Story: "Don’t leave me behind"
Author: edwestwick (Ana)
Disclaimer: I don’t own Gossip girl o used songs.
Summary: Chuck is going to leave New York for good after he saw Blair with Nate. Will Blair see who she really has mariposas for and what if it’s too late?
“An would u like it if i put u into my world
There’s broken hearts in basements
An broken amor on the streets
tu were so fed up of it all always involving me”
“Do tu Wanna" Kooks
It had to be done. Of course it had. I made right decision. She couldn’t say it and she’ll be better off with Nathaniel. She’ll forget about me and she will be happy. I want her to be happy but I couldn’t stay. It’s for the better. Than why can’t I stop thinking about her? The look on her face when I told her I’m leaving. Why did she have to cry? She should know it’s for the better that I did it for her. Why did she have to change her mind and want me when everything had been going with her plan? But she will forget I’m sure. If I could just do the same. I should know tu can’t just forget Blair Waldorf and this new free Blair Waldorf is impossible to forget. Why do I have to think about her all the time? I’m in Monaco where usually I would be laying drunk with few girls on playa por now and where am I now? I’m drunk for sure but instead at the playa o in club I’m laying in cama alone for segundo día which makes it all time since I arrived.
With that thought I got up from my cama which looks like one big mess not that I’m any better I thought as I looked in the mirror. I haven’t showered o changed clothes since Cotillion morning. Oh God why I’m thinking about this día again? I can’t think about it. It’s the día when new Chuck bajo who actually cared about something besides himself disappeared. That is definitely for the best. This new Chuck bajo who actually let himself do unacceptable and fall in amor with a girl and if that’s not enough his best friend’s girl was just weak. And everyone knows Chuck bajo is anything but weak. And it wasn’t even that good so I decided to take Blair’s consejos (better late than never) and murder these damn butterflies. Yes that’s it. Time to say goodbye to new Chuck for good and bring back old womanizing asshole Chuck Bass. And where’s better place to do that than Monaco?
After half and hora I was ready to go out. I showered, put on one of my suit pants and purple camisa, camiseta (even far away I liked to think it would piss my father off) and called a maid to clean my suite. I walked down to a hotel bar and ordered a scotch. I had it immediately since I’m owner’s son. Something good from being Bart Bass’s son I thought with irony. I started looking around to find my slut for tonight. I saw petite brunette in the corner. Not this time. Try never. No más brunettes. Pull yourself together Bass! You’re going to screw some hot chick and instead you’re thinking about her again! Just find someone already! Red head at the mesa, tabla in the middle. That will be fine. I was going to approach her when I felt someone siguiente to me so I turned around. Tall blonde with rosado, rosa lips and seductive smile. Nothing similar to chocolate curls o bloody red lips. Short coverings almost nothing dress with almost non existing straps. Nothing like classy beautiful dresses and skirts. Perfect. I could do with that. I used to enjoy blondes. I gave her my best ‘I want to fuck tu right now’ smirk and shoved my tongue down her throat. I felt fresa lipstick and some frutas drink. As I continued besar my new conquest I couldn’t stop thinking about cheery and champagne. Headbands and limos. I used to like fresa so I’ll just stop thinking about cherry. It’s simple. One night with blonde and I will be over Blair Waldorf for good. So I pulled her to me and started walking to my suite.
I heard noise downstairs and after a while someone’s steps on stairs. I figured it‘s probably Serena. I knew she would come because how long could I stop her from doing it? Hopefully she will be gone soon. It’s easy. Few smiles and ‘I’m okay’ and she will go away to the siguiente time. I’m already surprised she waited two days when usually she would be here right after lectura gossip girl’s post about soaking Blair Waldorf walking on the streets at midnight on Cotillion night instead of dancing with her date. Nate. That’s another problem. I’ll have to talk with him too. But as I continued to lay in my cama I couldn’t get myself to get up and do anything other than thinking about him. Like I was doing for past two days. I send Dorota away to my mother return siguiente mes because I couldn’t stand her worried looks when I just want to be alone. I watched my phone vibrating again but I didn’t even bother to check it. Another gossip girl blast o text from Nate and minions. Of course nothing from him. I bet he doesn’t have time between all of his whores to call me.
But why would he? He showed me it’s over for good. So if he could just mover on why can’t I? Because it’s my fault. Because really it is as much as I would like to not think that. I had gone back to Nate and I couldn’t tell him I amor him so why should I be surprised that he left? I would leave him too if he would even think of doing any of it. I should just pull myself together and forget about this since it’s not like I can do anything now. It shouldn’t be that difficult since he isn’t here and nobody knew about us only Serena and Humphrey. But I just can’t! I can’t even think about getting back together with Nate and pretending I’m in happy fairy tale.
I heard Serena calling my name and after a while she walked in. Of course she had worried look on her face as she sat down siguiente to me.
“Blair tu should dress and go out.”
No shit genius. Sure I know I should do that.
“I’m fine S. It’s navidad break so I decided to stay in instead of going out today.”
“B I know you’re upset about Chuck so why don’t tu just tell me about it and than we can go shopping o watch Breakfast at Tiffany’s?”
She really can’t get it can she?
“I’m ok Serena. Me and Chuck are over for good and I don’t want to talk about it so if that’s all tu can go. I’m sure Cabbage Patch is waiting.”
“Blair I’m your best friend and I know you’re not ok. Come on tu can tell me anything. It can’t be that bad. I’m sure we can think of something to make it ok together.”
“We can’t S! It’s really over!”
And than I started crying. I really didn’t want to mostrar her I’m not fine but I couldn’t stop it. She just hugged me and I told her everything.
“So tu see we can’t do anything. He’s gone for good.”
“You don’t know that B. tu know Chuck how he gets when he’s upset and do things without thinking. He will be back sooner than tu think.”
“No I know he won’t this time. I saw it in his eyes.”
“So we will bring him back.”
“Sure S. We just go there and throw him in the car and than bring him back to New York. Sorry I didn’t think of it sooner.” I rolled my eyes. Really could she be más naive? “Even if I would go there he wouldn’t want to see me.”
“You don’t know that. He had time to calm down and think things over. tu just have to mostrar him tu amor him and tu will be both happy back inicial before New Year.”
Maybe she’s right. Maybe I should go. Sitting her and crying over myself won’t help me. That’s it. I’m going to get him back and bring him inicial even if I will have to force him to do that.
“Ok help me pack S I have a plane to catch.”
I opened the door and thrown her on my cama already made up por maid when I had been gone. While taking her dress away I couldn’t stop thinking how wrong it feels. I wasn’t excited por her sluty ropa interior and as I ripped it off of her all I could think about was soft slip and her delicate skin. Focus Bass! tu have naked, hot chick under tu and instead of fucking her you’re thinking about other girl who doesn’t really want you. Not like tu want her. No like tu wanted her. Did not do. It’s all in the past. So I focused on moaning and besar me blonde whose name didn’t matter to me. It’s just siguiente whore. Not first not last. It will be a lot of sluts in my future. And no Blair Waldorf bullshit anymore. I grabbed her rougher and fucked her. Because I’m Chuck bajo and that’s what I do. After I ended with her I just left to bathroom pointing at the doors and heard them closing loud after a minute. I did what old Chuck would do so why I’m not feeling better? No wanting to think about it I just ended my bottle of scotch and passed out on the cama again without taking my clothes off.
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