ok.. after a while of hesitation.. I finally decided to speak in front of all of you.. first of all I wanna thank you for your support and your concern.. and yet I want to apologise for making you so nervous and distracted, I really didn't mean to;(.. I need to say I was close ... and lots of idiotic thoughts used to invade my mind recently, since I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown... you know under certain extreme circumstances.. people are incapable of thinking rationally... but God would eventually stop me from doing anything reckless.. And now I know I need to live on, show must go on, no matter how hard life may be sometimes.. just saying.. it all has to do partialy with things I wrote on SFS forum.. and one of my close family members, who fell down with a gastric flu and was suffering terribly...:(.. and it was also about a person who I know is suffering terrible social unjustice right now and needs lots of prayers as well... there was a time when I thought I wouldnt handle it anymore, but as I said, God saved me...
and you gave me strenghth and hope. And I really want to be stronger now.. I wont be here too often now because of my upcoming exam session but I promise I wont do anything reckless I PROMISE, please believe me!
YOU ALL ROCK.
And here's a blue flower for all of you, for your warmth, support and concern...
Sending you lots of huggies,
Sandrei