Tears flow down my cheek,
I'm sitting in the bathtub,
Feeling worthless and weak,
Dig my nails into my skin... then rub,
Anger filling my lungs and I begin to think,
Why does it feel like no one cares?
All I want to do right now is sink,
Sink into the ground... It's only fair,
All the young ones who deserved to live... had to go,
And left the world all alone,
I should be the one dead... I know,
I don't know who I am... o where to roam,
They knew... and they're gone,
And I'm all alone,
In this world where there is no love... everything is going wrong,
Nothing has a correct tone,
There is no difference in what's true and the lies,
tu don't know which one is which anymore,
Young people's lives passes por fast and flies,
And all I do is slam the door,
Get away from the problems,
Just for a segundo at least,
I just wish I could solve them,
Kill who's causing this... kill that beast,
So I fill the tub with water,
Close my eyes and lower my head,
My life flashes through my eyes and I hear laughter,
I open my eyes and realize I don't have to be dead,
I was once happy... what happened?
It's all gone... nothing left,
I'm either sad o mad all the time... is there an end,
An end to it?
I lower my head again,
And ask "Does anyone amor me?"
I close my eyes... and wait 'till I'm dead,
No más pain,
No más sadness,
No más tears,
No más smiles though... no más family,
No más anything...
I'm sitting in the bathtub,
Feeling worthless and weak,
Dig my nails into my skin... then rub,
Anger filling my lungs and I begin to think,
Why does it feel like no one cares?
All I want to do right now is sink,
Sink into the ground... It's only fair,
All the young ones who deserved to live... had to go,
And left the world all alone,
I should be the one dead... I know,
I don't know who I am... o where to roam,
They knew... and they're gone,
And I'm all alone,
In this world where there is no love... everything is going wrong,
Nothing has a correct tone,
There is no difference in what's true and the lies,
tu don't know which one is which anymore,
Young people's lives passes por fast and flies,
And all I do is slam the door,
Get away from the problems,
Just for a segundo at least,
I just wish I could solve them,
Kill who's causing this... kill that beast,
So I fill the tub with water,
Close my eyes and lower my head,
My life flashes through my eyes and I hear laughter,
I open my eyes and realize I don't have to be dead,
I was once happy... what happened?
It's all gone... nothing left,
I'm either sad o mad all the time... is there an end,
An end to it?
I lower my head again,
And ask "Does anyone amor me?"
I close my eyes... and wait 'till I'm dead,
No más pain,
No más sadness,
No más tears,
No más smiles though... no más family,
No más anything...
mam cries,
dad shouts,
brother moans,
sister hides,
dog barks,
cat meows,
paremedics are coming and they'll always be coming cos i wont stop cutting my wrists.
Doctors patronize,
nurses tut,
people criticize,
kids stare,
police investigate,
teachers nag,
friends worry,
social workers came, they've came to take me away cos I didn't stop cutting my wrists.
I hoped tu like this poem even though it doesn't rhyme.
It still needs loving just like tu and I.
Playground, schoolbell rings again. Rainclouds come to play, again. Has no one told you, she's not breathing? Hello, im your mind, giving tu someone to talk to, hello.
If i smile and dont believe, soon i know, i'll wake from this dream.
Don't try to fix me, im not broken!
Hello, im the lie living for you, so tu can hide, dont cry.....
Suddenly i know, im not sleeping, hello, im still here!
.....all that's left.....of yesterday......
hola everyone. Just wanted tu to know about this song, even if tu dont know what its about, somehow it makes tu feel sad...... Just look up the song and tu will know what i mean.....
If i smile and dont believe, soon i know, i'll wake from this dream.
Don't try to fix me, im not broken!
Hello, im the lie living for you, so tu can hide, dont cry.....
Suddenly i know, im not sleeping, hello, im still here!
.....all that's left.....of yesterday......
hola everyone. Just wanted tu to know about this song, even if tu dont know what its about, somehow it makes tu feel sad...... Just look up the song and tu will know what i mean.....
Nothing Remains
© Joni Jefferson
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter – now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight
Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere – holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood – sweat – on my clothes
Hatred – confusion – disgust
Night after night, week after week, año after year
No longer a child – only an object
Silence – no dreams – no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue – goodness – happiness gone
Childhood stolen – innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone – the child is dead
Nothing else remains
Source: The Child Is Gone – The Child Is Dead, Rape Poems link
© Joni Jefferson
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter – now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight
Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere – holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood – sweat – on my clothes
Hatred – confusion – disgust
Night after night, week after week, año after year
No longer a child – only an object
Silence – no dreams – no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue – goodness – happiness gone
Childhood stolen – innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone – the child is dead
Nothing else remains
Source: The Child Is Gone – The Child Is Dead, Rape Poems link