posted by NocturnalMirage
Can't fight fate
Seriously. Those of tu who have been here for an extended period of time... can't tu feel something's not right here? I certainly feel it. Truth to be told, I've been feeling like that for quite a while now. The club is not what it used to be. The RP activity has dropped (when I came here a año ago, at least 6-7 Rps were in session, now look at the foros section!), the fanart activity is decreasing as well and there are barely any new encuestas o examen questions. This was used to be my “happy place”, where I can get away from all the burdens, complexities and ugliness of life for a bit. But now, misunderstandings, conflicts, confrontations and fights erupt between the members. The most active contributors are leaving, o become inactive.
I first noticed something's changed 3-4 months ago. The degradation has been spreading exponentially ever since. If we don't figure out something to reverse the process, I fear this club will be a ghost town within half a year. I'm not overreacting, I've seen it and I'm a media analyst. My job is to determine certain trends and patterns. I'm only saying all this, because I care about the club and most importantly, the people I met and befriended here. It hurts to see them fight and hurts even más to see them leave, once I got to know them. It's like losing a family member. Yes, I care about the club and tu guys, but I do not wish to experience this painful feeling any more. I managed to vanquish the negative energies twice, but I don't have the will and strength to fight it off the third time.
The way I see it now, I will stay until Season 4 ends and finish all the impending projects I have, before leaving the club. The events of the reciente past and a few things I've read today settles it for me. I've been sensing it for quite some time now; I tried to resist, I tried to deny it, but it's true. Can't fight fate...
Before tu ask, no, I won't commit suicide o anything like that, but I admit, a huge part of me will die when I leave this place. The end is near.