emo Boy

I only just started cutting and I haven't told anyone about it yet.....I don't want people thinking I'm doin it for attention I'm doing it because of stuff that happened with my mum and dad...I'm also doing it because this boy that I like that did like me has apparently been using me and he's been breaking me corazón por saying he loves me but then he went to my best friend...this one guy has made me cry so much and now I'm doing this to my self I don't want to do it but I cant help it. I just don't want people thinking that I'm doing this for attention I don't even want to tell anyone but I don't just want to keep it inside me I need to tell my best friend but I don't want to hurt her because she does cut as well and it really hurt me when she told me she cut and know I do it 😞😢

I Remember
© Jennifer
I remember the way it felt
when tu where on parte superior, arriba of me
It was like tu controlled me
Your forced yourself in
So I gave up & let tu win

I remember the way tu looked at me
when I dicho NO
It was like tu wanted to mostrar tu were in control
tu pushed harder
and I tried to say no again
tu covered my mouth
so I gave up & let tu win.

I remember the sounds tu made.
It was like tu enjoyed it too much to care.
there were other people there
I should of yelled for them
But I was too ashamed; too afraid
they wouldn't believe me
o say it was my fault
I remember everything tu did
But don't worry your secrets safe
I'm still afraid.
Nobody will believe me
So I give up and I guess tu win.

Sanctuary


Fate has caused me all this pain
Inside I bare these scars
That will not heal
Please help me feel
All the amor I was denied

I've tried to find sanctuary in myself

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise o will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me

This curse inflicted upon my heart
Has gone and left me all alone
No one can justify
The cruelty i've known
Will I ever be the same again?

I've tried to find the sanctuary in myself

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise o will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me

Is this the answer to all thay is real?
Can pain really be love?
Is life too cruel to feel?

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise o will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me