MJ........

I know its been almost a año since michael's passing and i know ive dicho in preivous post that i never cried that much, but today i started to listen to Better on the other side, not even 10 segundos into the song i started crying. For some reason i try and be strong and i tell myself that he's in a better place, and i sometimes believe that he's still alive but at the same time im really confused about the whole thing. I really miss michael and i wish i had never ignored him and i wish i would have paid más attention to him when he was alive. I sometimes just feel bad that i did that and i never gave michael a chance and now that hes gone its like im a die hard fan and when someone says something bad about him i sometimes just want to scream " LEAVE MICHAEL ALONE!!!!!HASNT HE BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH WHEN HE WAS ALIVE!!!!!!!!. I know this sound really stupid that im putting this on here its just that i needed to pour out my feelings. If anyone has any words of encouragement that would be nice. And please no negative comments.