As I put Rachel to cama I take a deep breath and I open a book I try hard not to think about my birthday. The harder I try to put the events from yesterday out of my head the más I hang on to every word and replay every moment.
Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the parte superior, arriba of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. tu were going to stand up for me. tu felt defensive of me. I should tell tu that I loved the way that felt. tu whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. tu felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know tu needed time alone. I have done nothing but order tu around and keep tu jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything tu do makes me más afraid that this is not what tu want. I wish I could tell tu that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell tu that when tu walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel tu inside me and how amziing tu feel to me. I can feel tu in my core. The moment that tu took me in your arms and tu picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that tu would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that día in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid tu will find out I am not what tu want. tu will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need tu House. I need tu so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are tu so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother o I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do tu want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just más than tu can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" más than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time o barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. tu wait on me to screw up o to let tu down.
House maybe that is why tu lied to me o tried to get out of my birthday dinner. tu are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell tu afterwards because tu made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change tu have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well tu can leave. tu don't have to be here. tu are free to leave anytime tu want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One más is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just dicho it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
tu are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in amor with you. tu were my fantasía House. tu were in my head and now tu are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my corazón now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched por tu and how tu feel when tu make amor to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and tu put your faith in me and tu found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; tu turned a deaf ear to it and tu just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I amor you. He led her to the paino and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands mover across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted tu there." I didn't know how to say it o how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized tu had always been there to save me Cuddy and tu took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much tu have dado up and sacrificed for me. tu put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at tu about the surgery tu did but tu did it to save my life. tu knew I would be furious.
House did tu forgive me?
Cuddy tu have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The pregunta is now,
"can tu forgive me?"
"I amor tu Cuddy." "The way tu draw your bottom lip in when tu want something and tu don't know how to ask for it. The way tu raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when tu are trying to put your foot down. The way tu flirt with me and even the way tu look at me at the cena mesa, tabla when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought tu wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was tu naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House tu always want sex.
No. I want you. I want tu to hear tu laugh. I want tu to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want tu to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want tu to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want tu to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made amor to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to mostrar they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new día and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the parte superior, arriba of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. tu were going to stand up for me. tu felt defensive of me. I should tell tu that I loved the way that felt. tu whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. tu felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know tu needed time alone. I have done nothing but order tu around and keep tu jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything tu do makes me más afraid that this is not what tu want. I wish I could tell tu that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell tu that when tu walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel tu inside me and how amziing tu feel to me. I can feel tu in my core. The moment that tu took me in your arms and tu picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that tu would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that día in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid tu will find out I am not what tu want. tu will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need tu House. I need tu so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are tu so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother o I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do tu want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just más than tu can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" más than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time o barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. tu wait on me to screw up o to let tu down.
House maybe that is why tu lied to me o tried to get out of my birthday dinner. tu are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell tu afterwards because tu made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change tu have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well tu can leave. tu don't have to be here. tu are free to leave anytime tu want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One más is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just dicho it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
tu are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in amor with you. tu were my fantasía House. tu were in my head and now tu are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my corazón now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched por tu and how tu feel when tu make amor to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and tu put your faith in me and tu found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; tu turned a deaf ear to it and tu just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I amor you. He led her to the paino and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands mover across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted tu there." I didn't know how to say it o how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized tu had always been there to save me Cuddy and tu took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much tu have dado up and sacrificed for me. tu put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at tu about the surgery tu did but tu did it to save my life. tu knew I would be furious.
House did tu forgive me?
Cuddy tu have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The pregunta is now,
"can tu forgive me?"
"I amor tu Cuddy." "The way tu draw your bottom lip in when tu want something and tu don't know how to ask for it. The way tu raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when tu are trying to put your foot down. The way tu flirt with me and even the way tu look at me at the cena mesa, tabla when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought tu wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was tu naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House tu always want sex.
No. I want you. I want tu to hear tu laugh. I want tu to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want tu to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want tu to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want tu to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made amor to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to mostrar they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new día and a chance to make history.
"Their history."