love is not equal" hace más de un año
wantadog comentó…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! hace más de un año
wantadog dicho …
Three cheers for depressing yourself por asking for the impossible publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me más anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Baujel is such a wonderful character hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
The only issue I have to be honest with escritura his character is that I por no means depict him por his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
But sh.. this isnt a formal escritura peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby escritura and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im escritura it how he remembers it so it comes out as más mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
tfw tu have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE tu dont so tu gotta research :v publicado hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
Okay I decided. I will amor Lusamine begrudgingly publicado hace más de un año
TheLefteris24 comentó…
Riku: I hate you... But I amor you... But I hate tu !!!! hace más de un año
Riku114 comentó…
Accurate hace más de un año
Riku114 dicho …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks tu into doing the first statement. publicado hace más de un año